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How High Are You? v. Well I'm Pretty Darn High

Can't believe you swapped dem uppers for downers, pill! I knew you always loved trams n broms yet this is beyond. I want to try tilidine.

I swapped beer for coffee for the time being. I want to go out to eat or some place fun soon so I can't smell like booze.
 
First time, not sure how this all works buuuuttt...started off the day with a handful of gabs, went to work, got bored, popped 2 1mg Ativan.. About to take one more 1 mg Ativan & 2 OP 20's... Whatever good it'll do me, anything is better than withdrawal!
 
Wayyy too benzo'd out for my own good. Over the last 24 hours it's been 35mg diazepam & (I think) 8mg alprazolam. Got soo barred out last night to the point that I was pissed when I woke up for no reason. Then my friend had me escort him all around town for about 5 hours just so he could get a 30mg roxi. Plus he didn't give me shit for it other than 2 dollars in gas. Seriously? WTF???

We're supposed to be picking up some good H tonight but my doubts on that one are very high.

I've got 2mg more of alprazolam here. I think I might just take it, chug some beers or something, then pass out. This has been a bad day. :\

Hope everyone else's day is going swimmingly however. Peace.
 
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SirTophamHat said:
Can't believe you swapped dem uppers for downers, pill! I knew you always loved trams n broms yet this is beyond. I want to try tilidine.

I swapped beer for coffee for the time being. I want to go out to eat or some place fun soon so I can't smell like booze.
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I haven't really liked uppers in years. I've preferred downers for a long time now. Had a serious benzo/tram/tilidine/codeine/oxy addiction for a few years too, that was quite some time ago at this point.
But yeah, I used to do uppers quite often. I am done with that shit now though. Just don't enjoy it anymore.

Any and all kinds of opiates are my DOC now and have been for a good while, by far.

OT: Just dosed another 100mg of tilidine. Feeling quite relaxed and euphoric. I would enjoy a small dose of benzo to go along with it, but if I did that they would find it in my urine. I can't relapse anymore or I'll get kicked out of rehab. :| I know they don't test for tilidine in their urine analyses. So yeah, I'm safe like this and it's enjoyable enough on its own.
 
Just got to my buddy's, drinking fantastic bourbon and really good beer:

Jack's Abby Kiwi Rising
Ballast Point Habanero Sculpin
Left Hand Nitro Milk Stout
 
Just some gin with mango+peach juice. Gonna see what pills to throw into the mix in a little while and I'll tell you what I did and how it is going. I did smoke a cigarette and I am having another as soon as I post this shit.

Tired of the people talking in my body and sounds I make telling me about the horrible things they are doing and saying horrible things about me and making threats that can make my life Hell and I will not tolerate it much longer. If I can't get them out I will cut them out or burn them out and torture them like they say they torture and kill and make threats and don't want me to do things at all.

Fuck the world!
 
Tryptamine*Dreamer said:
Just some gin with mango+peach juice. Gonna see what pills to throw into the mix in a little while and I'll tell you what I did and how it is going. I did smoke a cigarette and I am having another as soon as I post this shit.

Tired of the people talking in my body and sounds I make telling me about the horrible things they are doing and saying horrible things about me and making threats that can make my life Hell and I will not tolerate it much longer. If I can't get them out I will cut them out or burn them out and torture them like they say they torture and kill and make threats and don't want me to do things at all.

Fuck the world!
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I'm no doctor, but it would be wise for you to see a professional. You've been on here for a long time and I've seen you through many ups and downs, but your mental health issues have taken a toll lately. From a friend to a friend, I'd love to see you get back to a place mentally where you're happy again. Unfortunately your behavior indicates psychosis. You gotta get that checked brother. Much love, no judgment, and no disrespect. <3
 
45mg hydrocodone, 90mg temazepam, 500mg lyrica, 60mg cyclobenzaprine, 150mg diphenhydramine, and 20mg latuda with 200mg cimetidine as a potentiator.
Starting to feel nice and no longer being bothered by demonic possession or whatever the Hell it is, but it will come back tomorrow. It always does.

