phenethylo J
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Well I finally made it to sleep yesterday morning. Slept all day, was awake all night, then slept half the day today.
I spent the whole night last night thinking I can't keep doing this, lol. I kept thinking I want out again. I wish I could explain my thoughts.
You see I gave up on stimulants 11 years ago after I witnessed an orgy and 3 people being either stabbed or shot to death in one night. Once you know for sure that the international MDMA/cocaine/meth people ARE the international human trafficking people you can begin to understand how fucked up this shit is.
Anyway I was out!! I stopped selling, stopped getting high, attended church regularly, worked, got married, had kids... not now though. My wife left me a couple years ago because of getting high.
Last night I kept thinking maybe i didn't get out. Maybe once you're in you're never out. I should be going to church. Worrying about this myself
That might the safer option for your brain, huh?Maybe instead you should switch over to LSD once a week or 2? That's why i don't do MDMA that much anymore....im usually paying for it later even tho i do love it...LSD i have zero problems like that....the worst issue i'll have is just being tired from not sleeping enough the following day....
just a suggestion i figured id throw out to ya
That might the safer option for your brain, huh?
I ended up taking 3g of mushrooms last night and having a weird trip. I was tripping pretty hard while I was puking, lol. Not that I didn't expect it going in feeling so drained and depleted. Not sure I would recommend tripping post MDMA binge like that. I've been bingeing on MDMA off and on now for several weeks. Maybe more like a month. I've lost so much weight that you can see all the individual muscles on my abdomen now.
Lol. Again representing wyte music. 3-6
Why would you presence be unwelcome?Now that's one I wouldn't have thought of! I dig it!!
OH man, I was out driving with my friend earlier and we were on the main drag down here where people race on Fri and Sat nights and I was thinking about trying to go to one of the clubs near my house. Then I started thinking I'm not gonna want to drink and probably wouldn't enjoy the music that much. Plus why would I want to go somewhere where there is a good chance my presence would be pretty unwelcome.
Anyone else tried going to hip hop clubs in the hood alone when they were rolling before? (yes I live in the hood. Only white guy on the block) haha. The only thing that really sounds appealing about it is dancing with women. Anybody have an opinion? I don't listen to enough hip hop to blend in as a "white boy" in that situation.
I just took my last two pills. Should I go downtown instead to a club where there is a good mix of people and I wouldn't be the only white guy? Maybe I should just chill here like normal and listen to music? What would you do?
I posted this sinceeveryoneis posting crap
I've been the only white guy in a club before, well me and one other. They played fuck the police when we walked in and then wouldn't let us play pool. Very unhealthy atmosphere.Why would you presence be unwelcome?
You posted a video and said, “welcome to hell” directly above your response to me. I agree your club experience was bad, but speaking of unhealthy atmospheres... hell is also bad. Much, much, much, much, much worse. It’s nothing to joke about.I've been the only white guy in a club before, well me and one other. They played fuck the police when we walked in and then wouldn't let us play pool. Very unhealthy atmosphere.