mtu mwendawazimu
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Hello, not feeling well at all. I wish I had someone I could talk to.
Most all BLers are supportive and have open inboxes. Id encourage you to share in public so lile minded people can hear ya, but if not HMU.
idk if is all mental to be truthful i am sure its not but i was already not in a good time and ended up having to do an emergency surgery because of a perforated ulcer, i am having touble with cicatrization and i am in pain and this is almost driving me insane hope this heals soon long recovery ahead still. D:
Regardless, posting here is right for you. Any sort of emotion is valid here. What do you remedy pain with currently?
Like I'm getting some kind of delayed cumulative kindling effect from combinations of switching between gabapentinoids, benzo, and alcohol, that has built up over time. Either that or still in antidepressant and antipsychotic withdrawal. Or I just broke my brain with stimulants. Or my mental health is just deteriorating. I mean i just took 3mg Xanax and feel next to nothing and its been a week since I had any. And then only 3 or 4 times and no benzos for 3 months before that. And only occadional gabapentin etc.. Must be cross tolerance from the phenibut and pregabalin and alcohol somehow. But I haven't used regularly enough fordependency, so I don't really understand what's going on. All I know is ever since binging on meth crack and heroin intermittently in a cycle ending in then starting olanzapine and mirtazapine and quetiapine for a few months on and off, I haven't been the same.
AD and AP withdrawal is a big deal. You ever see the Invega thread? It can take a while to regulate your dopamine back to normal levels.
The other issues obviously play some sort of roll as well.
What are you doing currently? Like in the moment, today? Plans for the future?