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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Distancing Talk Thread: Swirly Congregation That's 100% Pandemic-Proof

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Wuts up guys,

Just relaxing this afternoon on a solid dose of edibles taking bong rips, took 16mgs of Buprenorphine and it's making me feel semi-fuzzy. Trying to figure out my next move after the upcoming Mushroom trip. Thinking about introducing my girlfriend to the world of RC's with 4-AcO-DMT or 4-AcO-MiPT...was planning on just saving the DPT for myself. I'm for sure most likely going to be giving her both over time. But what would you guy's suggest?

I'm thinking the 4-AcO-DMT because of her familiarity with mushrooms. She has had them at least 30 times or better. So she told me that she had tripped on acid a few times as well. Gonna be getting some ALD-52 and having some trials also. Looking forward to the next year, my life definetly has experienced some improvemnts. We will be in the perfect set and settings, mainly the apartment or when we go on vacations.

Hope everyone's having a good day :)
 
I find 4-AcO-MiPT to be possibly the most enjoyable tryptamine, it's trippy and fully psychedelic but also quite empathogenic and euphoric and silly... lots of belly laughter. Whereas 4-AcO-DMT, to me, starts off rather off-putting and it is difficult for me to communicate on it, until after the peak where it feels exactly like post-peak mushrooms, which is one of my favorite states. Basically I think 4-AcO-MiPT is more recreational.
 
That is very true, i have never had any bad experiences with 4-ho-mipt, so im assuming the AcO will be very similar. Im really looking forward to sampling it.

This one time i took around 50mgs of 4-AcO-DMT and 20mgs of 4-HO-MPT and i had to abort the mission a few hours in. It just became way to powerful and intense and something happened where the entire room couch, the TV walls all fell apart into these spaghetti like strainds until i was getting pulled in with them through some sort of vortex. Everything started moving fast in this peak was like Hyperspace. A woman in a floating lotus position hovering. The backround geometric fractals shifting between all colors. And after the peak it got dark and strange with these thought/time loops that kept repeating. I went through this for an eternity it felt like until i ate 10mgs of Rispredone and past out shorty there after.

Wow, that was one of the most powerful trips I've had. Dont think i would call entirely bad cuz the peak was beautiful. But i think the 4-AcO-DMT is what took the combo down that darker path. My entire house looked like it was cloaked in shadow by the way, it felt like some psychedelic swirly horror movie.
 
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I have been avoiding bluelight beause I just won't do drugs anymore.

Loneliness is a motherfucker though. It was either this or I was about to get on Reddit and just be outraged all night. Lol.

I haven't had any benzos for about a month. I basically quit (an almost year long taper using diclazepam, starting with ~8-9mg/day), but kept waking up having panic attacks. This was leading to dosing etizolam to go back to sleep. Ugh, that monkey just did not want to get off my fucking back.

About three weeks ago I just came home from work and threw every substance of any type I still had in the trash (after opening the containers and dumping them so I couldn't retrieve in the morning.) I was just like "Dude, what the fuck are you doing with your life. You will never get what you want this way, there is only so far you will progress, it's just a fucking trap". I was at like 1g of concentrate/bho a day, which made certain things better but left me a mindless mess. Using san pedro as a daily (months long) microdose helped me think through a lot of things, but it was still a trap. Like taking a mixture of psychedelics and dissociatives and saying "I want to wake up and know who I am, where I came from, and meet some motherfuckers too". That shit put me in the hospital and prison (seperatly). Lol. It's kinda hilarious when I think about it, but really just sad that i kept doing it over and over.

The benzos are gone though and I never want to touch another one again. I'd just about rather kill myself. I've actually started dreaming again. it's been a long looooooong time for that. I actually woke up and was like "HOLY FUCK did I just have a dream? I need to write it down". I tossed Sananga and rapeh snuffs too. Perhaps that wasn't totally neccesary, but it kinda feels like it was.

I found some article about carnivore (meat only) diet healing disease. I had been vegetarian since 2013 and vegan for a few months. I thought that sounded completely stupid, so of course I had to research it. Read about inflamation being the root cause of pretty much every disease. Read a lot o people describing the same symptoms I've had for over a decade being cured in a month of eating nothing but beef,salt,water. Fuck it, I will try anything twice. Been eating this way about 2 1/2 weeks, and I feel different. Stopped blowing out a ton of yellow mucus everyday. I can actually breathe again. Pains I've had all up and down the left side of my body seem to be receding. I almost feel "sane". Sitting here wondering how much of my mental health issues are related to infection and inflamation, mold and the like. I need to go get a root canaled tooth (that has been infected since the crown got put on) extracted, and see if any of my fillings/dental work needs to be removed. Trying not to be upset/shamed at all the unnessary dental work I've had over the years. Liars and cheaters inflicting pain for $$$$. Oh well, fuck it.

