Hopeless Rented a motel room for a week.. got some gatorade, energy drinks and peanuts... Time to kick fentanyl round 900

[OpiateKiller]

Was thinking about you last night I'm going to post music for you @OpiateKiller then I fell asleep thinking probably he's not wanting to listen to music just yet but then I remembered reading about how Burroughs kicked a morphine syrette habit listening to Louis Armstrong records for 5 days straight or something crazy like that ... them back in the OLD days though when people were made of stronger fibre.

But WAIT didn't opiate killer spend his last potential drug money on a hotel room!? Was this not the purest indication of his WILL for FREEDOM and RELEASE from the bondage of slavery? These are the thoughts that go through my head is I'm struggling to fall asleep, also is he only going to eat peanuts...!??

Hahah thanks for all the replies and input Darv. Yes when I’m detoxing surviving on only peanuts is entirely possible with this appetite (or lack there Of )

Thank you for the song suggestions and that it a great point I could have easily taken the $500 for the room, did drugs and slept in my car.

The Saints Go Marching In can’t remember I last heard that song it’s been years. Louis A was quite the talented musician in his day.

 

[OpiateKiller]

How are you doing this morning @OpiateKiller ?

I was just about to ask the same thing Pumpkin!

Let us know how you're doing @OpiateKiller

Hello my friends! I am doing pretty well surprisingly I haven’t been too too sick which is a blessing!

It seems the majority of my withdrawals these days are sweats / cold sweats and sleep issues but besides that it’s all just mental. Anxious, depression, but all direct results of my brain healing

I am hanging in there and I do have high hopes will pull through once again. I agreed to my girlfriend if I screw up or can’t do it that I would voluntarily enter a 30 day treatment.

I can’t go back to my parents house so really I gotta hustle and figure out how to get by these next few months I really put myself in a ditch financially.

Motel room check out is Sunday gonna call my old sober house manager and look online for some rooms for rent or apartments for rent.

The fight continues! My girlfriend is coming over and sleeping over for the first time in about a week so we’ll see how ther goes but it will be good to see her and not be alone in a shady motel. I was / am definitely getting pretty lonely

 

[OpiateKiller]

Thank you everyone who posted on here the love and Support it truly means a lot and I love this site and the community we have.

Forever a bluelighter

 

[darvocet21]

Hello my friends! I am doing pretty well surprisingly I haven’t been too too sick which is a blessing!

It seems the majority of my withdrawals these days are sweats / cold sweats and sleep issues but besides that it’s all just mental. Anxious, depression, but all direct results of my brain healing

I am hanging in there and I do have high hopes will pull through once again. I agreed to my girlfriend if I screw up or can’t do it that I would voluntarily enter a 30 day treatment.

I can’t go back to my parents house so really I gotta hustle and figure out how to get by these next few months I really put myself in a ditch financially.

Motel room check out is Sunday gonna call my old sober house manager and look online for some rooms for rent or apartments for rent.

The fight continues! My girlfriend is coming over and sleeping over for the first time in about a week so we’ll see how ther goes but it will be good to see her and not be alone in a shady motel. I was / am definitely getting pretty lonely

You'll probably be able to have 6 orgasms. Always a silver lining!

 

[sillychick1972]

I haven't logged on in quite sometime and the first thing I read is this thread! From your initial post to the most current update, which I was so elated to read, and all the encouragement, understanding, love, empathy and compassion I read from others was a reminder to me of the beauty involved within our community. I am elated to read you are doing well considering and thank you so much for sharing something so personal, it may help you but it also helps so many others in ways you could never know. Have a blessed journey and lift that head up, because you should be proud of each and every time you stand back up. Love.

 

[darvocet21]

I haven't logged on in quite sometime and the first thing I read is this thread! From your initial post to the most current update, which I was so elated to read, and all the encouragement, understanding, love, empathy and compassion I read from others was a reminder to me of the beauty involved within our community. I am elated to read you are doing well considering and thank you so much for sharing something so personal, it may help you but it also helps so many others in ways you could never know. Have a blessed journey and lift that head up, because you should be proud of each and every time you stand back up. Love.

Welcome back

 

[negrogesic]

Good luck, hope it's going well.

I know I've said it before but you really might consider getting on high dose methadone if you are having trouble staying away from fentanyl. As much as being addicted to methadone seems like a life sentence, the risk of death associated with continued relapses involving fentanyl is quite high. I'd be long dead if it weren't for methadone.

 

[OpiateKiller]

You have to hate opioids with all your being to get clean.

This. This is what it comes down to. And I’m my past when I had 16 months away from opioids I had that mentality that I hated them and I’d never touch them again.

I need that back

 

[Jen X]

This. This is what it comes down to. And I’m my past when I had 16 months away from opioids I had that mentality that I hated them and I’d never touch them again.

I need that back

I thankfully got to the point that i hated the drug and hated myself for doing it. I'm on methadone for a bit until i feel ready and usually i hated that but it's saving my life. Last time i did dope i woke up with my face on my computer keyboard after knocking myself out. I was playing with my life so methadone is a much safer option.

You are doing great. I hope you can get a sober living set up.

 

[darvocet21]

You have to hate opioids with all your being to get clean.

And if you want to stay clean: love

(...rescue a dog)

 

[dalpat077]

I know I'm a little late to this but maybe for next time or for somebody else.

I came across the below as a result of another bit of research for another thread. I've not seen it mentioned here (but I'll admit I've not UTFSE either before posting here).

Something called Lofexidine, sold under the brand name Lucemyra, and used to treat or, to a degree mitigate, opioid withdrawal symptoms.

