GetMeOutOfThisCRAP
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I've definitely been intoxicated on opiates, unable to walk without collapsing, slurring, nodding in and out mid sentence. This often occurred with morphine, heroin, and methadone, and without the aid of other sedatives. A few times I really remember it felt like my legs were sludge and it was so difficult to walk (heroin).
My first opioid experience ever was 30mg methadone and it nearly killed me (NOT SAFE). To this day I am surprised I did not end up in a coma. It was so awful for days, vomiting and spinning, unable to move really. I had no idea what I was doing. The classics newbie mistake... took 2 and didnt feel anything after an hour so took the 3rd, not knowing methadone peaks around 3 hours. Next thing I know I wake up (about 5 hours post dosing) and just start projectile vomiting. I've never been so intoxicated in my life. I was 13 years old and living with my mother.
More than likely the returns will diminish with most substances as you've said. I just dont think it's possible to categorize all substances or one as the most devastating. Of course, there tends to be some main players (opioids, alcohol, methamphetamine, cocaine). Though my boy Sigmund Freud was a huge cocaine addict! Lol it's interesting how many historical figures were into opiates and/or stimulants.
I believe dependency can look different, on different people, and with different drugs. For example, I was heavily addicted to black tar heroin and one day found myself smack dab in the middle of a huge methamphetamine ring; you ever see the movie "Spun"?
I used meth daily for about one year, in heavy doses via smoke and insufflation mainly, also oral. It's the one I didnt inject bc my girlfriend at the time wouldn't allow it lol even though we smoked crack and speed daily.
Anyway, meth was the easiest thing for me to walk away from. One day I left and haven't used it again and that was like 12 years ago. I was pleased to be away from it. I didnt break many of my personal morals for methamphetamine. However, this is clearly not the case for everyone.
Opiates on the other hand... they walked me hand in hand all the way to the gutter and nearly death. Every single line I set for myself, I eventually crossed. Every single one. I was incredibly dysfunctional until I had literally nothing. We each have our own demon(s) so to speak.
Side note... I was vacuuming the house yesterday and found a 30mg MS Contin stuck under the slider of a closet door lol. It had been there a while as much of the coating had worn away. Score![]()
I'm jealous of your find. I've lost a blue a long time ago that still to this day haunts me LOL. So frustrating

I do think you're right about how you can't determine which drugs are more destructive than the next. But there's tangible positive and negative effects that can be tracked from users and how the substances affected their lives. People who abuse heroin have vastly different problems than someone who only abuses methamphetamine for example. But I would state that meth is probably the most potent harder drug and that's so often overlooked by meth users. It's euphoric and energizing so it's easy to overlook the strain it puts on your body and it's neurotoxicity. There are a large number of "functional" heroin addicts out there, but I've never met a functional meth addict. If they do have functionality, it doesn't seem to last for very long before they lose their sanity. Not to say that there aren't good people who use meth on a regular basis or that it's impossible to have a life with meth use, but I haven't met anyone who hasn't spiraled into a dark abyss after shortly touching meth (and they never seem to blame meth for their downfall). It's never the drugs lol.
Maybe it's because I've never dabbled in stronger opies that I don't find them to be intoxicating. I'm glad you survived the deathadone experience. Methadone/heroin/dilauded I guess are just about the strongest ones iirc--and seed tea can whoop someone badly. Fentynal is obviously a ridiculously powerful opiate analogue and carfentinal is even deadlier, but the half life is shorter in comparison. It's becoming more popular for recreational use lately because of the overwhelming amount of fentalogues going around these days, but it tends not to be the preference of many opiate addicts for whatever reasons (regarding fentynal). Heavier opiate addicts usually tend to prefer heroin/methadone from what I've seen. I'd be so paranoid to even give fent a try because the line between getting high and dying is so minute. Chewing on a fent patch just sounds like you're asking for death if you don't have obscene tolerance.