☮ Social ☮ PD Social Distancing Talk Thread: Swirly Congregation That's 100% Pandemic-Proof

[pharmakos]

i've been crying and alone all day and just needed to mention it somewhere. don't want to concern facebook with it.

i'm so fucking worried about my tests next week.

 

[yepyepwoah]

this is a double post from the social tripping thread but

yall be careful out there. I had been pushing myself too hard working. doing weed. alcohol kratom, prolly 4g 3 meo pcp in a few months . 500mg o pce was half done

I had been pushing myself too hard.Gettting kicked out wherever I live. Crashed my car.

I had been up for two days doing 3 meo pcp and i guess topped it off with more 3 meo and some o pce



I got lost in the sauce.... again. for like t'he fifth time.

I guess i came down to my moms room screaming "i'm alive i'm alive god fucking help me. she took me into her bed and held me. i thought i got sofar gone she was gone with me. she took pictures and videos of me I have no recolection off.


i just woke up at 4pm. i went to her room at 6am she tookthe day off to watch me. didn't call the cops or mental people.

i gave her my stash of psychs and dissos. Flushed it all. It would make someof yall cry the collection i had. But I am knocking on deaths door.

thank god she loves me andwill let me stay here and recover and get back to normal.

this is not a game and it could easily ruin your life

i didn't learn the first five times. i gave her my stash and she flushed it. sooo.

be careful. I love you all. she thinks meposting this is stupid, but you are the only type of people that understand me.

Im sticking to weeed and diclaz taper and kratom and thatsits. Im at the point where i change or die.

please listen and have some self control


RIP VORTECH
i love you all

 

[SharedHalucination]

Well.. Ive had a fun last 24 hours..

Last night at work at the end of my shift I was finishing my pick at the end of the night and I apparently blacked out fell over and "shook". I have no memory of this happening. A co worker saw me laying on the ground and went and told the supervisor and they called an ambulance. So I am walking out for my last break and there is an ambulance parked right in front. The paramedic calls me by name and asks if I am okay.

I sort of looked at him confused. He then goes we received a call you had fallen and were shaking. Flabbergasted. I am just staring at him like are you sure you have the right person? He just starts laughing and says yes I can see the goose egg on your head from the fall.

So I get shuttled to the ER. Still confused. I get there and they are taking tests and everything. So I am freaked out because I take benzos off and on and I am thinking I had a seizure because of it. Only thing that made sense at the time. After about 3 hours the DR says I dont think this was a seizure or brought on by any substance. I believe youve just been running on very little sleep for a long time and your body finally said "thats it, time for sleep".

 

[Bagseed]

this is a double post from the social tripping thread but

yall be careful out there. I had been pushing myself too hard working. doing weed. alcohol kratom, prolly 4g 3 meo pcp in a few months . 500mg o pce was half done

I had been pushing myself too hard.Gettting kicked out wherever I live. Crashed my car.

I had been up for two days doing 3 meo pcp and i guess topped it off with more 3 meo and some o pce



I got lost in the sauce.... again. for like t'he fifth time.

I guess i came down to my moms room screaming "i'm alive i'm alive god fucking help me. she took me into her bed and held me. i thought i got sofar gone she was gone with me. she took pictures and videos of me I have no recolection off.


i just woke up at 4pm. i went to her room at 6am she tookthe day off to watch me. didn't call the cops or mental people.

i gave her my stash of psychs and dissos. Flushed it all. It would make someof yall cry the collection i had. But I am knocking on deaths door.

thank god she loves me andwill let me stay here and recover and get back to normal.

this is not a game and it could easily ruin your life

i didn't learn the first five times. i gave her my stash and she flushed it. sooo.

be careful. I love you all. she thinks meposting this is stupid, but you are the only type of people that understand me.

Im sticking to weeed and diclaz taper and kratom and thatsits. Im at the point where i change or die.

please listen and have some self control


RIP VORTECH
i love you all

glad to hear that you are alive. as far as I remember people have already been speculating about your fate... also you are blessed for having that kind of mother. show her lots of love and respect and change your ways.

 

[pharmakos]

she thinks meposting this is stupid

Well let her know we're just happy you're alive if someone wants to leave the community to get sober then that's great, but you had us real worried with some of the posts you made before you disappeared.

