JessFR
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Wow, it's been about 3 and a half years since I started a thread like this. All my threads until then had been drug support. But after getting serious about stopping my daily heroin habit and getting off the street then this is the first time I've felt the need to start one.
I'm sure as probably most are aware. Many of us have lost a good friend from this forum.
It's easy to get into recovery (relative to what I'm about to say). It's hard to stay in recovery.
And it's brutal to stay in recovery at those inevitable points in life when everything has gone to shit. Either suffering a major loss, a major depression.
So this is what I'm asking. How do you guys try and stay from completely falling off the edge when the rollercoaster that is life takes a sharp dip?
I have been on methadone for about 3 and a half years. I dunno how people manage to stay completely clean, it's always impressed me. I've never been able to do it for especially long.
Even on methadone though, it's remained difficult. With repeated drug dreams. My addiction whispering in my ear, trying to make me remember the past as better than it was.
But this is the first major set back for me since I entered serious prolonged recovery from heroin.
For the people who perhaps have much more time away from there drug than I, how do you do it? How do you stay focused on what matters and not wind up giving up? Not letting how terrible the present is ruin the future?
I'm sure as probably most are aware. Many of us have lost a good friend from this forum.
It's easy to get into recovery (relative to what I'm about to say). It's hard to stay in recovery.
And it's brutal to stay in recovery at those inevitable points in life when everything has gone to shit. Either suffering a major loss, a major depression.
So this is what I'm asking. How do you guys try and stay from completely falling off the edge when the rollercoaster that is life takes a sharp dip?
I have been on methadone for about 3 and a half years. I dunno how people manage to stay completely clean, it's always impressed me. I've never been able to do it for especially long.
Even on methadone though, it's remained difficult. With repeated drug dreams. My addiction whispering in my ear, trying to make me remember the past as better than it was.
But this is the first major set back for me since I entered serious prolonged recovery from heroin.
For the people who perhaps have much more time away from there drug than I, how do you do it? How do you stay focused on what matters and not wind up giving up? Not letting how terrible the present is ruin the future?