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What Was YOUR Morning Fix? v. Special K and Weedies

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Bad it's personal but I'll hide it in a spoiler as it's off topic and I don't want people to read it and be annoyed at me

But bassicly I've never cum and can't enjoy sex due to bad sex experience and being used

I lost my virginity in a bad way, then I was taken advantage of by my mums boyfriend I knew since I was 5 or 6, but he had sex with me when turned 16, I felt I had to do it, don't know why, and I had took heroin

I then had to have surgery on my cervix for pre cancerous cells, due to human papilloma virus I caught when I lost my virginity which makes you less sensitive as they cut, burn away or use cryosurgery on the cervix, maybe other methods too

Other men also expected sex and I did it as needed a place to stay and if I said no they might of kicked me out, so I laid there not feeling anything hoping they'd hurry up and cum, I have a libido when not on antidepressants but can't get much feeling from sex or touching myself, I've since had more surgery on my cervix because the pre cancerous cells came back, plus I used to bleed during sex because of an erosion, it's now called a cervical ectropion, which is womb lining poking out the tiny hole in the cervix causing bleeding during sex, so they used a thing to burn that away I think it's Cryotherapy but I knew it as colcagulater back then, that was years ago, so yeah not much feeling, my clits to sensitive I've hate that touched too

I did have sex with a bloke with a fat big cock that actually rubbed my G spot and enjoyed sex then but not many men know about the G spot, but this blokes cock was correct shape to rub on it, I didn't cum but was best sex I'd had, it was also K sex too so I was relaxed and not overthinking shit in my own head you know, it made me forget problems and enjoy sex, I was only with him 2 months as he has NPD so I left him
SSorry, feel free to delete if thus is to much info, not sure why I felt I could confide today on here lol
 
Fairy of the Flowers said:
Bad it's personal but I'll hide it in a spoiler as it's off topic and I don't want people to read it and be annoyed at me

But bassicly I've never cum and can't enjoy sex due to bad sex experience and being used
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Wow. Thanks for sharing such a personal story. You have been through some truly horrendous experiences and I truly hope your recovery from them is ultimately successful. I didn’t mean to pry into something so personal.
 
My morning is anger for waking up so early.
Had a piss.
Ate some extra mature cheddar so I have a sick dream because I'm going back to sleep...
But now kinda feel like a cig, although cba to get up and stand by the window

I wish I was saying
400mg ket/100mg speed mix IV in each wrist
A few bottles of katy
1.2-1.5ml gbl
60mg oxynorm snorted
Mxe
Ok I'm going to stop before I get a boner

Hopefully my cheese dream is of taking that combo
 
Hmm my morning fix was plane

18mg bromazepam
20mg xycam
100ml vodka
20mg oxy
100mg codeine
few bong hits.

Taking it slow and hoping to nod off for another 1hr or two
 
pulverstaden said:
I don't want to rub it in, but this is probably the best speed I've had in... fucking years.
But 24 hours ago I was carpet-surfing for any leftovers from my last bag...
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What you were doing 24 hours ago is not important. If you’ve got great speed the question is what are you still going to be doing in 48 jours time!
 
Atelier3 said:
What you were doing 24 hours ago is not important. If you’ve got great speed the question is what are you still going to be doing in 48 jours time!
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You are so right. Everything up until NOW, when I stare at the lined up powder, is irrelevant.
I might just continue until first of january.
But right now, some trashy-techno to keep me going;
 
I went 7 days with no clonazolam and couldn't eat solid food for 72 hours, didn't see family on Christmas. Next day I cracked and at least I can eat and sleep again.

45m methadone
Clonazolam (wish I calculated dose today, but it was small.
Bowl of weed

Trying not to drink till Celtics game tonight cause daily drinking was fucking with me
 
Took a pregabalin capsule a while ago, also had some meth earlier and kratom throughout the day. My last hit was at 4:30pm and it's now ~8pm, hope I'll be able to fall asleep before 3am, I didn't take too much so it might be possible... I just don't want to wake up super late tomorrow and waste most of my day, this is what happened today since I went to sleep past 5am.
Things can be difficult when you enjoy amphetamines but hate staying awake.

Edit: lol I thought this was the HHAY thread, I didn't wake up that late.
 
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So I took 10ml of GHB, but I did get told to take 4-6 ml as its x2 strength, I've only ever done 2ml doses a time of GBL and that was over a decade ago, and GHB is weaker so you need more, 10ml of the x1 strength apparently, but what with my benzo tolerance I thought I'd need more lol, but I knew not to take benzos before although vallies was in my system from last night, and mirtazapine maybe that made it stronger, don't know

But I passed the fuck out lol, I have another 10ml bottle though, but I will be doing 4ml, maybe 3ml another day as don't want to waste it

Was nice and relaxing till about 20 minutes after I took it and that's all I remember, woke up after 2 hours feeling woozy and sicky with my front door wide open where I remember getting fresh air not long after taking it, came too thinking wtaf is going on, is it night time, nope it's daytime oh then I remember it was GHB and stronger than I gave it credit for
 
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