rolllinlikeroyce said:
I'm no doctor, but it would be wise for you to see a professional. You've been on here for a long time and I've seen you through many ups and downs, but your mental health issues have taken a toll lately. From a friend to a friend, I'd love to see you get back to a place mentally where you're happy again. Unfortunately your behavior indicates psychosis. You gotta get that checked brother. Much love, no judgment, and no disrespect. <3
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The telepathy has decreased but the depression got worse. I need to trip, I haven't tripped in too long. And all of this started while in a nut house, I was fine before that. They use some kind of weird treatment to drive the patients crazy so they will stop using drugs. That is the only reason I ended up there, a drug overdose. I think I may have contracted meningitis while I was there and I had to treat it myself at home because when I went to the ER they would not see me because they said I was a druggy and I was just high but antibiotics worked. Maybe it is brain damage because they sent me away twice without testing or anything but now my mind works well again, I just seem to be telepathic without hearing voices in my head but I can converse by tapping out the messages on a wall or something.

And no disrespect taken. I was having visual hallucinations for a couple of weeks but they have gone away. That part was fun and I would not mind that sticking around but I don't get to choose.
 
Just poured up a mix drink consisting of gin, vodka, and water. Beer will follow here soon, I'm sure. Gotta switch things up sometimes. Also 5mg cyclobenzaprine. It's been expired for a while, I guess I'll see if it does anything.
 
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Tryptamine*Dreamer said:
45mg hydrocodone, 90mg temazepam, 500mg lyrica, 60mg cyclobenzaprine, 150mg diphenhydramine, and 20mg latuda with 200mg cimetidine as a potentiator.
Starting to feel nice and no longer being bothered by demonic possession or whatever the Hell it is, but it will come back tomorrow. It always does.



The telepathy has decreased but the depression got worse. I need to trip, I haven't tripped in too long. And all of this started while in a nut house, I was fine before that. They use some kind of weird treatment to drive the patients crazy so they will stop using drugs. That is the only reason I ended up there, a drug overdose. I think I may have contracted meningitis while I was there and I had to treat it myself at home because when I went to the ER they would not see me because they said I was a druggy and I was just high but antibiotics worked. Maybe it is brain damage because they sent me away twice without testing or anything but now my mind works well again, I just seem to be telepathic without hearing voices in my head but I can converse by tapping out the messages on a wall or something.

And no disrespect taken. I was having visual hallucinations for a couple of weeks but they have gone away. That part was fun and I would not mind that sticking around but I don't get to choose.
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No disrespect from me as well. What I gathered from these few posts, you do need to see a professional. Tripping is one of the last things you want to do right now. I have a very close relative with schizophrenia, and again no offense, but very often those afflicted tend to think that they're alright, and that everyone around them only makes things worse for them. Self-medication is common, and distrust in conventional medicine.

Drugs, especially psychedelics, but also alcohol, can exacerbate the symptoms of psychosis. I see you're taking quite the cocktails, so that could be somewhat of a cause. I mean you hear stuff that is mostly in your head, you know that's not normal. And if those voices bother you, I think it would be wise to try to solve the problem. Don't torture yourself.

Stay safe.
 
Stretch you dumb as fuck lol, I can't tell if you're daft or ignorant? Both maybe? Read the fucking rules. You're a fugazi ass troll with no life but to cry over your dwindling drugs. Sounds like you tryna whore yourself out. No one wants your business on this forum. DEACTIVE YOUR BL ACCT,

Strech said:
Ever heard of bending the rules? Just leave it as is I figured we could help each other and you got all personal over nothing. I'll deactivate and go back to people who actually wanna make moves.
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This look like fucking vendor forum to you, sure never has to me. You don't make moves either you sound like a joke. People that make moves usually have some means of reading and digesting information properly unless you're cognitively fucked.
 
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CAN NOT SLEEP PAST 4am TO SAVE MY LIFE! Sucks, get my oxy and my ass is up soooo early. I laid there for an hour before giving up and dosing. So here it is 4:30am and I'm coming up baby! Feeling good.
 
belligerent drunk said:
No disrespect from me as well. What I gathered from these few posts, you do need to see a professional. Tripping is one of the last things you want to do right now. I have a very close relative with schizophrenia, and again no offense, but very often those afflicted tend to think that they're alright, and that everyone around them only makes things worse for them. Self-medication is common, and distrust in conventional medicine.