I have been writing again. Trying to figure out how to actually love myself. It's hard when your life story (so far) is just how much you managed to fuck around and not die. It's getting easier when I look at it from the perspective of I CHOSE to do all these things. It was planned before my life began, and there was a reason. I have been through so much shit, I am wayyyyy more empathetic to all sorts of people that I would NEVER have been otherwise. Once I manage to help myself, I know I will be able to help a lot of other people. Not sure how yet, but that doesn't seem to matter all that much. dariusforoux.com/ . I have been listening to a lot of this guys podcast, he has a lot of really helpful advice.

I read a few people wondering where TNW has been. I googled his name and didn't see any obits... :-/


I've read more than a few pages of post here mentioning being 33. I think Headphones asked if it was a good idea to pursue a chemistry degree at 33? Why the fuck not? I'm 33, and I refuse to accept there is anything I can't do if I want too. Remember, the majority of this world is lies and bullshit. Just go with what feels true to you.

Reading through the last few months of PD Social Threads has me like "man I love DPT. Man I Love MXE"

Reading a Pm I sent to someone about one of the last times I tried to trip. Looks like I combined 4-6 chemicals and blacked out. What in the good fuck. It's time to just sit here and do this shit manually instead of "cheating".
"I think I need to lay off holing/tripping for a while. Last three trips I just straight dose and blackout. It's the weirdest thing. Like my body is saying "you don't need to be doing this stop fucking around you moron". I always come too barely moved from my bed w/ minimal damange. I wastged like 100mg 4 aco dpt, some met I think, 50mg mipt, 60mg dpt, lots of dck. I'd have to look at my notes. No matter how off the rails I go. I usually writedown what I'm doing. Might have even but some 2cx in. "

;-)
 
Wow, man, YYW ! So glad to see you reporting yourself !
It's awesome you are succeeding in keeping off all drugs, if that's what you felt you needed. Congrats on getting off benzos !! It's no easy thing.

Are you still into sky diving? Are you still serious about becoming an instructor ?


I'm a vegetarian, and I can't imagine going back to eating meat. Was it weird for you? Didn't it make you sick at first? I thought after years of not eating animal protein our stomach enzymes would be ill prepared to digest it.

Best wishes on getting "back on track". I'm sure staying sober will be a great perspective shift after all the time you were on various drugs. I imagine it feels like a brand new beginning. Experiencing such states is always exciting. The world can feel new again. We are always reinventing ourselves. And that feeling of reinventing the world as you reinvent yourself is probably what brings many of us to drugs. After all these years you can and must reinvent yourself through sobriety. Keep on keeping on ! And drop a line whenever you feel like it.


Good luck, friend !
 
Great to hear from you yepyep. :) The change in the way you seem to be facing life and yourself is really apparent, I'm so glad for you. It's such a big move to throw all of your drugs away. Sobriety is a trip too. I had a period of it after ibogaine and in retrospect it was the time I felt the most stable and at ease in my adult life. It makes sense to not spend much time at Bluelight if you're trying to stay away from drugs. This place definitely makes me think a lot more about them and want to do them. But I hope you do drop in from time to time to let us know how you're doing. I'm just really glad to see you feeling positive and hopeful for the future. :)
 
I didn't taper or have any withdrawals :d
good to hear! I never had to wd from gabaergics, but since I know how a balls to the wall panic attack feels, I guess that a serious benzo wd must be hell.

also godspeed to yepyep, good luck with being sober...

I have also been sober for over four weeks, save for tiny amounts of beer once or twice, since my DR kinda snuck up on me again in late december, but today has me thinking about vaping some bud quite a bit... cut my finger really bad at work, had to go to the hospital to have it dealt with and now I'm home, not really sick and also can't do much. so fucking bored, especially since being depressed had me watch youtube for most of the time since coming home earlier today..

could do some for uni to get that stupid bsc but oh well ;)
 
Sup guys :) I just feel like saying that I am exactly 7 weeks off opiates/opioids tomorrow. I actually feel incredibly good, my emotions are strong and intense but welcome. I'm slightly manic in a sense %)

I also read possibly the best sci-fi series that I've encoutnered recently. It bought me to tears, and the final 100 pages of the last book were seriously edge-of-seat, begging-for-salvation, soul-destroyingly brilliant. Its the Red Rising trilogy by Pierce Brown. Set about 800 years in the future, humanity lives across the solar system in a brutal fascist society with a violently imposed caste system. Its about the uprising, and it is ridiculously fun. I had to suspend disbelief at some events, but the author writes in present tense, first-person, and doens't really explain what the main character is doing or why, he just does it and you follow along and its engrossing. Of course, my opiate free self experienced this writing way more intensely than I would have ever before, and for that I am fucking grateful. <3

Hope you guys are all well.
 
