Thanks for your words! Really touched my heart. I need all of you too. I didnt know that there were sites like this. I think its a very helpfull way to support and share opinions and thinkings.
Well I think that its really dificult to manage this kind of meds like benzos and opies.
I cant do it. Its my mum who gives me the medication everyday at my 43 years specially when you have abused drugs all your life.
Wich is your plan that works?
Wich medication and how many mg?
You say that taking clonazepam makes you not sleeping well, this is I undestood, can you explain me that?
Well thank you for me welcome.
Im feeling nice with all of you
PEACE and LOVE
I know that we can ALL make it out of the darkness and be the best that we can be ONLY by helping one another and sticking together.
You are my people and I am your people.
Who else could understand us on this deep level? No one.
It is very difficult to manage these types of medication because they have a strong addiction risk.
I do not think dependence is the same as addiction.
Dependence happens when someone uses these medications for their intended purposes and you know what else?
It is okay if we really require these medications for health issues so that we can live a full life instead of desperately trying to figure out the combination of what will help and go overboard seeking relief.
Trying anything and everything that might help and then we get stuck into an unwanted addiction.
Granted, there are those who just want to feel wasted and party but I think most of us are desperately seeking relief from real health issues.
I just want to feel normal. These medications do not make me feel wasted, they make me feel normal.
For example, I found out that I have an REM sleep disorder.
That is where your body does not produce the right stuff to keep you from moving when you dream and you act out your dreams and end up breaking a foot or something by kicking the wall while dreaming you are kicking a ball.
Your body usually keeps you paralyzed while dreaming so you don’t move much and hurt yourself.
This sleep disorder also causes very vivid dreams that you have a hard time separating from reality.
The only medication that controls this sleep disorder is clonazepam.
So...me being low on clonazepam and cutting my dosage in half, has my sleep disorder flared up.
I was also in a bad car accident and have injuries that cause me chronic pain that requires strong pain medication.
I get very severe cluster headaches which actually brain damage me every time I go through one.
The car accident knocked those out of control and I was getting them almost everyday. I was crippled by them.
Long acting slow release morphine has made it so I have maybe 1-2 of these horrific, brain damaging, cluster headaches a year now and when I do have one, it is far less severe.
It has saved my life!
I also have my mom give me my pain medication at age 50. Lol!
Because it gets tempting at times to take a little extra when emotional pain comes along, such as the murder of my friend.
Emotional pain flares up my physical pain.
I have done very well with not overusing it. It does happen but not often.
I think there are valid reasons to use these types of medications.
Like
@Squeaky was saying, we don’t label someone a drug addict who requires insulin, etc...
We should not have to be labeled and- or feel shame about needing these medications.
They are valuable and extremely effective medications when used properly.
The plan that has worked for me, with my health problem has been this:
600 mg gabapentin 3 times a day
30 mg MS Contin (slow release, long acting morphine) 3 times a day
1 mg clonazepam at night for sleep disorder
When I stick to this plan like glue, I am a person who can eat, sleep, laugh, have a sense of humor shine through, interact with others, leave my house.
Otherwise, I am curled up in a ball moaning in pain with severe migraine, cluster headaches that knock out my vision, knock out everything and brain damage me.
You see?
We are all unique individuals who have different needs and issues.
I do not feel any shame over needing these medications because I REALLY need them.
I tried suicide before I finally got the right help.
That is when I had a Near Death Experience.
I learned many spiritual things and much knowledge of the soul and the afterlife, etc... through this NDE.
I feel I can help others with what I know now.
I just don’t exactly know how to use it.
I do know that LOVE is the answer. It has always been the answer.
Listening is key to figuring out how to help others find the plan that works for them.
Peace and Love to you my friend.
I really like your insight and your willingness to help others through your experience.
We need you and others like you and I am glad you are here.
We can find answers TOGETHER!
(So sad about this, I loved him and he helped me very much) 
