Seyer
Bluelight Crew
Last Wednesday, one week ago from today, my girlfriend left this world. We had a fair bit of distance between us so our visits involved a two hour train ride (including one or two transfers). The Wednesday before a major holiday so train travel was backed up and delayed a bit. I was standing on the platform during the second transfer, trying to calm down from my train travel anxiety. She had just gotten done at work at 7pm (she was a track & field coach for 8-10 year olds) and texted me and asked me how I was. I told her I was having a tough time and she asked if I wanted her to call me to help me calm down a bit. I said no, that it would be over soon and that I saw the train approaching the station. She then told me she was at her bike and would head home to shower before she would pick me up at the station at 8.16pm. The last message she ever sent was at 7.05pm saying "I love you." I got on the train and replied at 7.07pm. The next hour went by and I didnt hear from her. I texted her saying that I would see her soon at 7.53pm and again at 8.08pm asking her if everything was okay. I arrived at the station, no sign of her and no answer to my phone calls. I saw her father there, looking for me and asked if he had heard anything from her. No one had heard from her. Her father quickly called her mother and asked her to drive by the stadium to see if she was there while we drove straight to the emergency room.
We arrived there and asked if they had brought in a girl with her traits. They said a dead young woman had been brought in, completely matching all of her traits. Her mother and sister arrived and we all hoped there had been some mistake. Everyone panicking, they took us to a back room. After some time of waiting the police arrived and brought us my girlfriends bag with her stuff inside. It was confirmed. They told us the call had been made at 7.09pm, ambulance arrived in 5 minutes and attempted CPR but nothing worked. She was dead 4 minutes after she sent me her last message, literally right at the corner of her home. She had a rare arrhythmia disorder in which a high BPM causes ventricular arrhythmia/tachycardia and in the worst cases, sudden cardiac arrest and death. Her route home had a rough uphill which is the most likely cause of this horrible event.
I had come here to spend the holiday weekend with her and her family and now we have been in mourning for the past week. This is not how it was supposed to go. Wednesday night through Friday, the whole series of events kept flashing in my mind and I couldnt get the officers voice out of my head. Thursday we were allowed to go see her in the morgue and every moment since then, all I can see is her lying there. We have had someone here with us all of the time since then. Wednesday through Friday felt like an eternity. Time didnt seem to move but it felt like weeks had gone by. Sleeping and eating have been difficult. We have also gone on walks to have some sort of physical activity and every single time we come back home I expect to see her lying on her bed, doing something on her phone and waiting for me to come back.
I have no idea what is going on anymore and I have no idea how I am going to be able to continue my life without her.
If anyone has any advice or would like to ask something, Id prefer that via PM.
We arrived there and asked if they had brought in a girl with her traits. They said a dead young woman had been brought in, completely matching all of her traits. Her mother and sister arrived and we all hoped there had been some mistake. Everyone panicking, they took us to a back room. After some time of waiting the police arrived and brought us my girlfriends bag with her stuff inside. It was confirmed. They told us the call had been made at 7.09pm, ambulance arrived in 5 minutes and attempted CPR but nothing worked. She was dead 4 minutes after she sent me her last message, literally right at the corner of her home. She had a rare arrhythmia disorder in which a high BPM causes ventricular arrhythmia/tachycardia and in the worst cases, sudden cardiac arrest and death. Her route home had a rough uphill which is the most likely cause of this horrible event.
I had come here to spend the holiday weekend with her and her family and now we have been in mourning for the past week. This is not how it was supposed to go. Wednesday night through Friday, the whole series of events kept flashing in my mind and I couldnt get the officers voice out of my head. Thursday we were allowed to go see her in the morgue and every moment since then, all I can see is her lying there. We have had someone here with us all of the time since then. Wednesday through Friday felt like an eternity. Time didnt seem to move but it felt like weeks had gone by. Sleeping and eating have been difficult. We have also gone on walks to have some sort of physical activity and every single time we come back home I expect to see her lying on her bed, doing something on her phone and waiting for me to come back.
I have no idea what is going on anymore and I have no idea how I am going to be able to continue my life without her.
If anyone has any advice or would like to ask something, Id prefer that via PM.
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