The other night I decided to have a little adventure and took a combo of 18mg of 4-AcO-MET following with 400mcg of 25i-NBOH.
25i-NBOH was on blotter and I took it about 30 minutes past ingestion of 4-AcO-MET which already started to produce a familiar warm psychedelia.
As everything was kicking in I went to take a shower, then made some kratom tea, ate some dark chocolate. I was feeling uneasy and restless, I tried reading and words were just jumping away from me - I couldn't make up any meaning and it started making me a bit dizzy. The dizziness had progressed as my view of the world started getting pretty wavy - it felt like my brain was free-floating inside my skull along with my eyeballs.
To combat the dizziness I drank some strong ginger brew, laid on the sofa and decided to check out videogames. After trying a few of them I realized that it was really hard to concentrate on anything in particular so I loaded the game called "Everything" - it has no plot, no purpose, no enemies, the game is filled with Alan Watts recordings so I really enjoy this game when I'm shooting out there but feeling very active mentally.
And man....

the Reality itself unfolded the message after message about MY life (which in a way is a life of everything) and EVERYTHING I was, am and going to be was right in front of me, amazingly transcendent experience! When I ascended from being the swirling galaxy into yet bigger object I became a Planck's length in a world of basic geometry - this seriously blew my mind with such visuals and understanding, I started crying... Geometry started coming out from the wall (I use LCD projector all the time) and shooting out in different directions with multitude of colors! I felt so clear, so bright, so awakened!
Then as I was listening to recordings of Alan Watts in game I have experienced the freakiest psychedelic effect - the time started to alterate it's speed for me - first I noticed the voice was floating extremely in pitch - it got me curious. Along with the voice, all the letters were floating around, up and down, further and closer and as I got up to check it out closer I've noticed frames of reality freezing up - as if my brain was waaay faster than the physical world and my own body. It was not very pleasurable at that particular time as I immediately thought that I've never experienced it like that and it might be damaging in some way, especially extreme pitch alteration of sounds - it was like some crazy DJ was swinging the pitch slider up and down along with my waviness. All along I maintain body-ego awareness.
At that point (about 3 hours in) I decided I need to calm down, took out my signing bowls and popped a 0,25mg of Etizolam. As I started playing the bowls, I intensely realized that my mind (and every other mind) is truly empty - it gets filled up by only recent and most memorable inputs that shape who we think we are. As I played the bowls, my mind had become a beautiful mandala, that grew in size and pushed away all anxiety. I was very impressed.
From there on I coasted down vaporizing some cannabis and enjoying the beautiful psychedelic glow.
Thinking of it now, it was in a way a process of time transcending - I thought that if the Universe becomes so self-aware of itself, then everything would have to come to a halt, including time. As I see it, time allows us to maintain the illusion of continuity, illusion of being separate and I have felt it that time very strongly that it is merely an illusion. Time is necessary for the drama of life to happen.
We are so damn connected and it's so much fun to play with it!
