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Bells are ringing.

It's funny how crack is associated with people being jittery and hyper. After a good hit that makes my bell ring I pretty much can't move from that spot for a couple of minutes. I'll just be holding up the lighter or stem in the air because I'm perfectly still there. That's a good high. I've been wanting soft though. Good soft! Mainly because I want to shoot coke again. Shoot coke and take benzos, just for one night.

You see when a long time addict is on a maintenance program and has been really good, but they finally get to the point where they need to do something different. The day starts normal with your normal methadone dose and weed. Some calls and meet ups happen. Next thing you know it's 30 hours later and you haven't slept, but you've consumed abundantly.
I think it went methadone 90mg, weed, and then 0.5mg of xanax in the afternoon. Normal stuff, save for the xanax.
Then at 8 begin the IVing of molly, then sniffing some.
Then a tab of acid was taken. Weed was in the mix. Another 0.5 mg of xanax.
Over the next few hours there was another molly shot, some more lines, and 2 more tabs and some more xanax.
Around this point I went and had sex with that older woman. I find older women attractive. They're more confident and confidence is always appealing.
Then I sniffed a bit more Molly and took a drive to pick up some hard. There was some confusion because of lingo. I had wanted soft. I don't know when someone says "Candy" I think of either E/molly or nose candy.
This was when the crack started and some more xanax.
Then weed and 90mg of methadone and IV crack.
Went to work for a few hours, smoked crack in the back office. I truly am a model employee.
Then went home smoked weed, smoked crack, took more xanax and then went on a walk in the woods with my mother where we had a surprisingly good talk. I was probably more open and honest than normal.
Then more crack and weed and xanax.
This went on until a few hours ago when the crack ended and I thought "What would Jesus do?"
Actually that's a lie, I thought what would Carl Landrover do? He'd say you're already in this deep, why not make it the first great bender of the decade. That was enough reasoning for me.
So then I bought more crack. Smoked crack and weed and took some xanax.
Which brought me to an hour or 2 ago. Went through this crack much quicker. I was using earlier to stay awake during the day. and get high.

Finishing the last of it now. I don't know if there is a way you're supposed to smoke crack, but I take a lot of medium sized hits. After several of these you blast it and get your bell rung. If you don't know what that means, I don't think I have the capability to explain the feels. It's a huge hit where your ears kind of ring. Everything feels different around you. I understand why so many writers used uppers.


I would not recommend anyone do this. In fact this was a work of fiction. With that in mind, it's a pretty terrible story. It barely goes anywhere and you just seem focused on continuing in an altered state. I mean is the main character supposed to be likeable? Seems braggadocious to me. And no one knew he was that fucked up all day? It's just not realistic. Plus all the driving. That's so dangerous. Again, main character being selfish and not worrying about others around him.

I think I've been typing for a while. I hope that made sense. I'm sorry if it is dribble. In fact I imagine it won't even be read because of the length. People want to know how fucked up you are and on what drug, not your whole damn life story.


Prediction: I'm going to feel down and depressed the next few days.
 
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Shine on blue world
180mg oxy railed 80 ate 100
3000mg Gabapentin oral
That’s it so far people
 
Oh yeah! I remember something that stood out to me earlier today. When getting crack the first time these people had a bong in the room. I asked if they smoked buds and they said they used it for crack. I was intrigued. I had never heard of this before, but they said it was really good. Has anyone had any experience with that? Or has a bong and crack and wants to experiment?
I didn't really feel like trying it because this was the riskiest thing I've done since last March. When I say risky I don't mean anything to do with the drugs. I came in fairly close contact with 2 people who could possibly have it. I was extremely close, like face-in-pussy close with this other woman, but I'm slightly more confident with her being ok. I have a history with asthma. So if I got covid from one of these people, then I might get real sick, maybe die. I f that's the case, as interesting and fun as the night/day/night has been, it wasn't worth losing my life over.

