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☮ Social ☮ PD Social Talk Thread: Firly Swolks Discussing Mitillating Tatters Fithout Wilters

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pharmakos said:
bad news at the doctor, latest PET scan shows my cancer is back in four spots. going to have to do chemotherapy again, possibly "high dose" chemotherapy this time... which means they have to take my own stem cells from me before chemo and then give them back to me after... sounds like really hardcore stuff. =/ meeting with a new specialist next week, will know more then. might have to stay inpatient at the hospital for the entire duration...
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Sending some light and warmth in this dark hours ...
I know you'll breath relieved in the end !!! Stay strong, man !!
 
pharmakos said:
bad news at the doctor, latest PET scan shows my cancer is back in four spots. going to have to do chemotherapy again, possibly "high dose" chemotherapy this time... which means they have to take my own stem cells from me before chemo and then give them back to me after... sounds like really hardcore stuff. =/ meeting with a new specialist next week, will know more then. might have to stay inpatient at the hospital for the entire duration...
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Fuck dude... no. :( I was thinking about you and your situation yesterday a lot. Hoping for you, worrying for you. This isn't what I was envisioning hearing you say. Stay strong man, keep the optimism up, I really believe there's something to that. Try to visualize yourself beating it, and being healthy.

...Says the guy who isn't going through it. <3
 
pharmakos said:
bad news at the doctor, latest PET scan shows my cancer is back in four spots. going to have to do chemotherapy again, possibly "high dose" chemotherapy this time... which means they have to take my own stem cells from me before chemo and then give them back to me after... sounds like really hardcore stuff. =/ meeting with a new specialist next week, will know more then. might have to stay inpatient at the hospital for the entire duration...
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:/ keep fighting pharmakos! We all want to see you through this! Maybe time to try an 'alternative' therapy such as high dose cannabis oil, at least until you get your next chemo round going.
 
He's already tried rso oil. Fuck man, I'm so sorry to hear that. I was also thinking about you the other day, hoping everything was well... Much <3 man! I know you've got the strength to get through this. If you ever want to chat about anything, you know you can always PM me!
 
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Fuck dude... no. :( I was thinking about you and your situation yesterday a lot. Hoping for you, worrying for you. This isn't what I was envisioning hearing you say. Stay strong man, keep the optimism up, I really believe there's something to that. Try to visualize yourself beating it, and being healthy.
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Definitely, mind over matter <3
my sympathies, bro
 
What a beautiful, supportive community. <3

Pharmakos, I wish I could do something for you mate. If you need to talk, I'm here.
 
Thank you guys, I'm in tears from the support.

Yeah vortech I already did the full 60 gram regimen of RSO alongside my last chemo. Thought about continuing with it but I just can't afford to. And it seems silly to throw money at it if it might not even be working.
 
Hey guys, sorry for dropping off the face of the Earth again. Had gone through about 5g of 3-meo-pcp and went recluse when it ran out. This stuff is kickin' me in the ass! I've been making progress at work, about to get promoted again and am pretty excited about it but my social life has been pretty lacking. When the well runs dry i kinda hide in the shadows but recently got some great 4-aco-dmt, a bit of Gorilla Glue and have began medicating once again. Glad to be back! Having trouble with the white batch 3-meo-pcp so I'm thinking of switching back to DCK as my go-to dissociative. Hope that'll cover the essentials!
 
I went a bit reclusive too after my self imposed break from drugs. And by break I mean I'm not using 3meo every day like I used to. Im sticking to once a week. I have slipped up and used more than that but also have gone longer than a week without using it. My goal is to use it a lot less often then I did in 2016 (I used it most days of that year) and I feel like I'm succeeding.
DCK is nice change of pace. I've been enjoying DCK and O-PCE a lot more than 3meo lately. I am a big fan of the "hole" type of dissociative experience so that may be why.
 
Same Del. I love holing. 3-MeO-PCP is fun and has its place but I love holing. I've had on and off binges of 3-MeO for years. Using sporadically to using daily for months. It's an elusive subtle monster. I just don't have any around so no use. Buy some when I want. The urge to use isn't there really. A weed sort of thing. Would it be awesome to have weed? Hell yeah! But I don't have any so oh well. It's just a good add on. When I have some extra money sure. I'd rather have psychedelics and dissociatives(hole ones).
 
apparantly there is a store in my city which sells bud containing only CBD, no THC. not exactly cheap but not more expensive than regular bud... I think I might check it out
 
^Sounds intriguing. My weed guy has been offering different strains, usually only 3 or so but I always choose the more Indica strains. Much prefer the mellowness over frenetic thought loops (though they have their place). Unfortuanely, atm he only had pretty average sativa, quite strong but nothing great. Gets me stoned but I would rather something more mellow. I long for the time when I get a much vaster choice :\ :)

Finally time to crash, must go to work tomorrow, small bit of g and weed to come. G'night all <3
 
^Nope, sleep is a while off. Stumbling fool :D

This song moves me. Probably my favorite post-rock band, incredibly evocative, I go places when I hear this :)

The bit starting at about 2.10 or so is so achingly beautiful to me, reminds me of golden childhood promises and running in sunlit fields.

The shadow then came.



I feel like I am in a different time, a better time...:\ :) Yearning heart! Don't give in.

Seriously though, if anyone does not know these guys, you basically cannot go wrong with anything they have done. <3 My favorite album is probably Helio/Erebus, their most recent, but Far From Refuge is brilliant and so is Age of the Fifth Sun. All is Violent, All is Bright is also great, fuck. Also great song titles, Suicide by Star, Forever Lost, When Everything Dies... Post rock, bit of postpunk, some metal, ambient, electronica...Very dark and sombre at times but so beautiful. :)
 
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