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Harm Reduction ⫸Should I Try HEROIN?⫷

Come on Znegative.
Don't put yourself down like that. People may think you are hopeless junky but not you.
I get your point totally. And I bet OP does not want to take that road.
But you change. I have, so you could to.
If you need help, we here and we'll help you! :)
Take care!
Erik
 
Erikmen said:
Thanks for sharing this DN! And Welcome to Bluelight. :)
I think everyone wants to see how it feels and when we urge to try heroin we never think of the consequences.

Obviously a drug like that will make all your problems go away but at what cost?

Keep in touch. You can always live this behind. ;)
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Thanks for the warm welcome Erik.

I made my original post 12 days ago, and I already have learned a new harsh reality about heroin.

Well, my dealer, for the first time EVER, did not get back to me within 1 hour, and be able to meet me within 3. He has been dry since Thursday.

I always took getting my stuff for granted, as I had met him 40-50 times before and it was so easy. He always was available! He also is all I had, and I don't really have any friends who do heroin.

To make a long story short, I ran out on Saturday and withdrawals kicked in.

I withdrew during the holidays before twice, and yeah it sucked, but I also knew I really had no chance of getting heroin, so I just dealt with feeling ill and went about my days. The withdrawals were a completely different animal when I knew that it was possible I could score.

Since Sunday until an hour ago, I obsessed about heroin every waking moment, and I haven't really slept. Literally. All I did was lay in bed, text my dealer compulsively every few hours. Read about heroin ALL day, and text/call the very few people I know who do heroin and literally BEG them to hook me up. I just sat in bed waiting. Nothing else. It took over my mind. No one came through

To make a long story short, I called an escort I had only seen twice and that was literally over a year ago. I asked if she could get any, I was desperate and hoping for anything at this point. She remembered me and said she would look and give me a call back. To my surprise, she did call an hour later. I thought she might be trying to rip me off, but I didn't care.

The three guys that met me were ghetto to a whole new level. Like literally the most ghetto people I've ever met. One accused me of being a cop, said he had a gun, and made me snort a packet to prove to him I was not a cop. At the end of the day though, he hooked me up legit and I got his number. He was cool after I kinda proved to him I wasn't a cop by snorting the packet, and then offering him to go through my phone. I was real nervous though.

So Yeah, already in 12 days my opinion is already shifting a little.

I always had a reliable dealer that never flaked until this experience.

Keep in mind, I'm not a heavy user either, but this stuff certainly becomes an obsession!!!
 
I know. Have been there. Done that..
End up in a dark place. And after trying many ways out got stuck with methadone for 8 years.
I'm sober now, but it has been a hell of a year.
Wish you the best of luck!!
You can do this!
Erik
 
I had a friend that used to get pure diamorphine/heroin taken out a hospital for 15 years ending up at 3g of pure, highest I've ever heard or read of personally
 
I have pondered about using as other opiates don't work and I don't know if I will or won't, don't know the future if something else traumatises me in my life I could
 
thank you for this entire post. ive never done heroin, but ive considered it in my down moments. i think it could prevent some things from happening..
 
Should I try Heroin?

NO! It destroys lives, it will leave you searching for the drug full time. Waiting in parking lots down off MLK or Southern Ave here in DC is crazy, stupid, and it is very noticeable that a white boy in a nice car is sitting there.

I was robbed at knife point....but I had a gun. He got $20 out of $200, but it scared me to death. The threat of dying became right in my face. I put myself in a methadone clinic that is very close to the whitehouse. (2112 F Street NW) It is 3 minutes from the scenic VA route into the city that takes me within 200 feet from the Pentagon, 100 feet from the Lincoln Memorial, etc. I have been off H for 5 years. My life is wonderful.

BTW. I take Lyrica, and my Fibromyalgia is bad in my feet. So, he gives me 150 mg in the AM , and 100 at night. It makes me feel drunk but kind of MDMA feeling too. Weird, and scary for an addict.

Well, this is my first post. Thanks for listening and hello everyone. I am Chris. I live 15-20 mins outside DC (with no traffic).8o:D
 
Congrats on the 5 years Chris, welcome to BL :)

To echo the many sentiments expressed in this thread: I advise not to fuck with heroin. I lost quite a few years, friends & money to it, but somehow came out alive. Was it worth it? Not really.
 
Just avoid all opiates. For some people, theyre just TOO good. I firmly believe, for certain personality types, anxious people, people with repressed problems and things they'd like to forget, opiates, Heroin especially, are a ticking time bomb.
 
Hi Chris, I also have fibromyalgia and am on strong painkillers from it, I was put on fentanyl patches a few weeks ago and came off them because I found them to be very addictive, jesus, the withdrawal is a killer, I'm wondering is it worth becomming an addict due to pain :(
 
Fentanyl is indeed quite harsh to quit. Specially if you are above 150 mcgs.
It's very strongest and only high doses of Methadone could minimize the withdrawal.
 
Hello!

I'm new to the site and just wanted to say what a great intro that is. It sums it up perfectly. I dated a heroin addict for a long time. I'm glad I never agreed to try it with him. I've seen first hand how horrible the addiction can be. I myself have used painkillers and adderall off and on for the past six years. I have very strong will power and have never become addicted to either of these things. When I get pain killers, maybe 15-20 at a time low dose 5mg, I can make them last for months. With adderall I find it easy to take long breaks and never go above 30mg. However I'm not delusional enough to think I could apply this willpower to hard core drugs. I enjoy getting high now and then but have seen enough posts to and real life experiences to know how bad addiction is. That's why I limit myself in dosage. I would never try meth or heroin or cocaine etc. I think the part of the intro about justifying trying heroin because you have not become addicted to other drugs is very true and a very good point.
 
Good point. The thing about heroin is that it will destroy your willpower and that's sad.
You may recover and stop using, but you'll never stop thinking about it. It's like nothing will ever be fun again..
 
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