I see, no problem. I apologize that there are users who hide behind anonymity and throw slights/insults, but they do not represent BlueLight and it will not ever be encouraged, or tolerated if it goes too far. You can always PM me if you have any concerns.
I see, yeah I know what you mean. I've been through difficult times myself; not having anything to do with drugs per se, but I've been through pretty traumatic experiences that technically amounted to a few hours of my life at a time. This is where I see the similarity with your situation, specifically by the way it is difficult to not let those times affect the rest of your life. It is very difficult, but it can be done.
Yeah, I mean, I know it's different for everyone but generally S & S is a deal breaker, including with mdma. I remember rolling with people I thought I could trust and were sympathetic to what I was going through at the time, but I just had the deepest negative vibes and I was literally feeling sick, and feeling like shit that night. Compare that to rolling with my gf, where the negative vibe and atmosphere was nonexistent, and I felt great and having such a great trip. And you know, this was when I was very experienced. I couldn't imagine tripping in the beginning in that kind of situation; more than likely, I would've bad tripped too, despite the fact that I had been interested in this substance and wanting to try it since I was in hs. Like you said, this substance deserves some caution and respect, because it is powerful mentally and physically.
Anyway, I think I've read conflicting anecdotal reports, but from my experience it does intensify the roll, for sure. Especially if you were to smoke it at the peak, or as you're coming down off of it, it may bring the peak back again. The consensus is that it is best to smoke weed as you're pretty much off of it, as in when the full 6 hours have passed, so it's really up to you.
I don't think you can expect yourself to forget what happened, but you can forgive and try to detach your emotions from it. For example, just see it as a mistake on both sides and also just another obstacle or lesson to learn from, a difficult one obviously but still one nonetheless. This is just a guess too, but from what I'm reading it sounds like the mdma just overpowered the weed high for you, which is entirely possible. I mean, you could smoke more, since obviously even smoking another gram of mj isn't considered dangerous, but it tends to make the mdma trip turn psychedelic; visuals, muddiness+clearheaded-ness alternating within seconds and an even less ability to keep yourself "intact." However, if you find that the weed actually calms you down, then it's not a bad idea. If you think it's making the trip more uncomfortable, then just sit, relax with a cup of water, and just socialize with your sitter, letting the conversation flow naturally from whatever first pops into your mind.
That's about all I can say, which I'm purely using from my own subjective experience. However, I feel that it may turn out to be helpful for you. At least, I hope so. Remember S & S, and update the thread to let everyone know how it goes! Thanks.
I see, yeah I know what you mean. I've been through difficult times myself; not having anything to do with drugs per se, but I've been through pretty traumatic experiences that technically amounted to a few hours of my life at a time. This is where I see the similarity with your situation, specifically by the way it is difficult to not let those times affect the rest of your life. It is very difficult, but it can be done.
Yeah, I mean, I know it's different for everyone but generally S & S is a deal breaker, including with mdma. I remember rolling with people I thought I could trust and were sympathetic to what I was going through at the time, but I just had the deepest negative vibes and I was literally feeling sick, and feeling like shit that night. Compare that to rolling with my gf, where the negative vibe and atmosphere was nonexistent, and I felt great and having such a great trip. And you know, this was when I was very experienced. I couldn't imagine tripping in the beginning in that kind of situation; more than likely, I would've bad tripped too, despite the fact that I had been interested in this substance and wanting to try it since I was in hs. Like you said, this substance deserves some caution and respect, because it is powerful mentally and physically.
Anyway, I think I've read conflicting anecdotal reports, but from my experience it does intensify the roll, for sure. Especially if you were to smoke it at the peak, or as you're coming down off of it, it may bring the peak back again. The consensus is that it is best to smoke weed as you're pretty much off of it, as in when the full 6 hours have passed, so it's really up to you.
I don't think you can expect yourself to forget what happened, but you can forgive and try to detach your emotions from it. For example, just see it as a mistake on both sides and also just another obstacle or lesson to learn from, a difficult one obviously but still one nonetheless. This is just a guess too, but from what I'm reading it sounds like the mdma just overpowered the weed high for you, which is entirely possible. I mean, you could smoke more, since obviously even smoking another gram of mj isn't considered dangerous, but it tends to make the mdma trip turn psychedelic; visuals, muddiness+clearheaded-ness alternating within seconds and an even less ability to keep yourself "intact." However, if you find that the weed actually calms you down, then it's not a bad idea. If you think it's making the trip more uncomfortable, then just sit, relax with a cup of water, and just socialize with your sitter, letting the conversation flow naturally from whatever first pops into your mind.
That's about all I can say, which I'm purely using from my own subjective experience. However, I feel that it may turn out to be helpful for you. At least, I hope so.
Remember S & S, and update the thread to let everyone know how it goes! Thanks.
