Pics of your Stash

[JoEhJoEh]

 

[DopeM]

Soo, I went over the past 5 pages. If I didn't know any better I'd think bluelight was mostly benzo users, I wonder if that's true or if people are just more willing to talk openly about benzos.

benzos are not for human consumption
imho ime iykwim

 

[I_Hate_This_Place]

I presume what you're seeing is a psychological bias, and there's probably a name for it that I just don't know, but if you take a med and it just works for you with minimal side effects you won't go on a forum to post about it. But if a med is causing you a lot of problems and you are having trouble getting off it, you will post asking for support in that goal.

I say it's nasty stuff based on personal experience. It numbed me, made me suicidal, made me sleep for 12 hours, made a zombie, I might as well have been dead on that shit. So that's my memory of being on the crap. It was so bad I just wanted to stop taking it ASAP. I did a fast taper then literally threw the rest of what I had away and told my GP I am never taking this again.

The use of benzos by the OP who is trying to taper is problematic in my view because they're just boshing high doses and it's still not actually helping with their symptoms so I was discouraging benzo and z-drug use and suggesting alternatives to help get past the withdrawal.

As for my personal medication experience: I have never had good luck on any antidepressants, they made me suicidal and numb and tired and gave me brain zaps and were just overall horrible fucking things. I felt the same with those as you do with your benzos: I took them to avoid withdrawals. Same when they later put me on pregabalin, that was horrible to be on daily too, but if I skipped a dose I'd know about it because I'd get super anxious and start shaking and sweating and I felt like a smackhead needing a fix so I had to keep taking it anyway. In fact even when I was on oxy it didn't feel that bad just from skipping a single dose!

Clonazepam is my scripted benzo too but I'm scripted 4mg. I don't actually take 4mg because that's just stupid. But I took 1mg this morning and as soon as it kicked in I felt calm, relaxed, happy, ready for the day. It works for me very well. I also am pleasantly surprised that, unlike other benzos, I haven't developed a tolerance to the anxiolytic properties even after being on it for years. And I can still take just 1mg, sometimes even just 0.5mg, and it works for my GAD all day. I love it.





But yeah I would never pay the silly prices some people do for oxy after having proper connections, knowing people with scripts, etc.

Absolutely. I would go ahead just call it a psychological bias as well. Clear enough.
I know exactly what you mean though. That phenomena is quite common. Unless someone really likes or really dislikes something they generally aren't going out of there way to mention it. You don't see to many people going out there way to say hey I had a 3 star experience! It's ones or fives.

Thanks for the reply BTW. As mentioned I was just curious as to others experience. I'm sorry to hear you had negative experiences with anti-depressant medication. I've had negative experiences with them as well. Mirtazapine being the exception though at 15mg I don't really see it as an AD. I take it for the effects I previously mentioned. I've also had a similar experience with pregabalin. I found the downsides to outweigh any potential upsides considering that the upsides were slim to non existent in my use case. It appears we've had quite similar experience in those regards in general though. I also was / am scripted clonazepam. I also was scripted absurd doses. In my case 6mg per day as opposed to 4 but either way; excessive. I did take the full 6 for a short period of time when I was heavy into opioids & such but once I got past certain things I've tapered down to the .25mg I take now. I've taken benzo's of some sort daily since I was a teenager. Thus my reasoning for continuing them. Seeing as it doesn't seem to affect me positively or negatively I continue to take the clonazepam rather than risking dealing with the issues that could arise if I were to continue to cut or discontinue after two decades of usage. I can take it daily for maintenance at the current dose & still be able to take it at a higher dose as needed which is how I like it. Technically I still have a script but in practice I don't. My Dr.'s records show that I am prescribed clonazepam by them but they don't actually write the script. I've no idea why they don't actually write that script but they know I have access to it without any real risk so I continue to obtain it myself. I have a very strange Dr. / patient relationship but I digress.

