The IL tollway is a beast...
Love your comment on irrationality, I remember telling my gf when the system came out "if I go through the toll sideways I'm good (3 tolls each way), stupid suckers..."
A german car note worth of bills later...
man 40 bux that had to have been real annoying but while im postin i gotta ask ur guys opinion on a matter i b givin my friend a ride to and from the spot and he usually throws a bag my way, the thing is for some reason he called like at 545 in the morning like u wanna go, at first i was like cool ok then i actually thought about it and realized wait first of all were white with no tints drivin round the hood at a time when there r very few cars on the road. in addition to that, wut spots will actually b out at 545 in the morning and r legit in my experience thats a good way to get served whoop by somebody just standin on the block before the block boys come out. would u guys go down there at 545 in the morning
anyways hope all you fiends doing ok .. remember there is always a way out i used dope for 10 yrs been clean for almost 2yrs now.. not a single fucking drug in system to off set the heroin either! do i miss the dope .. yes sometimes.. in the overall picture i'm so much more happier.. sometimes when you get caught up in the dope life .. u think u can't live without it.. but you can! feels great not to be a bitch to the heroin nowadays.. just landed a new job that pays well live is good... keep the hope guys.. if thats what you want.
Thanks for the kind words of encouragement...it's nice that you still post now that you're clean. This community often sees people stay far away once they're no longer using, when in actuality, people like you are needed more than ever to give hope to those that are at their worst and want/need a way out of this lifestyle.
When I'm clean and trying to stay that way it's hard for me to come on here and read posts about what bags people are getting and how high they are... even seeing the "team nod assemble" quote gets me going. This thread is definitely a trigger for me. It might be different if I had a year or 2 under my belt but have never gotten that far.
@cicerogrinds- congratulations on 2 years sober. That's fucking awesome.
I know the few periods of clean time I've had, dope was on my mind ALL THE TIME. I certainly didn't need any help in bringing back hey-ron's appeal in my minds eye.
I understand staying away from this site when one is freshly in 'recovery', but I do know it does get easier with time. An analogy I've used to explain dope triggers to people that are ignorant of dope's strangle hold on the mind, is that of a breakup with a significant other. Say you've been dating someone for the better part of 3 years, and they dump you.. It totally blows, in the first few weeks/ months the mind is constantly obsessive over that person. Given some time though, you start to think about that person less and less, and before you know it, you are hardly thinking of them at all.