Do what you gotta do tho

 

[pharmakos]

And yepyepwoah, you were the first person to help me out when I got sick. You're a good guy. Tell her that story to let her know that these relationships are real despite being digital.

 

[Help?!?!]

They sure are! People who arent aware of that sort of thing and ask me what's wrong around the time Lakia had passed(RIP bruv!)were all heavily confused. "So you didn't really know him?", "So you never met him?". Yeah so what?!? Just because you've met with someone IRL does not mean you know them....

Many of us have been there ourselves Yep too many of us!

TNW, I know it's hard but try to stay strong! You didn't deserve any of this and unfortunately that doesn't make it any better. Sometimes the battles you have to fight in this world are wrought with turmoil, pain, and personal loss. I know what happened to my legs definitely made me stronger at least. Never in a million years if you'd told me that a couple months before 2013 I'd be almost dead and not actually dead having to relearn how to walk again dealing with the most unreal pain with absolutely no pain meds, and not much support, I'd have told you that you were one wacked out smuck!

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

doges
im smokin reefer rn

 

[yepyepwoah]

Went for an 8-10 mile ride on my road bike. Didn't really want to, but i knew it would make me feel better. Took some yellow vein kratom and will now go clean my bike/chain, probably cut the grass. My hair and bear as well, shit is driving me nuts. None of this I would have felt like doing without that ride.

The past few months I got really blessed having a friend build me both a TREK road bike w/ hybrid tires and a TREK mountain bike. The guys is just super nice, and wanted someone to ride with. He basically rebuilt both bikes, cleaned everything, brand spankin new style, and I think I got both for maybe $300 total. I tipped him with a 1/2oz of weed, but i could easily sell either bike for $400 if not way more. Such a blessing because riding is a passion of mine and a great way to stay in shape and motivated. Plus not having a car, that road bike means a 10 minute ride VS an hour walk to work.

I already crashed and trashed the seat on the MTB, and am waiting on a replacement seat from china. HAhaha. The first one from the company came from here, but I guess they ran out and are drop shipping seats from china. Can't complain because they gave me a free replacement. When I look at pictures of the trashed seat and realize how completely unhurt I was from the crash I have to laugh.


I have about half the money I need for a car. I'm trying to sell my record collection (i anyone is intested in punk/hc/metal send me a pm and I'll send you my discogs link) to get a car. I am in a refinery/chemical plant area and have a few people saying I could easily get a job at their work. I mean $18 starting out as a helper, come on with that $$$$$. I just need a car, so I might have to work a shit job for a few more months that I can get to on my bike.

After that I plan to save up about $30k and skydive for a year. I went about 10 times a year and a half ago and fell in love. There is a place about two hours from me that offers all you can dive for about $9k a year. This place is really top notch, and people travel from all over to get their A license (first 25 jumps, so you can solo jump w/out an instructor after that) and learn in general. It's been something i've wanted to do for a while and nothing is stopping me but me.

There are constantly shutdowns at plants here where you can work 7/12s for a few months. Even as a helper that's $30k for a few months work. Just gotta get that car first. Probably skydive mon-thurs, work a shit job to help with bills fri-sat and do that for a year and see where life takes me. I'm definatly getting a passport as well. With all my psychs and dissos gone (for the third time) hopefully I will get my shit together and fucking do this.

 

[swilow]

^You have a bear?

 

[yepyepwoah]

Cut my hair and BEARD Swillow. Although some say I am part bear wirth the winter hibernations and raiding of picnic baskets.

EDIT:

I hate mornings. Waking up is always the hardest thing to do. My mind is in a funk. Today I just woke up regretting flushing all my psychs. Even though I haven't tripped in a year it still pisses me off. Thinking about all the money and time spent. All the days worried an international package would get intercepted. Always waiting for a CD. All that flushed away. Perhaps that's where it belongs though. I could list out the 20 or so trypts and phens that are gone. Some I might never be able to find again even if i tried. Then I'm like... hey stupid. If you really want to trip the cow field you picked your first mushrooms is three miles away. Stop crying. Then I laugh at myself.

