DeathIndustrial88
Bluelighter
300 is a good dose!!! If you are at a dose where you take it and it helps you and you're content to stick with it without it getting you high, then you're on the right track.Thank you @DeathIndustrial88 for your support, my friend!! Today I've only taken 300 mg of tram, I'm not high but I do feel pretty good and with a lot of energy.
How long have you been without H? Is it true that opioids will always be a temptation or is it not? Why are you bored of bupe? The time I tried buprenorphine I didn't find it as euphoric but the opioid effects were there. I took it in a week where I wasn't able to get tramadol or codeine and it got rid of all withdrawal symptoms, although as a precaution I waited 24 hours from my last dose of tram.
The worst thing for me is that my tolerance to pregabalin appears to be chronic because I have tried 750-1000mg doses. and I feel nothing. I didn't even took it for much time, it was like two months (May-June 2019) with binges here and there. Do you think that if I go over 1000 mg. of pregabalin I can get some recreational effect or my tolerance is completely ruined?
I was always too chicken shit to take my doses up to 1,000mg or anything like that. There was one time in my early 20's where I took about 20 50mg tramadol tablets all at once (I was stupid, knew nothing about drugs at the time). I didn't have a seizure or die thankfully. But I did spend the rest of the night night in the bathroom throwing up. I learned though quickly after that tramadol can give you seizure in high doses. So after that, I kept my doses around 400-600mg. I would notice at these doses that after a few days, I wouldn't get high or get any hardcore nods but I still felt content, motivated and stimulated and music sounded incredible.
I haven't done heroin in about a year or so. I use to know a guy who was much older than me and was a gangbanger and for some reason he took a liking to me and started coming over all the time and giving me free shit and helping me out. Introduced me to all of his different friends that did heroin. I knew him for almost 5 years. A lot of the friends he introduced me to started dying from fentanyl they were getting from other sources. And then finally in 2019 my guy shot and killed another guy and ended up in prison. He had called me just a few days before he did it too but I didn't answer. So I never really got to say goodbye to him and thank him for all the shit he did for me and my mom all those years. After he went to jail, I started going through the only friend of his that was left in the area. Until finally that guy got a job as a truck driver and moved out of town and I stopped hearing and seeing from him anymore. I think the last time I got to see him was early December of 2019 and then after that he started his new job and I got busy taking care of my mom with cancer and he never came back around. So I had to accept that my heroin hook ups were all gone. And I lived in a place where heroin was pretty hard to find. And I got really lucky meeting all these people who did it and knew where to get it and now they're just... gone. And then I moved 2 hours away after our landlord kicked me and my mom out back in November.
I had friends who sold/did heroin, friends who sold/did meth, friends who did both, friends with weed and of course I always had my own scripts for benzos and pain pills. It's like we all were a big group of people who just got to have good times, all the time, and I watched it all unravel over the last few years by seeing people die from fentanyl, people going to jail, people moving away, until finally all that was left was just me. I really didn't expect those good times to ever come to an end or at least not so soon. I thought I had it made for a long time. It makes me deeply sad.
These last 10 years of my life were pretty crazy. It was almost like a different timeline. It felt magical really. I was constantly meeting new people, attracting people to me, getting free drugs, always partying. Life was spontaneous and exciting. Now it's stagnant, routine and boring. But I was also in my 20's all those years and didn't have many responsibilities.
I DO think it's true that opioids will always be a temptation. At least that's been my experience so far. I'm not sure how old you are but I'll be 33 in April and I can say I still to this day crave heroin and strong opiates just as much as I always have. Last night I had a hard time sleeping because I kept thinking about how easy it use to be for me to get heroin and how there's so many different opiates out there that would feel great but I have no access to. It can be depressing really.
Bupe can be fun at times. Before I got on maintenance, I actually started doing bupe from the street. It was cheaper and lasted longer than heroin. So when I had to, I would buy suboxone strips instead of dope some times. Back then though, since I was only buying a few Suboxone strips at a time, I had to keep my doses very, very small in order to stretch it out long enough. But once I got on maintenance and started having easy access to bupe and my doses went up substantially, it eventually lost it's magic and now here I am a few years later, still on it. I still can get a buzz from it. it's just not enjoyable. It usually starts off with this stimulating feeling after you take some. Similar to tramadol (makes you wanna get up and clean and do shit you wouldn't normally want to do because it requires too much effort) but the stimulation from tramadol is much stronger I think. And then after about 2-3hrs, the buzz turns into a really groggy, dopey, irritating buzz. It's different than regular opiate dopey. At least when you're doped up on a full agonist, you feel blissful and euphoric. On buprenorphine, you're doped up but the bliss and euphoria isn't there, so the nodding, sedation and dopiness actually feels.. gross, is the best way I can describe it. lol And then it wears off by mid day and re-dosing doesn't really do anything thanks to buprenorphines partial agonism, ceiling effect and it's long half life that causes doses to stack up ontop of each other until you're just constantly full of bupe and don't even feel your blood levels changing. This makes cravings for real opiates come back too.
You can almost physically FEEL that bupenorphine is only a partial agonist after being on it awhile. lol Like it activates my receptors just enough to make me drowsy and sedated like an opioid, but doesn't activate them enough to cause any mind blowing euphoria & contentedness. I call bupe a diet opiate. lol
Although I must give buprenorphine SOME credit. It's a great mood stabilizing drug. Works better on my depression than any SSRI's ever did, without all the side effects of SSRI's. And it did work for cravings in the beginning. But now it doesn't do a whole lot, cravings are back, my libido is completely gone and I put on a lot of extra weight (bupe maintenance comes with insane sweet cravings and constipation lol). But at the same time, I'm still not ready to get off of it because I know that I'm already having insane cravings for opioids, at least by having a partial agonist at my disposal, I can dampen those cravings and the frustration that comes with it every once in awhile.
I have absolutely no experience with pregablin unfortunately, only gabapentin. What is a normal regular dose of pregablin?
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