I tapered down quite some time ago but now that I'm at such low doses I can once again take it & have it work. You sound more like my wife in that for her clonazepam has remained consistently effective at the same doses for decades. In my case though I take .25mg at bedtime as mentioned I don't notice much of anything from it. Now if I take a higher dose even as little as .5mg I will notice the effects. I'm happy in that I can use it as needed & that it's effective when I do so. I've had a massive tolerance to benzo's at various points in my life but am happy that is no longer the case. It's been quite some time since I tapered down to low doses. The excessive doses (6mg & various other benzo usage) were when I younger. Before I start rambling on to much regarding the subject I'll bring it to a close. It's great to hear that it works well for you as well though. Thanks again for clarifying & satisfying my curiousity.

It really works for me till legit 3 months in, stops helping my sleep and made me put on like 10 lbs

I tried it before for anxiety and sleep but had to stop as of its stimulating effects at 30mg even though I startrd on 15mg

Then I went on it at a lower dose for depression but I could sleep so knew it would mess my sleep up when I stopped but I was going throw PAWS (from quiting vallies and a slight K habit lol)

So I was so depressed and was really missing my ex who I was only with for 2 months, plus I was back with another ex who wouldn't let me do K, so I went on mirtazapine as it has had studies saying it helps with addiction and cravings, and it really lifted out of depression and stopped my cravings for a while, no joke look at the "mirtazapine in addiction" studies but I then came off it as I felt better but I dud start craving K while still on the mirtazapine, I didn't even want benzos which I'd been addicted to for years I just wanted K

And so last time I only went on it for sleep and it stopped helping that and I wanted to lose some weight I stopped it

I'm backwards I used tramadol to stop a heavy benzo addiction and it worked

So yeah I'm trying benzos to come off Mirtazapine because I've been here coming off benzos so many times, I know I can do it again, but that mirtazapine and its effects on the histamine receptor for sleep and hunger is crazy

I see. I was started on a dose of 30 (or higher? I don't recall exactly but know it was high) & didn't like it at all. I had planned to discontinue it entirely but getting down to 15mg worked for me. I don't know that it has AD effects for me but I agree with you in that it's histamine related effects are very strong. That would be why I take it. I had insomnia most of my life & I love the fact that now I can just lay down & 99% of the time be right out. I take it as I'm getting into bed & within a few minutes I'm asleep. I've never noticed any "anti addiction" properties myself but it's quite possible. Opioids are my DOC. In terms of benzos I abused them when I was young & didn't really know much about substances. Once I got a bit older & became familiar with substances I generally avoided abusing benzos. Thanks for clarifying with your reply. The things I've seen posted regarding mirtazapine & such make sense now. I wish you the best with the process of coming off things.

 

[DopeM]

benzos are for the weak minded iirc

 

[Flower Fairy]

You also only have 28 pregabalin and you got 'em off your GP not a dealer so there's the element of having a limited supply that should help avoid any harmful behaviour with them. If the 28 you have are too high dose, you can also just ask your GP for a low dose only and say you only want it for a week or two and since they've already offered it to you I'm sure they'll oblige when a patient is literally asking for less drugs.

She says start low and I can go up if it suits me

I can even open capsule and take half of the powder lol so don't need to ask her lot less of them

Just don't want to take pregabalin and is cause insomnia

 

[JessFR]

Benzos are very frequently used by polydrug abusers and BL is full of those so it adds up

Yeah I considered that but that doesn't explain the lack of various other drugs.

 

[4meSM]

Yeah I considered that but that doesn't explain the lack of various other drugs.

People who have other drugs are probably busy getting high and can't be bothered to take a nice picture before taking a hit.
Or maybe it's a new side effect of benzo usage? They give you an urge to share pictures of your stash with other benzo users.

 

[JessFR]

People who have other drugs are probably busy getting high and can't be bothered to take a nice picture before taking a hit.
Or maybe it's a new side effect of benzo usage? They give you an urge to share pictures of your stash with other benzo users.

