I'm in my 30's. I've been addicted to something ever since I was 13- nicotine. I was later in my 20's addicted to opiates/opioids hydrocodone/oxy/and when this was hard to source, eventually heroin. This eventually turned to suboxone addiction. I've also been crazy addicted to benzos like alprazolam, and some RC stuff which I have no idea what it was.
I CAN recreationally use opiates and benzos. However, alcohol is a different story. This has been the bane of my existence for the past 12 or 18 months. During this time I have not gone a single day without drinking. Actually that is not true. I have tapered to 1 drink and eventually none for a day or two, but imsomnia and crawling skin overtook me, and I again drank 10 drinks. For me this is worse than H. I am looking for other stuff to use coming off alcohol, or at least help me taper. Benzos scare me as it's so easy to fall back into it.
This is all subjective, but shooting sub and H, and kicking it, but succumbing to alcohol seems to me worse. Alcohol is socially acceptable, but other stuff is not. While I cracked the other stuff, life with or without alcohol seems to me unliveable. So there you have it. I'm not discounting 2 days out from a heavy heroin habit because I'd rather cut a finger off, but alcohol is still the worst.
I realize my postings are low, but I have really grown to rely on this community as I have nobody else I can talk about or relate to about this stuff. My friends don't know this stuff about me and I don't associate with others now who have enjoyed these problems.