Congrats, swilly, I'm really proud of you. :) It's no small feat but we've talked about this and it sounds like you're in a good place. Old-school PD crew is emerging from the darkness!

When you're done with those books, I recommend getting into the Jacqueline Carey books, the Kushiel's Legacy. The first one is Kushiel's Dart. It's 2 trilogies and they're so good. Especially the second trilogy. I'm just about to finish the last book. They're also written in first person, not present tense though. The first trilogy is written from one character's perspective and the second is written from another's.
 
Ah for fuck's sake... my lawyer just called and said that my ex's lawyer just requested another continuance (delay) from the judge! The court appearance is supposed to be Friday! This is ridiculous. My lawyer said he's been calling the other lawyer but she hasn't called back. He's trying to get in a room with the judge and the lawyer before Friday to see if we can not keep delaying and just get it over with. One thing that bothers me is that my lawyer said that it might be because the other lawyer just got the answers to the interrogatories this morning (my lawyer asked me to come sign them in front of a notary yesterday). Thing is, I handed those in 2 months ago. So why the fuck didn't he bring them to the other lawyer then? Hopefully not because he charges me more money the longer this shit goes on. He did say that what he hopes will happen is that we are able to negotiate a deal, which makes me hopeful I could come up with a settlement for her rather than have everything split up. Which would be massively ideal.

Once again, more uncertainty and waiting. Fuck this bullshit. :X
 
That is strange how he never handed in those documents. When you hired this lawyer did you negotiate a flat fee. Have you used this guy for anything, how did you find him? Thankfully i didn't get married to my Ex. It seems like a stressful situation, I've been listening to what's happening to you for awhile. Sounds like your Ex wants to do anything to stall the process. Try and get the lawyers and judge in a room together a.s.a.p.

This has been dragging on a long time but just hang in there bro. It will be over soon, everything ends eventually.
 
So kafkesque :(
I hope you can get over with it soon.


Nice seeing you here, Swilow :)

Congrants on being off opiates, seems like this year started off in a nice way for those kicking addiction .

Weirdly enough I've felt more compeled to sobriety later. Haven't been smoking much weed or doing much of anything else really.

I now wonder about TNW and Soli, anyone knows anything about them ?
 
No flat fee, it's hourly.

What happened was the following. I wish I had a different lawyer. It was coming up on 10 years since we'd been married, and my parents were freaked out, they read something about how, if she filed in Illinois after 10 years, she would automatically get half my stuff, no questions asked. They instilled panic in me to serve her with papers before that date. It was like 2 days before the date and I tried to get appointments with lawyers in a panic and this guy was able to do it in time. Turns out, though, they only go by date of separation so I was safe regardless. And I didn't have time to vet this guy. I paid him his $1000 retainer so no matter what happened I was stuck owing him a grand. So I figured hey, I'll stick with the guy, I went through various hoops, to the point I already owed him over $1000 (he's hourly but no charge until retainer is met), it looked like she wasn't even going to request for equitable distribution so I figured it didn't matter how I felt about the lawyer. At this point I feel like I'm too deep in the hole to do anything about it, I'd have to pay a whole new retainer and another guy would have to get up to speed on it. But yeah basically I went with the guy who got back to me.

But yeah my lawyer is trying to get into a room with the other lawyer and judge this week. So he says. For all I know, my lawyer and her lawyer are in cahoots to drag this out.
 
Our cat had cancer and my girlfriend and I had to put him to sleep yesterday. Thing's are very gloomy for us right now, I loved that little guy so much :(

She has been hysterical ever since it happened. She held him in hier arms while they injected the overdose. Which I wish she never did because it probably made this even more traumatic for her. Just trying to keep it together I have the next couple days off, buying another Valentine's gift for my girlfriend today.
 
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Oh man, I'm so sorry. :( That's so hard. When my family dog I grew up with got cancer we had to put her down. My mom wanted to be in there with her when she died, and no one else would go with her, so I did. I held my dog's paw as I watched the life go out of her eyes. It was really sad and difficult and I cried a lot, but in the end, I'm glad I did it because I was there for her right up to the end.
 
Yeah it's super rough. Thus is life though. After seeing enough death in 28 years....I just remember to be thankful that I had any time with such a wonderful soul. It's quite sad but after enough death you just sort of become callous too it, it's not like your not extremely sad but..... It's hard to describe.... Sorry CC hope you guys feel better soon!
 
Thank you guys, this might sound like we are being impulsive or crazy. But we are actually going to look at a dog to adopt or possibly a kitten from a shelter today. My girlfriend said that she needs more love from an animal and our other cat Moofy is not as affectionate as the one who past. This has been the most emotional two days I've had in awhile. I just want her to be happy, i love her.

SOooo...off to the animal shelter.
 
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