Free at last
Bluelighter
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- Oct 13, 2021
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3-4 a day. Had one ten milligram left and decided I wasn't getting anymore. Took half one day and half the next and that was that.
I was taking up to ten Vics/perks a day for years. I tapered down over a month and jumped off. I was tired and angry of being handcuffed and chasing shit.
Today is 4 weeks sober.
Don't worry, some of us have broken out in real handcuffs too and they really do suck Congrats on your sobriety.Metaphorically handcuffed .
That's not pumpkin everyone that's that's our mascot cheerleader. Total ditz! But we love her
Hell of a ride? Damn. Thanks for coming out of it.80mgpd methadone, 260 mgpd roxy and 4 mgpd Xanax
You'll probably be able to have 6 orgasms. Always a silver lining!
True words I second that please feel better and better might require some efforts in maintaining I can tell you I choose getting stoned over putting in taking a toll wish you good luck my friendI am also wondering how you made out @OpiateKiller ? Hopefully you are doing good. I'm still clean but i am using methadone while i work on my coping skills so i don't go back to Fentanyl or pills. Don't beat yourself up if you relapsed, most of us do. Just don't quit quitting and use methadone or suboxone if it gets to bad. I didn't want to go back on methadone but it's better then 6ft under.
I hope you are doing well
That sounds super cool but for me more like a Chia PetSounds like a golden lining there Mantak Chia style maybe
Yes, you are right about the addiction being trauma, in and of itself. That is my MO. Has been since I was a little girl. Couldn't articulate back then what had happened, and have since had scattered bits and pieces of the memory. My brain is protecting itself. Because I kinda know who did this and if I accept it, I might fucking go crazy. In the meantime, my entire life has been one self-destructive move after another. Just reliving that pain. Over and over and over. I tried therapy. I'm on antidepressants. I'm now in the midst of trying to wean off fucking 1mg a day of xanax, which is fucking worse to meAddiction is trauma it’s self. It’s takes a little bit to feel normal and good. @lovemissile66 my acute withdrawals lasted over two months and my paws lasted a year and a quarter and then my brain chemistry stabilized and in five seconds it was completely gone. I still remember where I was when it happened.
If your addiction is trauma based you likely could benefit from reading this https://www.amazon.com/Trauma-Memor...ocphy=9021716&hvtargid=pla-453838270765&psc=1 and seeing a trauma specialist and undergoing emdr to fix fractures caused by traumatic events
Eye movement desensitization and reprocessing - Wikipedia
en.m.wikipedia.org
My addiction was not caused by trauma. I also have a sneaking suspicion it won’t be end all cure for you. But positive progress is where it’s at.