Lofexidine - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

Lucemyra: Uses, Dosage, Side Effects, Warnings - Drugs.com

Lucemyra (lofexidine) is used to treat opioid withdrawal symptoms. Includes Lucemyra side effects, interactions and indications.

www.drugs.com

Edit;

Never mind. I UTFSE and it's old news so far as I can tell.

 

[darvocet21]

I know I'm a little late to this but maybe for next time or for somebody else.

I came across the below as a result of another bit of research for another thread. I've not seen it mentioned here (but I'll admit I've not UTFSE either before posting here).

Something called Lofexidine, sold under the brand name Lucemyra, and used to treat or, to a degree mitigate, opioid withdrawal symptoms.

Lofexidine - Wikipedia

en.wikipedia.org

Lucemyra: Uses, Dosage, Side Effects, Warnings - Drugs.com

Lucemyra (lofexidine) is used to treat opioid withdrawal symptoms. Includes Lucemyra side effects, interactions and indications.

www.drugs.com

Edit;

Never mind. I UTFSE and it's old news so far as I can

if you don't want to alert Your Health Care Provider/Insurance/Pharmacy (and probably the government) that you're an opioid addict get a prescription for clonidine. Tell your doctor if you're a woman that you heard it helps for bad menstrual cramps (if you reached the age of menopause you can throw in hot flashes as well

If you're a man you can ask for it to help quit smoking, cut back on drinking or "I hear that it's effective in very low doses that are safe to help with mild ADHD type symptoms, and I've been lacking focus lately"

More importantly don't do it because it's expensive and probably not covered by insurance and won't stop all of the somatic symptoms which people despise. loperamide HCl is available at the dollar store ( boxes of 12 tablets or a one-day supply) and is just as effective / ineffective

 

[dalpat077]

if you don't want to alert Your Health Care Provider/Insurance/Pharmacy (and probably the government) that you're an opioid addict get a prescription for clonidine. Tell your doctor if you're a woman that you heard it helps for bad menstrual cramps (if you reached the age of menopause you can throw in hot flashes as well

If you're a man you can ask for it to help quit smoking, cut back on drinking or "I hear that it's effective in very low doses that are safe to help with mild ADHD type symptoms, and I've been lacking focus lately"

More importantly don't do it because it's expensive and probably not covered by insurance and won't stop all of the somatic symptoms which people despise. loperamide HCl is available at the dollar store ( boxes of 12 tablets or a one-day supply) and is just as effective / ineffective

Thanks for this.

Came across it yesterday as a result of our interaction on the nalaxone and FDA thread is all.

Apparently it's got some rather unpleasant to possibly dangerous side-effects. But as somebody who knows nothing about opioid withdrawal etc. I thought it worth a mention. But as noted: old news it would seem. Problem is that once the older threads drop off the radar then they're easily overlooked unless you use the search function and know exactly what you're looking for.

 

[darvocet21]

Modern medicine has never been about healing. In the rare instances where a patient has a complete remission it's considered a clinical failure or at least anomaly

 

[darvocet21]

Always be smarter than your doctor yet seem Dumber

 

[PtahTek]

Modern medicine

... is a business like all otheres; they are for profit and healthy people dont need to visit so ya gotta fix one thing and fuck something else up (either meds or physically) so ya gotta come back... kinda like a mechanic works > fix the carb and nick the fan belt with a razor so after a coupla tree weeks ya got another "appointment".

 

[darvocet21]

Clonidine is an old BP med and insurance covers it, if that what you are referring to? Loperamide is only good for diarrhea and 12 a day is too much. People take too much lope bec

Not if it's for off-label use, unless you have a kick-ass PPO.

And nowhere did I ever Advocate people take loperamide. However 24mg spread across 24 hours in divided doses perfectly safe unless you're allergic to the drug specifically

 

[polarthedog]

Hello my friends! I am doing pretty well surprisingly I haven’t been too too sick which is a blessing!

It seems the majority of my withdrawals these days are sweats / cold sweats and sleep issues but besides that it’s all just mental. Anxious, depression, but all direct results of my brain healing

I am hanging in there and I do have high hopes will pull through once again. I agreed to my girlfriend if I screw up or can’t do it that I would voluntarily enter a 30 day treatment.

I can’t go back to my parents house so really I gotta hustle and figure out how to get by these next few months I really put myself in a ditch financially.

Motel room check out is Sunday gonna call my old sober house manager and look online for some rooms for rent or apartments for rent.

The fight continues! My girlfriend is coming over and sleeping over for the first time in about a week so we’ll see how ther goes but it will be good to see her and not be alone in a shady motel. I was / am definitely getting pretty lonely

Do you have a hair tigger temper while in withdrawal? I do, and I was just wondering if that’s why you wanted to be alone all week.

When I’m in withdrawal, it’s extremely difficult to feel any emotion but anger

 

[polarthedog]

You gotta keep trying giving this shit up. You know the alternative. It took me countless failures until it worked. 8 years clean from heroin and all opioids now. Fucking fentanyl wasn’t around when I finally got clean. You must be stronger than you ever knew was imaginable to kick this shit for good. You have to hate opioids with all your being to get clean.

Good luck

It’s nice to see serious posts from you for a change, don’t get me wrong, I definitely think the majority of your posts are funny.

 

[darvocet21]

Do you have a hair tigger temper while in withdrawal? I do, and I was just wondering if that’s why you wanted to be alone all week.

When I’m in withdrawal, it’s extremely difficult to feel any emotion but anger

Anger can be empowering