🌟🌟 Social 🌟🌟 How High Are You? V. How Much Wood Does a Woodchuck Chuck?

[Cream Gravy?]

One last thing, don't want to bring politics into this, but tonight I met a black Trump supporter. I don't have anything else to add about that, I just thought it was amazing to see in person.

Good to see you Carl, haven't seen you on BL in some time.

Yeah you'd be surprised how many black/latinx folks voted for Trump. I knew quite a few back in 2016, not so much last year lol. Also met a transgender girl who supported Trump in 2020... really makes you wonder why people vote the way they do. Is it masochism? I don't have the slightest idea.

 

[Ganjcat]

Ain't had any heroin for over 5 days.. and I don't even miss it.. plus just got some nice weed gonna put some tunes on and relax

 

[AutoTripper]

I definitely don't think this was legit MDMA. Actually I'm fairly certain it wasn't. It was something, but not quite what I was hoping for.

I don't want to get into my whole history because then it's going to start looking like a dick measuring contest over who got fucked up the most on drugs. Needless to say in my past 18 years of drug use (I'm going to be thirty fucking five in less than a week) I've had quite a lot of experiences with mushrooms, LSD, and to a lesser extent E. Most were great times. I've smoked and shot crack. I've shot coke and heroin, and have used lots and lots of heroin. I've used various combinations of these drugs and others. The point I'm trying to get to is that no experience has ever come close to the first time I rolled when I was 17. Double Stack Sunshines. I had not realized at the time how fortunate I was to have had them cross my path. It was by far the most incredible drug experience I've ever had. I remember at the time thinking nothing could possibly top this, and nothing ever has. It was a feeling I had hoped to duplicate, but 18 years later and never have. I'm not very religious, spiritual I guess you could say, but the thought I had was that the only time I'd ever experience that was in heaven. If that were true it would certainly give you something to look forward to.

I'm going stop here because I'm at work. It's slow, but I'll just keep typing and typing more drivel.

One last thing, don't want to bring politics into this, but tonight I met a black Trump supporter. I don't have anything else to add about that, I just thought it was amazing to see in person. It's like Bigfoot. You can hear stories and see some pictures, but you don't believe it until you see it for yourself.

If heaven would prove to ONLY be as good as the best Old School E rush....I will be demanding my money back lol!

 

[cosmic charlie]

120mgs of Methadone

Numerous cups of Black Tea <lotta sugar>

That is the only thing I will be taking today I'd woken up in pretty significant withdraws from binging on Fentanyl the past week. Was using a fuck load of other drugs also it was pretty bad. Feel really ashamed about lying to my girlfriend again, and understand why she left. I really have to get myself together before I can truly be there for someone else. I blocked all of my dealers numbers and deleted the messages etc so I can't find them.

Then I went step further and blocked all the friends around here I get high.on Dope with. It's just too risky hanging out with them it will be the end of me. Was on the phone with my counselor at the clinic and they are gonna be raising my dose 10mgs every 3 days I just made them aware and signed up to be on the lifelong maintenance. I'd like to take around 150-160mgs a day eventually, that will keep me stable cravings wise a pain free in relation to the degenerative disk disease in my back, the Methadone also helps with stomach pains and brutal nausea I go though.

Im thinking about starting to split my dose also once i reach a prescribed amount in the three digit range. I'd taken a larger amount like that today cuz I've been IVing around 20 stamped bags of Fentanyl for a week or so daily and my tolerance sky rocketed. This is why I reached out to my counselor today and explained my struggle, he completely agrees and since I'm in the late stages of Opioidsl Addiction <twenty years IV heroin> high dosages of Methadone daily will save my life, allow me to grow old with the rest of you.

 

[AutoTripper]

120mgs of Methadone

Numerous cups of Black Tea <lotta sugar>

That is the only thing I will be taking today I'd woken up in pretty significant withdraws from binging on Fentanyl the past week. Was using a fuck load of other drugs also it was pretty bad. Feel really ashamed about lying to my girlfriend again, and understand why she left. I really have to get myself together before I can truly be there for someone else. I blocked all of my dealers numbers and deleted the messages etc so I can't find them.

