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The Big & Dandy Methoxetamine / MXE Thread - Part 16 - Sweet 16 mind-control machine

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I feel you man, my life's sucked pretty bad for about the past 6 months. I got a job about 5 weeks ago and it's really helped me honestly. It's a shitty job but I still feel somewhat fulfilled and it's something to keep me occupied until I decide what I wanna do with my life. Too much free time isn't a good thing imo.

I know it sucks to think about, but this train will probably run out eventually. So maybe you should start considering life after methoxetamine. Also, using that often probably isn't sustainable in the long-term. Giving up would be the easy way out though. Who knows what could happen 10 years from now, yanno? You might hit the lotto, have a nice family, or maybe even be around for the newest arylcyclohexylamine. ;)
 
Thanks man, really. I have some work coming up soon that I'll be very busy with and out of town for. I like the work too. I don't plan on using it long term like this, I just want to get through this hell I'm in right now without having a mental breakdown.
 
Bluuberry, sounds like the highest priority is working towards getting out of the toxic environment. I know what a verbally abusive relationship is like. It contributed to me picking up an opiate addiction many years ago when I wound up with a schizophrenic girlfriend.
Aside from that, my guess would be that you are using MXE primarily for the SRI properties at this point since the NMDA antagonism tolerance has diminished those effects. Maybe consider replacing it with a conventional SSRI to help you out of the depression with less risk?
 
I don't want to be on SSRI's for a variety of reasons, but I appreciate you thinking about what I need to do to heal. You're right, I think I do just get the SRI effects at this point. I hadn't even thought of it that way. Thanks vortech and ecstacylover and everyone else. I obviously have a lot to deal with.
 
i may have a new supplier for this stuff and the price is stupidly cheap which makes me wonder if it's the real deal 70 zl which is £12.55 a gram stupidly cheap just wonder if its worth a punt at that if anyone know where i am think of and tried let us know please
 
I don't have access enough to use daily; even if I did, the negative health effects would likely scare me off. Good luck Bluuberry, we're all here for you on BL, and we always will be.
 
Came to find out just now that my MXE supplier offers two different polymorphs. The one I have been getting is the European form I have been getting for quite some time now. This new version is Chinese. I am assuming that they have somewhat different effects.

Any experiences or ideas as to what kind of differences one might expect? This European form is the only MXE I have ever done besides one other from a different source which I did not care for as much. I am just curious.
 
European and Chinese are not reliable enough descriptors to know which one is subjectively or analytically better, but generally European has been associated with higher quality.
 
thats what i think has happened with the euro stuff as well it stunk of mxe but the effects were more like mxp or dip
 
15 days since my last MXEexperience and I quit smoking cannabis and drinking alcohol this month, at least. I did a reprogramming of thinking, I see/feel/smell/intuit the world with a new perspective. I have a full time job, I eat a lot of fruits, vegetables, cycling a lot, and Im loosing fat and my breath is better than ever. I feel fresh, with a lot of control of my energy. My friends think that somebody took place on me.

Doing great.
 
Good for you veodo! Keep it up! I'm working towards that same lifestyle right now too.

MXE has really helped me transition out of some really dark places in my life and relationships. I think it's time for me to let it take a backseat in my life though, the daily, all-day use can't be healthy, even if I keep it at a functional buzz. I can't imagine how fucked I would be without it though, trying to deal with so much trauma from so many sources all at once.

I can't believe how quickly it's possible to reprogram the brain and old habits and emotional patterns with this stuff. Tomorrow is gonna be my first day without it in a while and I'm excited to see how much this experiment is going to stick with my daily life. MXE helped me not fall apart through multiple, simultaneous, MAJOR transitions. I think I would have crumpled without what it provided me. I feel like it is a blessing to us the way that LSD is. I will be the first to admit it's harder to control use than with LSD, but that shouldn't discount the therapeutic potential. It works so well for increasing communication and empathy.

I hope to see MXE change humanity for the best. I hope to hear more stories about people turning their lives around thanks to responsible use of this compound. Hopefully my period of abuse didn't hurt my body too much, but you know what? I might not even be breathing right now if I'd never had the gifts MXE gave me. Thing is, MXE taught me that I don't respect myself as much as I thought. I thought I had it all figured out and it helped me realize I have a lot to learn about how to REALLY self-actualize. Thank you my mysterious mexxstress. :)

Thanks for encouraging me to curb my use guys. Now that I'm transitioned out of such a horrible place, I can try and learn to sleep without benzos and alcohol. MXE has shown me I have unlimited potential to change my personality and I know I can overcome that shit if I really want to.

