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Recovery ⫸⫸ THE RECOVERY THREAD 2020 ⫷⫷

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Behind all your
magic is always your
story. Because that is
where you begin.

intention requires introspection.

-Intention Alchemist.

its alright !
 
Hylight said:
Behind all your
magic is always your
story. Because that is
where you begin.

intention requires introspection.

-Intention Alchemist.

its alright !
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You seem to have a limitless supply of inspiring quotes - I love it! How have you been Hylight?? How is the WD? Any difficulties in the lockdown?

For my fellow British users - is anyone else loving this sunshine like me!? I feel SO much better when the weather turns. It's gorgeous! 11 days clean today, hope everyone is doing well.
 
cj said:
I'm still alive. Still strong out on fent analogous. Still waiting on this asshole to deliver it.
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good to hear from you again, every time you stop posting for a while i wonder if i wont hear from you again. :(
i read something that you posted earlier that you don't live in bama anymore. where are you at now?
have you thought about getting back on suboxone? is that a thing out there?


I am not really sure how I am doing to be honest. Been dealing with a lot of resentments towards the place I work. I have a hard time understanding why some co-workers are able to work maybe 2 hours a week, and get paid a full 40 hours, or some other people can work from home and still get their 40 hours on pay.
me along with maybe 15 other staff members are litterly the only ones here as for staff goes, and we don't receive any type of special hazard pay.
It would be really nice if one of those stay-home workers could see how valuable the front line workers are and provide them with an added couple dollars on the paycheck. That's really the only thing that's been bugging the shit out of me, and it is really aggravating , it got me to the breaking point where i have already acted somewhat. i know someone that pays back child support, and they are one of those people that come into work for 2 hours and leaves. i knew he wont get a $1,200 stimulus check because he owes the child support so I made it a big deal that I got my stimulus check and was thinking out loud on what should i spend it on. I know the guy heard me and maybe he will understand how good he has it by being able to sit home and play guitar,watch tv etc. while others have to risk their fucking asses.
so yea, other then that I am doing okay for the meantime.
 
D's could you turn that on its head a bit? Them working from home is reducing the risk to yourself.

absolutely though they should be giving you extra money. when my employer sent almost all staff to work from home, those deemed essential (its a university so things like animal labs need to be kept an eye on, not all students can leave residences need staff supporting them, cleaning, etc) were all given a weekly pay rise until further notice. its the largest employer in the city so its not a small expense.
 
D's said:
good to hear from you again, every time you stop posting for a while i wonder if i wont hear from you again. :(
i read something that you posted earlier that you don't live in bama anymore. where are you at now?
have you thought about getting back on suboxone? is that a thing out there?


I am not really sure how I am doing to be honest. Been dealing with a lot of resentments towards the place I work. I have a hard time understanding why some co-workers are able to work maybe 2 hours a week, and get paid a full 40 hours, or some other people can work from home and still get their 40 hours on pay.
me along with maybe 15 other staff members are litterly the only ones here as for staff goes, and we don't receive any type of special hazard pay.
It would be really nice if one of those stay-home workers could see how valuable the front line workers are and provide them with an added couple dollars on the paycheck. That's really the only thing that's been bugging the shit out of me, and it is really aggravating , it got me to the breaking point where i have already acted somewhat. i know someone that pays back child support, and they are one of those people that come into work for 2 hours and leaves. i knew he wont get a $1,200 stimulus check because he owes the child support so I made it a big deal that I got my stimulus check and was thinking out loud on what should i spend it on. I know the guy heard me and maybe he will understand how good he has it by being able to sit home and play guitar,watch tv etc. while others have to risk their fucking asses.
so yea, other then that I am doing okay for the meantime.
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IMO it's the fault of your employer for creating those circumstances and taking it out on your co-worker who benefits from the myopia of your bosses is a little unfair, no? Maybe you should organize with the other front-line staff who are required to be there and try and reach a compromise with your boss regarding some extra pay, especially since the situation sounds so blatantly hypocritical. What is it you do?
 
Life is a song made of

the musical rhythem of the

body, words of the mind

and the melodious silence

of the soul.
 
hydroazuanacaine said:
where is the "what did you do to get off your butt today?" thread? i did yoga on zoom. it has been a while since i did yoga. it felt good on my legs because i have been cycling so much without enough real stretching like yoga.
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Nice... I should add some other sort of physical activity to my cycling, I'm just not sure what. Pretty sure this isn't a good time to join a gym. 😕
 
hydroazuanacaine said:
where is the "what did you do to get off your butt today?" thread? i did yoga on zoom. it has been a while since i did yoga. it felt good on my legs because i have been cycling so much without enough real stretching like yoga.
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Was this a publicly accessible yoga session or some kind of private class? I've wanted to try yoga for a long time but never got around to it, and this may be as good an opportunity as ever, and it would be nice to do something to supplement running.

Happy Easter everybody! Been reflecting on the difference between Easter this year and last year - though I don't have as much time as I'd like, I distinctly remember that this time last year I only had 3 days clean and I was so fucking miserable - though I only have 14 days now, I feel so much happier & more content, and though I don't want to set myself up for failure, I feel like I have a much better chance this time around.
 
Happy Easter everyone!! Still the same status. This lock down is starting to somewhat get to me. Trying to workout but I'm having to slowly work my way back into it because I binged on phenibut again and wound up getting a touch of jaundice and a bunch of sleepless nights. I felt like garbage so I threw the phenibut out. Feeling extremely bored and aimless during this lock down. My girlie friend left due to living situation problems and has been back staying with her asshole "ex", who has always been in the picture. I can't for the life of me understand a lot of women's choices in men. I hope we can find some kind of normalcy to return to in this world. Sometimes it can be hard to maintain hope.
 
nuttynutskin said:
Nice... I should add some other sort of physical activity to my cycling, I'm just not sure what. Pretty sure this isn't a good time to join a gym. 😕
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yeah, my gym is currently not open.

Rio Fantastic said:
Was this a publicly accessible yoga session or some kind of private class? I've wanted to try yoga for a long time but never got around to it, and this may be as good an opportunity as ever, and it would be nice to do something to supplement running.
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this was a private class that i think most people paid to access. i had a guest pass due to someone i know. they are in a different city, so once the virus thing is over they will go back to in-person sessions and i will not have access anymore. my plan is to use youtube at that point, like chinup mentioned. it would likely be about the same thing, only free. it's not like it's a super social thing on zoom. because breathing is such a big part of it, you're watching and following along. as you would do on youtube.
 
doing better, but still chipping away at sobriety.
lot's of energy along with mentally allot better also.
so far so good. things change and i can possibly get better and use many stretching exercises learned from over the years of physical therapy results.
i feel great when i have the energy to be active and be able to do work.
so far i have to just chip away at it though.
i know that recovery is possible, but so is having fun.
sobriety is completely doable even though it can be a bit annoying and painful at times.
i do try to keep making an effort and here i go.
again. ♡
 
Finally truly understood why I need to stop alcohol and amphetamine. Both cause serious harm to me and even some harm to other people. I cant self medicate illegal amphetamines for my adhd cause it doesnt end up good. Alcohol makes me act like a total retard... not even funny how much of a retard I am under the influence of alcohol.
 
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