Then I went step further and blocked all the friends around here I get high.on Dope with. It's just too risky hanging out with them it will be the end of me. Was on the phone with my counselor at the clinic and they are gonna be raising my dose 10mgs every 3 days I just made them aware and signed up to be on the lifelong maintenance. I'd like to take around 150-160mgs a day eventually, that will keep me stable cravings wise a pain free in relation to the degenerative disk disease in my back, the Methadone also helps with stomach pains and brutal nausea I go though.

Im thinking about starting to split my dose also once i reach a prescribed amount in the three digit range. I'd taken a larger amount like that today cuz I've been IVing around 20 stamped bags of Fentanyl for a week or so daily and my tolerance sky rocketed. This is why I reached out to my counselor today and explained my struggle, he completely agrees and since I'm in the late stages of Opioidsl Addiction <twenty years IV heroin> high dosages of Methadone daily will save my life, allow me to grow old with the rest of you.

I do know exactly what it's like to be between a rock and a hard place, in true catch 22.

It can take the determination, strive, commitment and endurance of an Olympian just to keep going in life.

Simple survival should never be so tough, IMO.

 

[Nightraver]

I definitely don't think this was legit MDMA. Actually I'm fairly certain it wasn't. It was something, but not quite what I was hoping for.

I don't want to get into my whole history because then it's going to start looking like a dick measuring contest over who got fucked up the most on drugs. Needless to say in my past 18 years of drug use (I'm going to be thirty fucking five in less than a week) I've had quite a lot of experiences with mushrooms, LSD, and to a lesser extent E. Most were great times. I've smoked and shot crack. I've shot coke and heroin, and have used lots and lots of heroin. I've used various combinations of these drugs and others. The point I'm trying to get to is that no experience has ever come close to the first time I rolled when I was 17. Double Stack Sunshines. I had not realized at the time how fortunate I was to have had them cross my path. It was by far the most incredible drug experience I've ever had. I remember at the time thinking nothing could possibly top this, and nothing ever has. It was a feeling I had hoped to duplicate, but 18 years later and never have. I'm not very religious, spiritual I guess you could say, but the thought I had was that the only time I'd ever experience that was in heaven. If that were true it would certainly give you something to look forward to.

I'm going stop here because I'm at work. It's slow, but I'll just keep typing and typing more drivel.

One last thing, don't want to bring politics into this, but tonight I met a black Trump supporter. I don't have anything else to add about that, I just thought it was amazing to see in person. It's like Bigfoot. You can hear stories and see some pictures, but you don't believe it until you see it for yourself.

Am just a 41 year old ex raver with some pretty awesome memories of the 90s and early 00s before I had kids and gave the scene up mate no desire or need to get into a dick measuring contest with anyone tbh was pretty much seeing myself in your six am hooker post and wish you my good sir all the best in your exploits

 

[Nightraver]

The OG Mitsubishis 1st batch in 1997 wow!

Brother it would surprise me not if we have bounced past each other at the same rave at some point as we seem to have more and more in common lmao

 

[Nightraver]

I missed the legendary Doubledoves, which had a dove on each side of the pill.

The old school single doves, at 120-130 mg MDMA if legit, were very tasty.

Elephants, Dolphins, Diamonds....bring back any memories?

But never had the double doves, doubledollars, or infamous "disco biscuits."

But I had some e's over time I can't imagine being better.

The OG Mitsubishis 1st batch in 1997 wow!

Exodus festivals UK, these tiny white rolexes, white Armanis, I can't believe ecstasy can really be any better.

Many others shone out through time.

Yellow "B"'s for Bentley in 2003 were something.

And the Smiley Faces in 2001/2002.

Just to name a few. All freaking incredible for sure.

Double dunt dollar was my ever experience with E at a Rez in Scotland in 95 I’d tried speed a few times at previous smaller raves and all I can say about the experience is it hooked me on that particular scene for life sad thing is I’d feel too old to ever go back to one as for me the youth was part of the movement and Iv had my time
But there will always be a place in my heart somewhere for it H.T.I.F.D

 

[Juniper Bruhmomentius]

Feeling quite nice on bupre and gabapentin

 

[Nightraver]

Hadvmmm

How do I leave this thread?
It's doin my nut in

gracefully would be nice

 

[4meSM]

If heaven would prove to ONLY be as good as the best Old School E rush....I will be demanding my money back lol!

