It never quite let me be outgoing except in confined social situations i.e. with 5 or less people. I recall going to bars on the island while on acid and that was always an odd yet rewarding experience. Sometimes shit got weird cause people were drunk obviously. And then tripping acid at Epcot was similarly rewarding but fraught with social anxiety at times. Hmm... I certainly spent most of my early trips with others, only when I started taking MXE late in college did I start tripping alone and even then it stayed mostly confined to dissos for a few years with a mild solo 2C-C trip here and there. Then when I moved out on my own with my wife I had a lot more opportunities to trip alone, and my tripping friends 'grew up' so to speak so many don't take much more than alcohol and cocaine. Those that still trip only do so at fests or on rare occasion just me and my two best high school buddies I have left. But now that I've moved away from my hometown I feel very isolated. Lost interest in tripping mostly.
I miss my friends. I hope I can move to a place within 3 hours drive since my parents still live there. Far enough away no one can pop in but close enough that I'm not deterred by the drive.
When I say "taught me", what I really mean is that I purposely put myself in difficult social situations that made me very uncomfortable, while tripping, with the intent of learning to become more social, because I was tired of being so shy and unsure of myself. It was trial by fire, basically. But it worked, and I managed to become a much more confident and outgoing person.
Sorry about your friends. I now when I moved I had a lot of trouble meeting new people at first. I was super fortunate that Delsyd and LOVE LITE happened to move here a year or so later, we met up and became instant friends, and then through them I ended up meeting the friends who reintroduced me to music and through that, I have met countless people I call friend now. I think as an adult is can be much harder to make friends, but I think the key is to get involved in something you enjoy and meet people that way. That way, you have something in common already, and it's much easier to get through that wall that adults tend to put up around themselves when facing strangers.
I can get losing interest in tripping when you don't have anyone who wants to do it with you. After years of tripping by myself and exploring inner space, I felt I had done that enough, and now I find value and novelty in tripping with others. But until I moved where I live now, I never had anyone to trip with. Where I live now is so full of musicians and artists, and the music scene in general is full of psychedelic people. So I have lots of people to trip with, but I imagine that if I didn't, I might feel less and less like tripping over time.
Sounds awesome, would love to try MXM one day.
We hit an underdose, unfortunately. Seems like the 2mg Bitcoin blotters are kinda weak or the cross tolerance is stronger than we thought, maybe both? We are definitely feeling effects and they’re somewhat nice but it reminds me of my 10mg DOF trial more than anything. Sex was mindblowing on it though and we are still having a lot of fun. Currently on my second beer, there’s more to come.
Edit: took 1.25 blotters so that should be 2.5mg, but I seriously doubt that.
Yeah blotters are notoriously unevenly dosed. Also tolerance is a thing. Although it tends to cut through tolerance for me, it might not be the same for everyone. And although it cuts through, it definitely isn't as strong.
The plateau phase is awesome, even at this dose. I’m very talkative, confident, surprisingly hungry and in a fantastic mood overall.
Ha HA! So glad you get the plateau stage effect, not everyone I have talked to does. it's the best part about DOC for me, I absolutely love how it feels in the second half. Exactly as you describe... it's why DOC was, at one point, indisputably my favorite of all drugs, and remains among my favorite (only the duration is a negative for me now, whereas I loved the duration when I was younger).
I just brought the blotters since they‘re so easy to transport.
