I know it. That is exactly what happened the past few hours. I am a mess. After all the shit that has happened this past week, I'm ready to quit this nightmare of a life. I am so ready but so sick :*(
Thanks. I know it. I can stand really really cold water but thats all. I couldn't eat to save my life right now. This is prob the sickest I've been in a very long time. Tried to quit cold a couple years ago. Got to the middle of the night on day 3 and broke. A "friend" stopped by cause we went missing to make sure we were ok.. Dropped 3 bags on my lap. I ran for the worksI feel for ya. It is an awful feeling. Make sure you stay hydrated cuz even though sometimes you don't feel like you want even the simple things like water, if you become dehydrated it'll make you feel that much worse.
Thanks. I know it. I can stand really really cold water but thats all. I couldn't eat to save my life right now. This is prob the sickest I've been in a very long time. Tried to quit cold a couple years ago. Got to the middle of the night on day 3 and broke. A "friend" stopped by cause we went missing to make sure we were ok.. Dropped 3 bags on my lap. I ran for the worksI regret that night often. Especially in times like now when everything in my life is in my head. This is just bullshit!
It's complicated. I'm broke today but will be swimming in money on tuesday. My connect would front me but he is out of town on vacay. So I'm looking at zero until then, sadly. So if I'm gonna be sick till then, I'm just gonna quitYea. I just got over being sick. Shit sucks. Our u out of money? Or u dont have a connect anymore?
It's complicated. I'm broke today but will be swimming in money on tuesday. My connect would front me but he is out of town on vacay. So I'm looking at zero until then, sadly. So if I'm gonna be sick till then, I'm just gonna quit
It's complicated. I'm broke today but will be swimming in money on tuesday. My connect would front me but he is out of town on vacay. So I'm looking at zero until then, sadly. So if I'm gonna be sick till then, I'm just gonna quit
Yea. I just got over being sick. Shit sucks. Our u out of money? Or u dont have a connect anymore?
Yea buddy, but it's triple time for me. I get royalties on property I own. Plus pays for two of us. Hey nice way to spend my birthday week. Sick as shit. I hate everyone and everything equally right now. Lol. If I had the energy id go make some money, but I have none. Plus, I'm a chick so this sick shit is crazy worse on me..My guy is going.. He just told me so fingers crossed I am better soon. Fucker better, I saved his life. Now he can try n save mine....Hahahah. Yes tuesday direct deposit on the 15th! Lol. Damn tho i know now til tuesday is a fucking enternity and being sick?! Fuck. I feel u. Shit is awful.
Yea buddy, but it's triple time for me. I get royalties on property I own. Plus pays for two of us. Hey nice way to spend my birthday week. Sick as shit. I hate everyone and everything equally right now. Lol. If I had the energy id go make some money, but I have none. Plus, I'm a chick so this sick shit is crazy worse on me..My guy is going.. He just told me so fingers crossed I am better soon. Fucker better, I saved his life. Now he can try n save mine....
Yea. I just got over being sick. Shit sucks. Our u out of money? Or u dont have a connect anymore?
Yep, that was me. I've been having nightmares about it every fucking day. I really want to quit, but I really don't want to feel like this....Oh yea i remember. Ur the chick that posted that crazy ass story about ur man almost dying? Right? Well hopefully u get something today.
Yep, that was me. I've been having nightmares about it every fucking day. I really want to quit, but I really don't want to feel like this....
Yea. I just got over being sick. Shit sucks. Our u out of money? Or u dont have a connect anymore?
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Yea, hopefully. We won't know for a little while. He just left so I'm here waiting. Good thing is he'll call and lmk something. Hope something happens soon. I'm dying
Haha she's a raging BITCH! I hate the cycle of everyday exhaustion. Even with proper money and whatever, it's still exhausting. The whole damn lifestyle. Its a love/hate relationship for me. I love when I'm good and I hate everything when I'm not. And I'm tired,, so sooooooo tiredThat's why I hate heroin. She's a BITCH! Everything is fine when you have some, but as soon as you run out the next few days will be miserable. Why does it have to be likethat? Why not other drugs ? Why opiates are so fu℃}!N bitch to deal with?
Haha she's a raging BITCH! I hate the cycle of everyday exhaustion. Even with proper money and whatever, it's still exhausting. The whole damn lifestyle. Its a love/hate relationship for me. I love when I'm good and I hate everything when I'm not. And I'm tired,, so sooooooo tired
That's why I hate heroin. She's a BITCH! Everything is fine when you have some, but as soon as you run out the next few days will be miserable. Why does it have to be likethat? Why not other drugs ? Why opiates are so fu℃}!N bitch to deal with?
Yea, I know! Haha you are the first person out here I have heard call roxies, roxies! They were my shit and ultimate downfall. But whatever, who's pointing fingers? If I were to be asked to point fingers if have to point to myself.. No blame game here.. I know all about the sleep deprivation. I got popped the 2nd time and I spent a few weeks locked up. That was fun! No shit, and being a chick like me, trust me, if u knew me youd understand. I'm as street wise as they come but I don't look it lolYup i know that. It so exhausting. Because u cant sleep for days and ur just so tired and completely drained mentally physically and emotionally. Thats the worst part. Its the enability to sleep. I swear to god a few years ago when i was withdrawing from roxies and xanax i didnt sleep for months!!! Fucking months!!!!!!
Haha she's a raging BITCH! I hate the cycle of everyday exhaustion. Even with proper money and whatever, it's still exhausting. The whole damn lifestyle. Its a love/hate relationship for me. I love when I'm good and I hate everything when I'm not. And I'm tired,, so sooooooo tired
Again, what has been said many times before... dealers don't give a shit about our health and our lives. sad but true. You can die or end up in the hospital but the next morning there will be someone just like you calling "your guy" 'begging' for couple of bags. There is 10 million people living in chicagoland area so who gives a damn about one dope fiend. it's you who needs him more than he needs you! Especially in the times when you are dope sick ... calling his or her phone 20 times in a minute when they don't answer! ...so fuckin much that it's pathetic. And when you are sick you will do anything for a bag! N I mean anything! That's why they say " I'll be there in 10 minutes", but in reality it will be 40 minutes cause they know you will wait! And you will! Don't matter if u r sick or not! You will wait for ' your guy' We are like dogs on a leash , slaves. And then we will talk about 'our guys' on blogs, forums etc. on the web! Good and bad things about them. Guess how many times theyll talk about us - zero? Cuz they just don't care, don't give a shit. Of course there are some good people dealing like I have one . He will come and deliver to my work ... And it is an hour drive from where he lives to my workplace. But heroin is so damn addictive that you'll loose your soul, character , personality, hobbies, money, friends, family, job, school, cars, house, freedom, interest in life in general, and everything in between!!!!
I hate heroin!! I know couple people who can do line here or there and manage to live normal. But for 90% of dope users it is only a dream....to use and live like they would like to.