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Oneandonly12345

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Decided had enough of being sick - and that’s never to have run out of money and still... couldn’t always get it in time to get wel. I had a trip coming up to Chicago ( here now) to visit my mum for 8 days. I have gone from 3-4g/week(over 2 years) habit Iv to virtually just rinsed out cotton towards the end..
My question is this - is the worst over or yet to come? Feeling awful, not slept for bight despite eating Xanax, lorazepam and a cocktail of pain pills to take the edge. No connects in Chicago otherwise I would have made a runner me thinks xxx if I could just sleep it’ll all be ok but not a wink and I feel sick as as can be
 
Lack of sleep is unfortunately what brings me to my knees whenever I attempt kicking. Over the years I have found that alcohol makes things worse, benzos take the edge off, but still no sleep on them.
Also, quitting a benzo habit is no walk in the park either, so careful on that front. Clonidine and Neurontin have pulled me through. 0.1mg clonidine pills (blood pressure med) but use off-label for
withdrawal purposes. And I am not lying, it has saved me from running out of the house to go score. Its getting harder to get a script for Gabapentin and Lyrica. In some states, like my old one, VA,
it is now a scheduled drug.
My heart goes out to you because I have been doing dope for 10 plus years, so I can tell you as you already know...it does not end well. Be strong and Good Luck.
 
argh I hate to tell you but the worst is probably yet to come. day 3 was always when i'd crack and score if I could. it depends a bit on what you mean by pain pills? i.e. are you still using opiates? if so then you'll be feeling much better than you would otherwise, and should try to taper with those to minimise pain.

I take it your mum knows whats up? what support do you have? are you getting any psychological help? are you seeing your local drugs services? stopping taking drugs is the first step in a long path to recovery, you've done really well to make that decision and act on it. to give yourself the best chance of getting into long term recovery, you need to address the underlying issues that lead to you using in the first place.
 
Thank you everyone. U have all been invaluable help. So right now is one more day free of h but in all fairness given half a chance I’ll be off to score. Luckily no connections in Chicago as as I’m a uk user. My poor mum has no clue and thinks it’s jet lag and while worried she is also dragging me to the theatre. See how that pans out. I would give my right arm for some relief and sleep but not to be. Sadly I also have no opioid tabs as didyhave the guts to smuggle them in lol
So surviving on loperamide, lorazepam, Xanax and shitty sleeper pill that kept me up all night. Tylenol helps with back pain at lest. While I have fully comp insurance I’m reluctant going to the doc as the rules are they’ll never let me back in the states ever even for a brief visit ☹️ If I’m foung to be an ex junkie
 
As said before Clonidine and Gabapentin would be extremely helpful. Ondansetron (Zofran) is probably the best medication to kill your nausea and anther classic is Loperamide for the runs. Good luck.
 
Thanks guys. Still free of the evil h. Don’t have gabapentin or clonidine but plenty of loperamide and benzos. Went to ( or dragged self) to the theatre then a posh dinner and managed to down a super strong vodka martini, then a couple of brandies and Xanax ( horrendous dose) before bed. Slept some - more than before and to be honest I am a little better, actually had breakfast which is still in my stomach and loperamide keeping the shits at bay. Got to go down town to see the lights ohhhhh so tired and drained but cannot let mum down. Maybe fresh air will do the trick. Still would still sacrifice my arm for some relief, sleep, feeling well, being functional. Maybe tomorrow...can only hope. At least the food is staying down for now and I’m not shutting my pants ( sorry for the graphics). Got huge thanksgiving dinner to attend Thursday need to feel a bit better by then...
 
Holy hell, you're brave
Is this the longest you've been free of H for a while?
I started the physical detox from Opiates 2 weeks ago and it was hell.

You had a long flight to get where you are. Seeing a doctor, tell them you have sharp pain from your hips to your toes after the flight, 'nerve' pain. It's crippling. Get a scene on. You should be able to get a few days at least.
You have a few decent support meds on you though. Weed was amazing help for sleep the first week, is it legal in that state? I knocked myself out over and over until I got sufficient rest with it. Temporary use of Kratom may help but wiser members will advise you about that if you think you need it. It's to be used with caution during WDs.

Keep getting out there while you can. I can't recommend getting out and about enough in between resting and healing. It'll support the mental health transition.