--Again, the character is making bad decisions. He seems to know the right ones, but still chooses poorly. I imagine he won't be telling his family who he sees daily about the crack strangers he spoke with last night or about the spontaneous sexual encounter. He could get it, spread it to his family. This one night end up killing a lot of people. Hopefully that won't happen. That's a dark fucking ending for sure. Starting with excessive drugs and escorts would be a light beginning to this brief story. If it's a comedy, the beginning is darker. If it's a tragedy the beginning is happy. He did all this despite the fact that he stayed in and avoided contact for the last 11months and within an hour he could have blew that all up. Then again he's used to wasting his life because of poor decisions, so it's really on brand for him.

Geeze, tough critics here. One of my greatest fears is having a negative impact on someone's life,. Basically the idea that this person might have been better off, maybe even significantly so, if he had never met you or crossed your path. That thought bothers me. Though it could just be a further excuse not to interact with people or at least interact beyond basic pleasantries. -----When you've been alone this long you are your own friend, helper, therapist, person who is interested in hearing stories of your life that only interest you, etc.

Believe me, I'm not as crazy as I sound. Says the crazy person.


Edit: 2 hours later. Le crack is all gone, and no hits left off the tube. Such a tragedy. Who could have predicted such a thing? Nostradrugus? Well on the bright side I'll be taking 90mg of methadone shortly,, that should help quell this awful despair. It'll allow me to cocoon into myself where I'm invulnerable to loneliness. However the heat bothers me so much more.
 
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750mg Pregabalin
2mg Alp

That’ll probably be me for the day then, Pregabalin lasts quite a while.
 
Nighttime dose of oxy
Definitely over the worst of this covid pish managed to rail 80mg of oxy this morning as my nose was clear of snot so did 160 80 each side just now and wow my nose must be more receptive after it’s break as I am fucking melted lmao
Ate 60mg before just in case it didn’t work so once this kicks in as well I’m anticipating a sick ass nod especially when I throw in my benzo
10mg nitrazepam
25mg diazepam will probably wait till later for them though as getting a much better crack from my oxy than expected so will just take the mogadon just now
Picked up a qtr oz of g13 and three g of 00 resin which is one of my favourites so putting that away as very hard to find
But all in all with my oxy gaba and benzo cocktail 🍸 I think it’s shaping up to be a good night and next couple of days
Stay safe and happy tripping Blue ones and as always
Peace out
Nightraver
 
Sid Barrett?
Yo mate, hope your days continue to brighten up.

Just back home a while ago after at prolonged last, my mental therapy with a very clever psychologist, was 2 1/2 hourse solid intense, thorough expose of the overall compexity and crux and needs of my situation and problems.

I laid it all out so perfectly articulately, relebantly, succinctly and so bang on the money on all points.

My verbal communication ability, free, flexible and easy use of language, speaking, and confidence in myself is extraordinarily improved by my monster LSD use.

I couldn't have expressed and presented things any more thoroughly, relevantly, fully and in such a quick, neat, sobre and cutting manner.

I only took 2.5 mg Etizolam before the 4pm appointment, to keep me from WD and just comfortable enough.

But wow, despite being on a monster benzo intake, in rhe aftermath wreck of LSD overkill, my ability to sit calm, talk at speed, wirh ease, fluency and articulacy, and pure meaning, without hesitation or stumble at any point...for hours, when I turned up ravishingly exhausted, surprised me.

2.5 mg Etiz more on way home 6.30 pm.

Came in- switched on Herborizer vaporizer, made black tea and soaked 50 grams good kavas for blending.

Had a nice vape, black tea, kava session shortly.

I may take 25ug acid again. I got through today surprisingly well afyer 25ug last night.

Things were sparkling earlier innthe sun, bringing out fractals, I like it.


So @Nightraver Syd Barrett yes mate! But with a Y not I.

Although his real name is Roger lol!

He inspired me, age 16. I never have seen anybody look so visibly consciously altered from LSD mega use, transforming so dramatically in a short period, i.e. 1967!

He went too far by 21. I'm 41 in one month too, still going. I guess Ive stayed the right side of the line, but Im every bit the true, all out deep psychonaut Syd Barrett was, not one bit the tourist me.