Personally I would be thrilled beyond words if I could retain even the most primitive and basic form of consciousness after my human body dies. Hope that's the case, it would be like winning the lottery and having all of my dreams come true (probably a billion times better than that).
Definitely not counting on it though :/
I have to enjoy the human experience while it lasts with all its ups and downs.


OT: kratomed

 

[AutoTripper]

How do I leave this thread?
It's doin my nut in

Maybe try contributing something more substantial, see it as closure, it might work?

 

[Nightraver]

Had my night dose of oxy and Gabapentin
180mg oxy railed 80 ate 100
Ate the Gabapentin
The weed hot chocolate has seriously kicked the fuck in now so it’s made the oxy a shit ton better and Iv got another 40 put away for later will probably rail it about nine and chill for an hour or two before I hit the hay
As for now though the edible has me stoned to the bone

 

[AutoTripper]

Personally I would be thrilled behond words if I could retain even the most primitive and basic form of consciousness after my human body dies. Hope that's the case, it would be like winning the lottery and having all of my dreams come true (probably a billion times better than that).
Definitely not counting on it though :/
I have to enjoy the human experience while it lasts with all its ups and downs.


OT: kratomed

"Enjoy" suddenly strikes me as a peculiar word, or rather concept.

It's like an illlusion, a 3D tease, mythological. Peanuts for the circus elephant.

 

[Nightraver]

"Enjoy" suddenly strikes me as a peculiar word, or rather concept.

It's like an illlusion, a 3D tease, mythological. Peanuts for the circus elephant.

Personally i think I’m an old soul who’s been round this merry go round to many times if God gives me the choice about coming back I’m politely declining. I think it’s maybe part of the reason Iv always sought oblivion through certain drugs
Nah when I die I want to fly through space n shit exploring realities an universes n stuff as a pure soul energy type thing
If I get in though I have a feeling il be looking up from where I go

 

[4meSM]

"Enjoy" suddenly strikes me as a peculiar word, or rather concept.

It's like an illlusion, a 3D tease, mythological. Peanuts for the circus elephant.

It is an illusion, but for an illusion to take place you need to be able to perceive. Without perception there are no illusions, the concept of illusion becomes meaningless along with every other concept, even the world "concept" becomes meaningless. Only beings have perception, when the being ceases to exist perception disappears, along with the ability to experience "reality/realities" (whatever your definition is).
The question is how much of your being disappears after your physical body desintegrates? How much information needs to remain for the being to remain?
It's not about matter nor energy, it's about information (the way it organizes).

Gonna roll a spliff.

 

[AutoTripper]

Personally i think I’m an old soul who’s been round this merry go round to many times if God gives me the choice about coming back I’m politely declining. I think it’s maybe part of the reason Iv always sought oblivion through certain drugs
Nah when I die I want to fly through space n shit exploring realities an universes n stuff as a pure soul energy type thing
If I get in though I have a feeling il be looking up from where I go

Funny you say that.

Not contrarily, but down a slightly different track, I had this mad thought earlier-

I felt as though, if I was offered the chance to be reincarnated right now into a penguin to live 4 years in the arctic before being eaten by a killer whale....

I would probably take it!

How mad is that lol! And I shouldn't joke because I'm not even joking. I honestly thought that earlier today.

Or wait for a better deal?

 

[Xorkoth]

Not at all. Have been using way excessive amounts of kratom for a while, more and more, easily 50-60 grams a day. Yesterday I decided no more and started using loperamide to stop. Well yesterday was ROUGH. I took one 10g dose yesterday late evening because I couldn't stand it. Since then I've felt better, I also increased the amount of loperamide which helps. But starting to feel sketchy again and I have band practice soon. I may let myself have another, smaller dose would be the first (and only) of today. I could think of this as a very rapid taper. 60 grams to 10 grams in a day is not so shabby progress.

 

[Nightraver]

Funny you say that.

Not contrarily, but down a slightly different track, I had this mad thought earlier-

I felt as though, if I was offered the chance to be reincarnated right now into a penguin to live 4 years in the arctic before being eaten by a killer whale....

I would probably take it!

How mad is that lol! And I shouldn't joke because I'm not even joking. I honestly thought that earlier today.

Or wait for a better deal?

A dolphin would be much more my choice
Something about the being free to swim as fast as you can

 

[Ontop]

Fuck I needa get high. Why won't God make me get high? Friday or next Fried day. I ain't got no job and I ain't got shit ta do.