Haha. :D

 

[nznity]

benzos are for the weak minded iirc

man, with al tho respect....efff ya. Some of us really need em' to control our anxiety otherwise our racing thoughts are too much to cope with.

 

[DopeM]

Yes, I'm sorry I get a bit worked up about them for a few reasons, most of which are a me problem

I've just seen rly good ppl lost to them

I've also watched ppl very close to me who swore up and down that their anxiety wasn't manageable without them be able to put them down and in fact get through this world and added responsibility without them at all.

For me they are only useful to put me down from a too intense trip / landing gear for long parties and even then I'll do anything I can to avoid taking them just bc I hate them and what they do to ppl

But hey, if any of you are happy and functional on them have at it

 

[matt<3ketamine]

But yeah I would never pay the silly prices some people do for oxy after having proper connections, knowing people with scripts, etc.

Yea we took the complete and irresponsible piss with the stuff, very silly of me to of done but I was only 16ish and really didn't no better
Kinda makes me sound like a prick now rereading it, sorry bout that

 

[matt<3ketamine]

Never even heard of sandoz bupre. Weird. Hope they were good

The brand I've seen you post are the ones I used to get but they stopped and the Sandoz and sun pharma ones are the ones most pharmacies get here now
How do you take yours? Snort or IV?
(Inb4 don't iv subutex) DO NOT DO THIS but I've found some brands are better for snorting and some arent, some are okay when I, on a very rare occasion, get that itch to use a needle and some (most) arent, some are okay for sublingual and some sting when sublingual, it should all be subs=subs but I dunno

 

[matt<3ketamine]

Soo, I went over the past 5 pages. If I didn't know any better I'd think bluelight was mostly benzo users, I wonder if that's true or if people are just more willing to talk openly about benzos.

How do you expect us to come down from all the other drugs

 

[Flower Fairy]

Waaaahhh I'm awake before 2am so 2 x 2mg helped me sleep till now and just took more as I wake up with anxiety after taking benzo the night before whats that about, it has to be the fact my body is so fucking hungry I dropping weight so fast which I don't mind but I can't just take anti sickness pills when I wake up starving so feel sick

I can sleep on clonazepam but then got woke up and I'm up feeling sick and very anxious and I'm clamping my jaw down

I slept fine the night before last on clonazepam but tonight got woke up and now can't sleep, this is all getting a bit crazy now I have one and a half fortisips left I'm basically starving, well I wanted to lose weight lol

 

[Flower Fairy]

@Wilson Wilson is right maybe I should try pregabalin but it can cause weight gain which was half the reason I stopped mirtazapine

 

[nznity]

@Wilson Wilson is right maybe I should try pregabalin but it can cause weight gain which was half the reason I stopped mirtazapine

keep in mind that you're coming off powerful antidepressants, plus you've been sleeping like this for quite a while(barely even sleeping) so your body is used to it. When i was on dope few months back i'd sleep 10-12 hrs a day every night easily. Fast forward a month and i was sleeping MAXIMUM 5 hrs a night and i got used it. After the 30 day mark of quitting that shit i was finally able to sleep1.5 or 2 more hrs a night. Nowadays i only sleep 6-7 hrs every day regardless of the fact that i'm clean lol.

 

[JoEhJoEh]

man, with al tho respect....efff ya. Some of us really need em' to control our anxiety otherwise our racing thoughts are too much to cope with.

I just wanted to tell more or less the same than nzity.

 

[Flower Fairy]

keep in mind that you're coming off powerful antidepressants

Mirtazapine stays in your system 2 weeks and the SSRI and SNRI 6 weeks though

But yeah my sleeps messed up because they're strong, I can't even sleep through on vallies, nitrazapam and now today took more clonazepam and still awake but tired so drank my last fortisip lol

 

[negrogesic]

Do

Here's my herbs and spices and stuff:

Do those supermarket poppy seeds actually work for making poppy seed tea? If so, how much do you have to use?

 

[negrogesic]

Truthfully I prefer iv adderal to iv meth

People inject adderall?? Wtf