Anyway, couple months back, I saw this photo of Syd. It's poorly definitioned, but still he looks so so GONE out there on acid right here.

I realised that moment, I personally need to really go as far as I can with acid, really push it, without losing mentality.

I did exactly that too. 1875 ug day one after a reset- not child's play lol!

And I had a definite reverse tolerance effect too.

That 2nd last trip, day 17 of 18, was the most intense and orherworldly of them all, only 155 ug!

But it was the mystical twighlight it waa clear Syd was accessing, which inspired me initially, age 16, and again recently.

Also @Nightraver check this out- DJ SLIPMATT! On IG.

He's got a wicked sense of humour that man. See this photo it's hilarious:
 
Oh yeah! I remember something that stood out to me earlier today. When getting crack the first time these people had a bong in the room. I asked if they smoked buds and they said they used it for crack. I was intrigued. I had never heard of this before, but they said it was really good. Has anyone had any experience with that? Or has a bong and crack and wants to experiment?
I didn't really feel like trying it because this was the riskiest thing I've done since last March. When I say risky I don't mean anything to do with the drugs. I came in fairly close contact with 2 people who could possibly have it. I was extremely close, like face-in-pussy close with this other woman, but I'm slightly more confident with her being ok. I have a history with asthma. So if I got covid from one of these people, then I might get real sick, maybe die. I f that's the case, as interesting and fun as the night/day/night has been, it wasn't worth losing my life over.

--Again, the character is making bad decisions. He seems to know the right ones, but still chooses poorly. I imagine he won't be telling his family who he sees daily about the crack strangers he spoke with last night or about the spontaneous sexual encounter. He could get it, spread it to his family. This one night end up killing a lot of people. Hopefully that won't happen. That's a dark fucking ending for sure. Starting with excessive drugs and escorts would be a light beginning to this brief story. If it's a comedy, the beginning is darker. If it's a tragedy the beginning is happy. He did all this despite the fact that he stayed in and avoided contact for the last 11months and within an hour he could have blew that all up. Then again he's used to wasting his life because of poor decisions, so it's really on brand for him.

Geeze, tough critics here. One of my greatest fears is having a negative impact on someone's life,. Basically the idea that this person might have been better off, maybe even significantly so, if he had never met you or crossed your path. That thought bothers me. Though it could just be a further excuse not to interact with people or at least interact beyond basic pleasantries. -----When you've been alone this long you are your own friend, helper, therapist, person who is interested in hearing stories of your life that only interest you, etc.

Believe me, I'm not as crazy as I sound. Says the crazy person.


Edit: 2 hours later. Le crack is all gone, and no hits left off the tube. Such a tragedy. Who could have predicted such a thing? Nostradrugus? Well on the bright side I'll be taking 90mg of methadone shortly,, that should help quell this awful despair. It'll allow me to cocoon into myself where I'm invulnerable to loneliness. However the heat bothers me so much more.
Don't be scared of covid. I had it. I have asthma and no immune system, destroyed by Lyme Disease.

I have an exceptionally higher susceptibility to extremely severe respiratory infections on a frequent basis which are 100 times more severe than the average person.

But I knocked covid out of my lungs very quickly, using primarily Electromedicine to very quickly clear the infection from the lungs and prevent pneumonia from developing so that absolutely no lasting harm was done and no serious situation developed.

Anybody worried about Covid really should have electromedicine therapy at disposal.

Covid is the 5th worst infection I had last year, on my life!

The media just aren't talking about the other 4, each much worse more debilitating and harder to treat and clear than covid was which was a cinch in comparison.

So I say, don't be afraid- just be prepared.
 
8mg Buprenorphine
50mg Hydroxyzine

I wanna be Sedated...
 