Took a small dab, then vaped and read EE Knights latest book in the Vampire Earth series. Great series if you like post apocolyptic, aliens taken over the world, fuck you get off our planet, type of shit. Took half my Diclaz taper dose (currently at about 3.75mg a day, so half that). Took some green vein kratom as well.

Went on an hour ride on my road bike.I think I will sign up for a Strava acount to map my rides/mileage/speed etc. Does anyone else use Strava or know of a similiar/better app?

Just took some yellow vein kratom. Probably take a dab and read for a while. Do some yard work, cut my hair, then start looking at all the applications for jobs I got the day before I decided to go nuts.

It usually takes me about a week after a trip/episode like that to feel back to normal. Plus I've been on some type of dissociative 6 days out of 7 for the past 3 1/2 years. So there goes that ever present mood lift. I am quite sure it's for the best though.

Doing little, every day things, might seem mundane to some. Like "why is he chronicling this like it matters." All I know is after waking up feeling like I have been the past few days, just the fact I got out of bed IS a great achievement.

So I will take it a day at a time and try and improve my life. Sorry if I am using this thread as journal at the moment, just don't have anywhere else to vent really.

thanks guys and gals

 

[pharmakos]

Should have sent them to me

 

[yepyepwoah]

Should have sent them to me

Shoulda, coulda, woulda. Dunno why I handed everything over like that, maybe it's for the best for me (and my mom) in the long run. Sorry dooood.

Shouldn't lost my 2 week old glasses yesterday. Swear I put them in the living room, put on my sunglasses, went out and did some yard stuff, came back in and they are gone. I've allready spent hours looking. Good thing I have my backup pair, except my backup pair has superglue all over them and are broke as fuck. Hence me having two week old glasses. arrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrghhhh.

 

[perpetualdawn]

I think I will sign up for a Strava acount to map my rides/mileage/speed etc. Does anyone else use Strava or know of a similiar/better app?

I'm on Strava - it's great, really positive app. It super motivating to see your friends posting activities, makes you more motivated to get out there and do your own. Really good way to track your activities, mileage, progress, and see the activities on the map, check your pace, improve yourself etc. I really recommend getting on there! It's been a game changer for me.

There seem to be many other apps, but Strava is the king of the social aspect of these types of apps. There are others that are better for analytics on your activities.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

aight dogs
i'm mentally preparing myself for thursday night
if things go to plan, i will be having the craziest psychedelic experience i've ever had, well that is if it turns out to be like i imagine it will be
i got my L, green geltabs. I'll be taking 3 tabs, and i'll probably dose the L while ridin the metro to the club. I'll probably be not sober when i drop but i'm planning on ideally not getting too crazy with the quartz and probably dosing orally (after eating the L) in a gelcap, it'll be prob a quarter gram i'll take before walking up to go through security and i'd honestly probably be semi high all day that day as it is.
It'll be fun

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

dogs i'm chillin
i'm FUCKED up son, i smoked 2 large bowls tonight since like 10something
thought i heard noises like creepin noises but i'm ignoring it
i've been ignoring it for at least an hour

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

morning update
chillin
bout to get rehydrated and take a bit more speed cause i have work in less than 2 hours. not sure how i'm gonna do it though. probably honestly just blow some

 

[Img_9999]

aight dogs
i'm mentally preparing myself for thursday night
if things go to plan, i will be having the craziest psychedelic experience i've ever had, well that is if it turns out to be like i imagine it will be
i got my L, green geltabs. I'll be taking 3 tabs, and i'll probably dose the L while ridin the metro to the club. I'll probably be not sober when i drop but i'm planning on ideally not getting too crazy with the quartz and probably dosing orally (after eating the L) in a gelcap, it'll be prob a quarter gram i'll take before walking up to go through security and i'd honestly probably be semi high all day that day as it is.
It'll be fun

Is quartz methamphetamine ? Never mixed LSD and stimulants, but it sound nightmarish to me. I had the most anxious comeup of my life one time I took 2C-E just an hour after my morning cofee. Can't imagine mixing amphetamine and psychedelics ! The only time I've done something in that lines was when I mixed 2C-D and 2-FA, but it was a low dose of 2C-D so it felt more like a pure stim with a lightly spacier headspace .

