Still awake... added a few more doses of this mediocre amphetamine, i think my dopamine is probably a bit burned out today by now. Would have eaten some tyrosine if I had it but I made do with DLPA...
Took 2mg etizolam, drank 3 (very small) beers in the end, like 330ml x 3, so just like a pint and a half for you yankees and civilised Europeans who like to drink out of teensy tiny bottles as an appetizer or some shit... instead of a proper pint.. lol, or maybe that's just the Europeans.. and even then only a small subset of "cultured" ones. Americans - your beer is weak and flavourless. Haha, I'm just kidding of course, much love to all of you all over the globe. America is one of my favourite nations in a theoretical sense despite some teensy issues of recent that I won't get into and those European countries who are all into teensy tiny bottles are nice places otherwise.. urgh, small portions of stuff somehow bothers me.

Espressos should be filled up properly what's with that teensy tiny cup. And that overpriced Spanish nonsense of "tapas"... I mean just eat a meal or don't. Don't prepare 4 slices of wafer thin ham on a plate and call it a meal. Why am I saying this? Oh yeah. Tiny beer cans, pet peeve.
I better go to bed because I'm obviously getting all sloppy and belligerent. Got a solid amount of development work done today, trying to wrap up a project that will save everyone in my company a bunch of money and time... I'm way overdue doing it because, well, I guess I'm lazy, also my brain suffers a motivational deficit that requires some stimulant or other to function. It's a god damn disability, I should get some kind of compensation for that. LOL. Nah or maybe not I dunno. Universal Basic Income for the win, GTFO all you armchair economists ready to shit all over my bonfire of hope for a bright and prosperous future for all of us.

OK OK, too political for this thread, damn I can tell I'm upped and unsettled better be off.
I actually did take 4g kratom just after midnight feeling a bit off and figuring ehh.. it's the next day now.

Not too thrilled about that coz there did come a point today definitely where all the drugs started to just crap out somewhat. I'm not even sure if phenibut was worth doing either maybe I should just have stuck to measured doses of amphet and a few benzos for the landing.
Oh! Also - took 60mg NSI-189 to blunt any learned stress or anxiety from this oncoming crash, it really is great stuff for levelling out a middle-of-the-range stim binge I must say.
Administered about 0.5mg epitalon - nasal spray peptide telomerase inhibitor - in an effort to offset some of the bodily stress from all this speed.
Maybe will take some l-theanine before sleeping...
Ehhhhhh time to go. Genuinely wish every single one of you happyness and wellbeing in your lives and your endeavours, I hope any struggles you have, you will overcome, I hope you all remain free from as much of the inevitable and random suffering of life as is reasonably possible to expect and that you have good fortune. I hope the same for all of your descendants - and for your living ancestors, friends and family (and of course good wishes to those who have left this mortal coil to journey into eternity, whatever that means in that context) and I am grateful to every single one of you for the part you play in creating this beautiful community. Bluelighters, I salute you all.