Good luck, we're here for you!
 
mate what are you gonna do differently when you return to the UK? i had to change everything about my life, city, friends, the lot, and get a fuckton of psychological help. if nothing changes, nothing changes, you'll likely be back on the b in no time. can you contact the drugs services while you're still with your mum so you have support in place for when you get back? i contacted mine from rehab (had never engaged before cos i just saw them as a place to get a double habit) so i wouldn't have any gaps in care and they turned out to be really good.

hope things are starting to get better. be careful with the loperamide, if you use too much you'll needlessly draw out your cluck.
 
hi chin-up, really don’t know what to do back in uk as working for NHS so would probably mean a sack or art least a very long transfer away from patients. I never got high at work so not felt like I compromised anyone’s safety but who knows...clearly need to stop, ditch contacts, moving not an option as own house. Just sick that with what I earn I have 0 to show. Bf doesn’t know either but given half a chance he’d love to have some so I try protecting him as much as possible. Wander if uk drug services are obliged to inform your Gp or place of work if I don’t consent.
On a brighter note feeling so much better despite eating all the pills in mums cabinet lol
 
Korana said:
Holy hell, you're brave
Is this the longest you've been free of H for a while?
I started the physical detox from Opiates 2 weeks ago and it was hell.

You had a long flight to get where you are. Seeing a doctor, tell them you have sharp pain from your hips to your toes after the flight, 'nerve' pain. It's crippling. Get a scene on. You should be able to get a few days at least.
You have a few decent support meds on you though. Weed was amazing help for sleep the first week, is it legal in that state? I knocked myself out over and over until I got sufficient rest with it. Temporary use of Kratom may help but wiser members will advise you about that if you think you need it. It's to be used with caution during WDs.

Keep getting out there while you can. I can't recommend getting out and about enough in between resting and healing. It'll support the mental health transition.

Good luck, we're here for you!
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Hi Korana
Korana said:
Holy hell, you're brave
Is this the longest you've been free of H for a while?
I started the physical detox from Opiates 2 weeks ago and it was hell.

You had a long flight to get where you are. Seeing a doctor, tell them you have sharp pain from your hips to your toes after the flight, 'nerve' pain. It's crippling. Get a scene on. You should be able to get a few days at least.
You have a few decent support meds on you though. Weed was amazing help for sleep the first week, is it legal in that state? I knocked myself out over and over until I got sufficient rest with it. Temporary use of Kratom may help but wiser members will advise you about that if you think you need it. It's to be used with caution during WDs.

Keep getting out there while you can. I can't recommend getting out and about enough in between resting and healing. It'll support the mental health transition.

Good luck, we're here for you
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Oneandonly12345 said:
Hi Korana
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Hi Korana, Thanks for your support - it does mean an awful lot. I’ve pretty much never detoxed without subutex before so it’s new to me but if it does work it should mean I’m totally clean.
How is your detox going? Hope you’re hanging in there. Mum made me laugh though - she said she’s never seen a person feel this ill after traveling lol if only....
 
@Oneandonly12345

Hey been following since you made this post. Really great job and just keep it. Im about 3 days into wds and really feeling it. Insomnia like you cannot imagine. Slept about 5 hours in the past 3 days. I was using h for about 4 months every day


Regardless im still pushing thru and not going to let it break me again.

I refuse to let this dumb ass drug rule my world.

Good luck!
 
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Ah that is difficult, they are obliged to tell your gp. You'd need to go private to avoid having your gp told. I didn't have a job but I don't think they asked anything about employment.

What about murual support meetings? I go to na, but some people prefer smart recovery. Getting social support from people who understand is massively helpful.

Glad you're feeling better.

I did maybe 5 rattles abroad and always scored as soon as I got back cos I hadn't twigged that there is more to stopping using drugs than stopping using drugs. My parents changed the locks to my house in the end, giving me the choice to be homeless or go to rehab, so I chose rehab.
 
charmcitypoker said:
@Oneandonly12345

Hey been following since you made this post. Really great job and just keep it. Im about 3 days into wds and really feeling it. Insomnia like you cannot imagine. Slept about 5 hours in the past 3 days. I was using h for about 4 months every day


Regardless im still pushing thru and not going to let it break me again.

I refuse to let this dumb ass drug rule my world.

Good luck!
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And same to you. It does get easier. I found some melatonin which knocked me out last night or perhaps it was jus exchaustion. Hope you have some support and don’t have to keep up appearances like I do ☹️. Have to say the thought of turkey dinner on Thursday is enough having me running to the toilet as I only managing to eat sweet shit at the moment. Mum wants my bloods done - good luck with that, especially finding the vein. My worst test will be when I fly back Saturday and a dealer starts texting...need all the strength... good luck with your detox and let us know how it’s all going. Hugs xx
 
@Oneandonly12345

I actually took melatonin for first time last night. Took a good dose but didnt seem to do it for me. I fell asleep a few times for a couple of minutes but would quickly wake up with cold sweats. I'm thinking of getting some
Loperamide today and give it a try. Just gotta figure out the right dose.


I'm just killing for some sleep,any bit at all.

I'll stay in the loop, good luck!
 
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