160mg oxy
2900mg Gabapentin
Vaped a little government strain 13
Cup of amazing tea
@AutoTripper
Love some floyd mate
Seen Rodger water live twice an Dave Gilmore once both of them were amazing but unfortunately have never seen them all play as a group though they both did there wall sets among others
Sid was one of the first casualties of drugs in the main stream iuam
But some of his hits like see Emily play were tell tales of his mental state though very beetle like in there sounds I don’t think any of the beetles ever went as far down the lsd rabbit hole he did
I think brain damage and a couple other songs from later albums were Rodgers way of saying goodbye to his friend even though he wasn’t dead he was gone

Have you heard the story of Rodger crying when syd turned up to record his last album with them
 
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Don't be scared of covid. I had it. I have asthma and no immune system, destroyed by Lyme Disease.

I have an exceptionally higher susceptibility to extremely severe respiratory infections on a frequent basis which are 100 times more severe than the average person.

But I knocked covid out of my lungs very quickly, using primarily Electromedicine to very quickly clear the infection from the lungs and prevent pneumonia from developing so that absolutely no lasting harm was done and no serious situation developed.

Anybody worried about Covid really should have electromedicine therapy at disposal.

Covid is the 5th worst infection I had last year, on my life!

The media just aren't talking about the other 4, each much worse more debilitating and harder to treat and clear than covid was which was a cinch in comparison.

So I say, don't be afraid- just be prepared
Having hopefully came through this I can see how it kills older people and those with underlying issues but I will say it’s just like a really bad flu/comedown from a three day rave
 
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Having hopefully came through this I can see how it kills older people and those with underlying issues but I will say it’s just like a really bad flu/comedown from a three day rave
Interesting you say that- "bad" flu. I just had true flu as you heard already.

Exactly a 6 week illness then poof! It's a hell of a thing at the worst of times,,in a nutshell.

At the best of times, it's just a duty and temporary disruption.

But it's a horrible thing to endure for so long, at consqnt intensity, when you are already under it.

I would honestly take corona, 5 times in a row, vs one 6 week flu cycle again right now. I say that on my life, and I know my infectiins like (we) know our drugs!
 
160mg oxy
2900mg Gabapentin
Vaped a little government strain 13
Cup of amazing tea
@AutoTripper
Love some floyd mate
Seen Rodger water live twice an Dave Gilmore once both of them were amazing but unfortunately have never seen them all play as a group though they both did there wall sets among others
Sid was one of the first casualties of drugs in the main stream iuam
But some of his hits like see Emily play were tell tales of his mental state though very beetle like in there sounds I don’t think any of the beetles ever went as far down the lsd rabbit hole he did
I think brain damage and a couple other songs from later albums were Rodgers way of saying goodbye to his friend even though he wasn’t dead he was gone

Have you heard the story of Rodger crying when syd turned up to record his last album with them
Hello mate. Was gonna reply to this one first but oh well lol! Hope you're all good today.

I saw a Pink Floyd tribute band, two diff ones I think. Amazing both times, fair play to them. One outdoors summer UK, lovely 200 odd people gathered on a beautiful grass field stage set, evening, fireworks to music.

I took some amazing 007 Mdma pills with me and really clean Southpark acid tabs that were around.

Traded some pollen there with onnold geezer for half a white Mitsubishi.

I was rushing nuts. Was amazing. My mate was on a bad trip lol bless him!

Best thing I ever saw, felt- Genuine Wailers concert, minus Bob, Camebridge 1998.

I only had 3 pints Red Strioe Lager, no weed, no drugs, never felt higher and happier, more "quenched" in my life.

The energy of that small building and music and atmosphere was truly incredible. Vibrations hitting the dunbell and not comong back down!

Yes you nailed it in that one expression- Down the Rabbot hole!

THAT is where I wanted to go. I saw how deep S"y"d lol, had wandered down there. I wanted to go deep into that cavern, age 16.

I think I've been there but made it out alive!


So I did just drop some acid today! About 155 ug. Feels strong. I honestly can trip whenever on virtually any dose. Tolerance is hacked I swear.

So that rabbit hole, it's like more acid is simply more digging (picturing "The Great Escape" lol).

30 grams strong Fiji kava and vapes on the go. Feeling pretty wasted acid come up style. Gonna lay back ride out a few hours with tunes.

I struggle to add more "meaning" atm lol, and I hate to talk without meaning!
 
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