How does that combo work for you?

 

[yepyepwoah]

I'm on Strava - it's great, really positive app. It super motivating to see your friends posting activities, makes you more motivated to get out there and do your own. Really good way to track your activities, mileage, progress, and see the activities on the map, check your pace, improve yourself etc. I really recommend getting on there! It's been a game changer for me.

There seem to be many other apps, but Strava is the king of the social aspect of these types of apps. There are others that are better for analytics on your activities.

I downloaded it and used it yesterday! I went about 15 miles with a ride time of 1hr 26 min. I like that when you stop moving, it stops clocking your time. Let's you get a better average of speed etc. I like the map function too. I am trying to ride around town and am always loooking for less crowded areas with no stop signs etc. Too bad I don't have any friends that ride. Maybe if I make my routes public I can see if others around town are riding?

 

[Xorkoth]

Well.. Ive had a fun last 24 hours..

Last night at work at the end of my shift I was finishing my pick at the end of the night and I apparently blacked out fell over and "shook". I have no memory of this happening. A co worker saw me laying on the ground and went and told the supervisor and they called an ambulance. So I am walking out for my last break and there is an ambulance parked right in front. The paramedic calls me by name and asks if I am okay.

I sort of looked at him confused. He then goes we received a call you had fallen and were shaking. Flabbergasted. I am just staring at him like are you sure you have the right person? He just starts laughing and says yes I can see the goose egg on your head from the fall.

So I get shuttled to the ER. Still confused. I get there and they are taking tests and everything. So I am freaked out because I take benzos off and on and I am thinking I had a seizure because of it. Only thing that made sense at the time. After about 3 hours the DR says I dont think this was a seizure or brought on by any substance. I believe youve just been running on very little sleep for a long time and your body finally said "thats it, time for sleep".

Whoa dude that's crazy. If you've been sleep deprived though that might be just enough on its own to cause a seizure. Although I guess it wasn't a seizure, maybe you just passed out uncontrollably? I was chronically sleep deprived for a long time years ago, and I started randomly falling asleep uncontrollably, the doctor diagnozed me with narcolepsy (because I didn't want to be honest that it was because I was staying up all night tripping and then going to work at 7:30am, 0-3 hours of sleep a night, rinse and repeat for 2 years). Once I got caught up with sleep and took better care of myself it stopped happening entirely.

Actually though it reminds me of how nat the festival I just got back from, on the second day, my good friend's roommate had a full-blown grand mal seizure in the morning. He was up all night and did a bunch of coke to try to get pumped for the day, and was very, very dehydrated. It was terrifying though, he had to get taken to the hospital in an ambulance. Fortunately he was fine.

i've been crying and alone all day and just needed to mention it somewhere. don't want to concern facebook with it.

i'm so fucking worried about my tests next week.

Hey man I can't imagine what that fear must feel like. So fucked up that you have to keep dealing with this. It's been a rollercoaster for me, so I can't imagine how intense it's been for you. Just sending you some love.

They sure are! People who arent aware of that sort of thing and ask me what's wrong around the time Lakia had passed(RIP bruv!)were all heavily confused. "So you didn't really know him?", "So you never met him?". Yeah so what?!? Just because you've met with someone IRL does not mean you know them....

Many of us have been there ourselves Yep too many of us!

TNW, I know it's hard but try to stay strong! You didn't deserve any of this and unfortunately that doesn't make it any better. Sometimes the battles you have to fight in this world are wrought with turmoil, pain, and personal loss. I know what happened to my legs definitely made me stronger at least. Never in a million years if you'd told me that a couple months before 2013 I'd be almost dead and not actually dead having to relearn how to walk again dealing with the most unreal pain with absolutely no pain meds, and not much support, I'd have told you that you were one wacked out smuck!

I love you man, you are fantastic.

So I will take it a day at a time and try and improve my life. Sorry if I am using this thread as journal at the moment, just don't have anywhere else to vent really.

thanks guys and gals

Hey man, this thread has been a journal for me for years and years. One of the extremely valuable things about this place is that we can unload and share, when sometimes there is no one and nowhere else in life to do so. Don't ever feel bad about unloading here.