Drugs, especially psychedelics, but also alcohol, can exacerbate the symptoms of psychosis. I see you're taking quite the cocktails, so that could be somewhat of a cause. I mean you hear stuff that is mostly in your head, you know that's not normal. And if those voices bother you, I think it would be wise to try to solve the problem. Don't torture yourself.

Stay safe.
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psychedelics don't exacarebate my schizophrenia uppers make me psychotic instantly , watch out with blanket statements.
 
BingeBoy said:
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psychedelics don't exacarebate my schizophrenia uppers make me psychotic instantly , watch out with blanket statements.
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Depends on the person. You're right about stims, but from my personal experience (I also have some problems) psychedelics didn't help either. Better safe than sorry.
 
Forgot to say, good luck with everything pill2chill, thanks for replying to my post.

I think it is clearly evident to all that whoever stretch was, was a complete imbecile incapable of reading or conversing with any tiny bit of tact.

Daaamn last night for me was intense, had some amp and smoked a lot (for me) of good weed. Got home right at 2am and passed out instantly on my bed with my jacket still on.

My morning fix was a cig and the smaller half of a 10mg valium, drank one of those delicious San pellegrino blood orange drinks and now starting on the beer and leftover pizza.

Yes it is the morning but this is my last real day to relax, I got a lot of stuff to wrap up over the next five days before I start to pack my things.

I'm going to enjoy drinking all day today. I had some anxiety upon waking but the diazepam has cured that. Now it is time to meditate with alcohol.
 
How long are you in the rehab for, P2C?

Going to give the codeine + phenibut combo another go. It's been about 70 minutes since I took the phenibut, so down the hatch 500 mg of codeine goes.

SirTophamHat said:
I'm going to enjoy drinking all day today. I had some anxiety upon waking but the diazepam has cured that. Now it is time to meditate with alcohol.
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I find that my days get wasted (oh the pun) when I start drinking in the early hours. I end up getting a bit too drunk, not blackout drunk, but still the memory of the day is blurry and no real relaxation is achieved in the end. Opis on the other hand...

Are you moving to another location, by the way?
 
Wayyy too benzo'd out for my own good. Over the last 24 hours it's been 35mg diazepam & (I think) 8mg alprazolam. Got soo barred out last night to the point that I was pissed when I woke up for no reason. Then my friend had me escort him all around town for about 5 hours just so he could get a 30mg roxi. Plus he didn't give me shit for it other than 2 dollars in gas. Seriously? WTF???

We're supposed to be picking up some good H tonight but my doubts on that one are very high.

I've got 2mg more of alprazolam here. I think I might just take it, chug some beers or something, then pass out. This has been a bad day. :\

Hope everyone else's day is going swimmingly however. Peace.
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Well that didn't go as planned. I think I totalled like 12mg of alprazolam yesterday. Went out to the club and got pretty wasted. I don't remember ANY of that, other than trying to slap some coherency into my friends towards the end. Then I crashed the fuck out of my car. FUCK. So no car for a few days. Think I might be done with the benzos for a while.

OT: Huge benzo hangover. Still alp'd out. Gonna take some kratom soon and enjoy some breakfast with my folks. I feel so bad for putting them through all that at 5 in the morning......
 
Rollin: try to taper off that huge alprazolam day with some diazpeam, I promise you'll feel better without so much chance for rebound anxiety. Sorry to hear about your car :(:(:(

BD: thx for the caution. I drink extremely slow, and I'm gonna be sticking to the 6-7% beers earlier on in case I need to drive somewhere. I am moving very far away on Dec 1 and the next mon-fri stretch is gonna be me trying to find a job and a new home sight unseen. Or well, I could just fuck around and peace out without planning, yet that just sounds stupid.
 
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Lol, I actually went backwards on that shit. I had a nice supply of diazepam on hand, but binged them. Then went on to the alps. Not a good way to go about it lol. Worse part is I still have like ~50 bars left. I'm just gonna have to find "some way" to get rid of them, I guess. ;)
 
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