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Mental Health Coming off Invega (paliperidone) injections, v 5.0

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miserable1 said:
Ok I stopped using internet and watching television/playing videogames in 2012 and a year later I could get girls way too easy, and I wasent even sleeping well since I lived on my own and had the cheapest bed from ikea designed for kids and as a guest bed. The year after that I could basically get every girl in the world but I wasted it all away by eating around 10 000 calories a day for a couple of months and eventually reading a book that made everything that had become well from not using internet, not be good. It took around 4 months from eating very healthy to feel like normal again, which at the time was able to get girls easy, but I have mostly been eating poorly every time that started to happen and then I had to start over again but didnt have to wait 4 monhts but a week or so.
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I was pounding the wall in my apartment and yelling curse words because there was a noice that made it difficult to sleep which had been going on for over a month, but it wasent imagninary so Im completely pissed at times now.
 
miserable1 said:
I was pounding the wall in my apartment and yelling curse words because there was a noice that made it difficult to sleep which had been going on for over a month, but it wasent imagninary so Im completely pissed at times now.
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I can relate to the noise situation lol
 
miserable1 said:
What do u mean? The noise I heard sounded like a jetski or a lawnmower and I wasent experiencing it as if someone tried to disturb, which the doctor who ordered xeplion thought I was.
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Sometimes there's a noise around my house that prevents me to take naps.
 
UnluckyXeplion said:
I was sure an evil spirit is chasing me, which led me to run from my house across the streets. That's when my family called the cops on me and the cops brought me to the mental hospital, and you know how it goes from there.
I actually unclock Siddhis (Paranormal abilities). The psychosis (some parts of it at least) was magical and fun.
The psychosis I had the one before, was probably the most beautiful time in my life, I never was connected to the universe as much as I was back then. It was magical.
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Emotions in general were like magic, back when I could feel normal without drugs. If I could get my brain back to 100% of what it was before, I would probably vow to stay sober for the rest of my life heh..
 
"The most terrifying force of death, comes from the hands of Men who wanted to be left Alone. They try, so very hard, to mind their own business and provide for themselves and those they love.
They resist every impulse to fight back, knowing the forced and permanent change of life that will come from it. They know, that the moment they fight back, their lives as they have lived them, are over.
The moment the Men who wanted to be left alone are forced to fight back, it is a form of suicide. They are literally killing off who they used to be. Which is why, when forced to take up violence,
these Men who wanted to be left alone, fight with unholy vengeance against those who murdered their former lives. They fight with raw hate, and a drive that cannot be fathomed by those who are merely
play-acting at politics and terror. TRUE TERROR will arrive at these people's door, and they will cry, scream, and beg for mercy... but it will fall upon the deaf ears of the Men who just wanted to be left alone."

--Alexander Solzhenitsyn
 
Dre87 said:
Emotions in general were like magic, back when I could feel normal without drugs. If I could get my brain back to 100% of what it was before, I would probably vow to stay sober for the rest of my life heh..
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I told myself that I wont practice semen retention for at least 10 years, so I won't get psychotic again. I miss my emotions too, everything I did was fun and I felt alive before this disaster happened.
 
UnluckyXeplion said:
I told myself that I wont practice semen retention for at least 10 years, so I won't get psychotic again. I miss my emotions too, everything I did was fun and I felt alive before this disaster happened.
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I'm still holding out hope that in 7 years or so the dopamine receptors will renew themselves..but I was able to find a way of life that is worth living and is empowered now, and yes some of it involved drugs..at the same time working out and having something to live for. You're in an extremely fucked up videogame and have to level up your character to level 70..
 
Dre87 said:
I'm still holding out hope that in 7 years or so the dopamine receptors will renew themselves..but I was able to find a way of life that is worth living and is empowered now, and yes some of it involved drugs..at the same time working out and having something to live for. You're in an extremely fucked up videogame and have to level up your character to level 70..
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Since I got migraines from flatscreens(even television) and migraine leads to alzheimer, it was natural for me to avoid internet and tv. Internet is not the universe.
 
I have never tried drugs but when I was younger I was high on life all the time. When I was 16 I started chatting with girls on the internet and looking at porn sometimes so I lost myself. But I found myself again when I stopped but it took over 6 months untill I started to do so and over 2 years untill I did so completely. Too bad I couldnt handle it, but I never thought I would be lobotomized.
 
So how is exercising going for you all? Yesterday i went to the sauna for 17 minutes, was rough. Felt kinda dizzy after. I also did 3 sets of bicep curls and 3 sets of tricep curls. I know its not a lot. But im trying to get back into it slowly. I think today i will try 3 sets of should press and 3 sets of a working which i dont remember the name of, but i know ot trains the upper back. Besides that im a do an hour 20 mins walk today
 
I’m sure semen retention didn’t send you into psychosis >snip< People go years with ejaculating
 
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