Me and my girlfriend/"life partner" of 5 years broke up, and instead of crumbling to the ground, I feel better than ever before. I know myself, and I don't think I would feel so positive and free were it not for MXE, and especially for the posts of some really awesome BL's in this thread and over in SLR. (I'm lookin' at you Bojangleston! ;))

Yay for life, and renewal! Health is wealth. :)
 
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The batch I just got is the best quality I've ever had. 10 mg sublingual yesterday mowing grass was all it took for me to realize how great this stuff was. I then took sublingual/oral doses of 10,10,13 and 20 mg with a chronic blunt somewhere in there. I was feeling great, but still pretty functional so I went back to my friends where I snorted 10 mg more and smoked another blunt. I felt like I was on the verge of something but probably would've needed a little more. All in all, I'm pretty pleasantly surprised how far ~73 mg staggered over a few hours took me.

This morning I woke up feeling amazing. I'd really like to get into a hole, but I think I'll resist the urge as long as possible and try to be productive for awhile.

I love MXE. <3
 
got a gram of mxp coming to test out my theory that the stuff from Spain sorry mods if that's to close is just really strong mxe mixed in to this stuff it stuck of mxe but wasn't mxe like i had a few 100 mg in a gram of the stuff just it was really pure and the rest was mxp
 
I got three hours in at the gym yesterday morning so I thought an MXE session was well-deserved. Especially since I work for 6 or 7 days straight starting today.

Anyway yesterday afternoon I started off with 30 mg sublingual/oral and then 15 mg insufflated and a couple blunts and bowl of cannnabis. I was feeling good, but my pulsing headache from nicotine w/d was bugging the shit out of me so I decided do more mxe.

I went to my friends house where I dosed somewhere between 10-30 mg oral ( I don't remember exactly ) before we went and smoked a blunt. Anyway we got back and I wanted to snort 10 more mg, but couldn't find a straw so I sublingual it.

Now I'm really itching to try plugged. I've heard so many great things about it. It takes me an hour to get everything setup for rectal administration as I am already decently dissociated. I have never used this ROA for any drug. I do 15 mg to start. I can tell even this amount changes the experience but I am not ready to do it again so fast so I sublingual somewhere between 5-10 mg. It honestly could have been 20 mg as mg memory of yesterday is not great.

I want a stronger rush and plug 20 mg, but this still isn't strong enough and I plug 30 mg more about 30 minutes later. Then we go smoke a blunt after which I realize I am extremely fucked up. I haven't been that dissociated in a while. Kinda shitty I still missed the hole but oh well. Just took 0.5 mg etizolam I gotta sleep, got work 2moro
 
the reply from my supplier

Hi!

thanks for the feedback. Yesterday we received the second analysis confirming it's the purest MXE batch ever stocked. No impurities or inorganic salts.

We performed this second analysis because despite we got positive feedback from most customers, there were a few who reported they were not satisfied, but I'm glad to confirm the batch is absolutely pure. If you need the analysis I have it at hand :)
 
Can we get any matter-of-fact input on what pure mxe is truly supposed to look like? The web (and this site) is littered with claims that it should be a fluffy white powder, but the strongest (and cleanest) batch I've ever had was from a very sandy white (almost like sugar granules) type of mxe. Again, people online say the sandy type consistency is a bad sign but my experience has been the opposite, clean, very pure dissociative feeling, very strong and minimal bladder frequency issues. To confuse things more, people say that it should taste bitter (which my sandy batch does) whereas the multiple powdery batches I've tried barely have any bitterness at all.

Is there anyone here who has truly analyzed mxe samples through gc/ms and can give some input on this?
 
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Can we get any matter-of-fact input on what pure mxe is truly supposed to look like? The web (and this site) is littered with claims that it should be a fluffy white powder, but the strongest (and cleanest) batch I've ever had was from a very sandy white (almost like sugar granules) type of mxe. Again, people online say the sandy type consistency is a bad sign but my experience has been the opposite, clean, very pure dissociative feeling, very strong and minimal bladder frequency issues. To confuse things more, people say that it should taste bitter (which my sandy batch does) whereas the multiple powdery batches I've tried barely have any bitterness at all.

Is there anyone here who has truly analyzed mxe samples through gc/ms and can give some input on this?
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I don't know where you read that, but basically it is impossible to know from what it looks like. Both consistencies (powdery or crystalline) can be pure MXE. Whether there are possible differences in effects from different "types" of MXE, is an open debate, but the consistency of the powder/crystal is not indicative of whether or not it's real MXE.
 
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