Thanks guys. Yeah it was not at all ideal. He's just doing a few days at a time at the moment so he can monitor me and the dose. It wasn't great though as he told me 'come and see me Thursday or Friday' so I made the appt Friday and only raced over Thursday night because the chemist told me! When I got there after a 45 minute drive and saw the empty car park and I just stood and the door with my hands in the air and wanted to cry.
I am over it and definitely didn't get angry with anyone over it, absolutely not the chemists fault, he's great. If it had been suboxone he would have given it to me anyway as my old dr was always slack with faxing my monthly scripts through but he knew they would come eventually. The methadone is too new for me so his hands were tied.
I did make sure I told the dr of my predicament and he could see how sick I was when I got there. He didn't actually ask at all if I had used since starting the new med and I wasn't much in the mood for conversation, I just wanted to get that dose in me. Took about 2 hours for the urge to vomit to go away. This time I have 5 day a script and I checked with him 3 times after he faxed it plus checked with the chemist today that I actually have a dose for the day of my next appt and I do. I do not want to use again!!!!
Re the dose. I still have a fair way to go I think. I'm starting to feel human during the day and even a bit motivated but I could easily use at night as the nausea and restlessness sets in. Luckily this is the busiest time of day for me running kids around and I have gotten some sleep. Needing to use alot of promenthazine but that's ok. Having a dose of 40ml last night and then again early this morning, so closer together than normal, was good. Feeling very sick now though and have a takeaway sitting in the medicine cupboard which I could so easily take but I'm not willing to put myself through another day of withdrawals or risk using. Still tempting but I just won't.
I don't want my dose to get too high that's for sure. My suboxone ended up at 32mg as it just wasn't holding me for 24 hours - so I guess that worries me about the done, having to have it at the chemist I can't split it.
I appreciate you guys continuing to reply
. Thank you