Draven26
Bluelighter
No your not mate.
I know that feeling, many many do on here, never think your alone. I wont write a full D&m here but just some importantant points to remember.
Guilt/Anger needs to leave.
Acceptance, which u have already done that's the main thing. Accepted that this is what's happend, make that the foundation of rebuilding. And some floors might fall it wont be a perfect easy thing to do. But its a step sidewoulds not back. As long as u maintain where you want to end up u can do it. Blue light is the perfect place to talk ur feelings out to others That relate.
Also stop your cycle and if far clomid or whatever your post cycle therapy is. Your liver needs to detox and roids on or just after meth use can absolutely destroy it. Completely detox ur liver and I suggest whole body. High PH foods, Turmeric, and many others.
What about the testosterone? I've been on trt for over a year. I can't stop that! And I'm only pinning 100mgs of the Test Cyp so can I stay on that? Theres no way I'm getting off the test I'll be effing scrawny. For some reason the Deca isn't doing anything neither. Maybe I'm still using and I don't even know it. Am I using right now? Did I sprinkle some meth in the yogurt I just had? Are my pupils dilated? Did I already clean the bathroom today? Lol just fucking with you but I also do want to keep the Deca I need to bulk!