☮ Social ☮ PD Social Thread: Engage the digital super banana

[Xorkoth]

spring and warm weather is finally coming...can't wait for the years first lsd ride. Did quite a bit of mxe thru the winter, need to give it a rest I think. Time for some nature and good ol psychedelics ��

Hey man. Yeah Spring already hit here, last weekend we had a nice LSD weekend. Well I actually had 300ug of AL-LAD and 1 strong hit of LSD combined, it was amazing by the way, brought out the best in both drugs simultaneously.

^ spring time is mescaline time. Gonna have my first experience sometime towards the summer in a massive valley full of grass and stuff. Aiming towards 400-450mg. If old fart like Aldous Huxley managed 400mg I reckon I should be fine

Yeah mescaline is quite gentle, I took 525mg of mescaline HCl and I could have handled quite a bit more, though it was beautiful. If you use cactus it's generally stronger because of all the other alkaloids, but either way, 400mg of mescaline is not a high dose by any means.

I had mad dope dealers get busted. Idgaf about any of them, i only cared cause i couldnt buy drugs from them anymore.
i did feel mad bad for a middleman i used to get high with/fucked with him when i didnt have a car cause he could come get me and take me....
its bs. He got set up even though he isnt a real heroin dealer.

A guy I sort of know was a great weed dealer, super great guy, was helping his family out with the money and going to college. He got busted because some guy he knew got busted and ratted... they set him up completely, this guy (who was a friend) asked him to get 1000 Xanaxes for him at the urging of police. The guy usually only sold weed but he did a favor for a friend and they got him for pills, they didn't even charge him for the weed. Also 2 undercovers in civilian dress basically ambushed him and started tazing him without saying they were cops so he punched one and they also charged him with assaulting an officer (they dropped that eventually). He just got 4.2 years I think it was, he's in college and has this organization he started to help underprivileged kids as well as a clothing company. This guy needs to be out of jail, he's got so much to give the world, he's the opposite of a bad guy. And he's quite young too, 20/21 I think. At his sentencing hearing he had all kinds of people come in to say that he's an amazing guy and doesn't belong in jail, and the judge said they were sorry but there is a mandatory minimum, 4 years. Some real bullshit.

 

[yepyepwoah]

Well, hopefully that 4 years can turn into 1 and some change with parole.

Took some LSD and went to six flags last weekend. Was fun, buf almost seemed like a waste. Would have rather been in the woods I think. If the suncaught right, I could see what appeared go be peoples aura/astral what not trailing then. Threw some 2c b and mxe in the mix halfway thru the day. Would have rather just took another tab of LSD instead of the 2cb, but ya live and ya learn.

 

[Yeetbeat]

Today is the first day I've worked a weekend since mid 2009.

It's 5:20am. Fuck this. Ugh.

 

[vortech]

I haven't enjoyed amps since 2004, except for a couple times as a utilitarian method to stay awake for a party, and each of those times I felt so fried the next day I was totally turned off from it. My nervous system has become kind of sensitized, even MXE's lesser stim effect pushes it.
Original Nuttuh tho that reminds me of that Shy FX track, classic Dnb!

 

[Xorkoth]

Well the drummer in my band just called... we hadn't been practicing because the guitar player/lead man has been just totally unstable. I guess he packed up his stuff and moved back to Florida. I wish I had had a chance to talk to him about it face to face. He said he's overwhelmed by his life here and is basically running away. It sucks for us all because we were very excited about the band, but it sucks the worst for the drummer... they're best friends and he passed up an amazing opportunity to be the permanent drummer for a very successful band, because he believes in the guitar player so much. And now he's running out on him basically. I think it really hurts him. I'm about to go over and break the news to the bass player, and suggest we invite the drummer over to chill and talk about it. He's not sure he's going to stay here either, he might move back home but he wants to stay, he just wants to play it by ear and see what opportunities come his way. I love that guy, he's so great, and a really, really talented drummer too. I hope I get to keep playing with him.

Meh... in a way it's a load off because it was getting really stressful dealing with the instability but I really feel strongly about that band, I think we could really be something. It sucks that the lead man has to be so erratic. He's SO talented, disgustingly so, incredibly so. But he's getting in the way of himself so bad. Really he's one of the least stable people I've ever met.

 

[Yeetbeat]

Ah, that really sucks man though I know what you mean about how it's almost relieving...kinda like when you get out of a struggling relationship. It sucks, but it can be really relieving when the stress is gone

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

I haven't enjoyed amps since 2004, except for a couple times as a utilitarian method to stay awake for a party, and each of those times I felt so fried the next day I was totally turned off from it. My nervous system has become kind of sensitized, even MXE's lesser stim effect pushes it.
Original Nuttuh tho that reminds me of that Shy FX track, classic Dnb!

Shit is straight jungle.
raw as shit.
anywya
tonight is quill night.
and uhh dude, 1k xanax, 4 years really isnt that harsh.
especially when you consider iirc they charge you for the pill mass, not active ingredient amount.
if i sell you just (in this state) i think 1g of heroin, or 3.5g of methamphetamine or PCP, thats 3 years.
i saw somebody get 2-4 for 2g of crack cocaine (he was black as well)
HE got fucked, the kid selling 1k xanax really didnt.

 

[Roger&Me]

fuck xorks, wish i could play guitar for you guys lol

 

[Cream Gravy?]

Both my roommates went abroad for Spring Break, and left the house a total effing mess without cleaning up a bit of it. And it's their mess too, not mine. Now I have to clean it all if I wana have a good time tripping on Monday, and because my mom is coming to visit and I'd hate for her to be compelled to clean up a mess that isn't even mine... I'm thinking I might just short my older roommate on the next electric bill payment, since I'm left cleaning up his shit the majority of the time. House cleaning taxes you fucker.

 

[swilow]

Got a sample of 4-Aco-MiPT a while back. I think I'll take it orally, maybe 15mg and then I have a bit more to boost it. I feel oddly nervous, its the first new longish acting psychedelic that I've tried in some time, slightly apprehensive. I have nothing challenging planned; in fact, my girlfriend is going out but I'm not so I'll probably just trip at home by myself and maybe draw/play music/listen to music/smoke weed/masturbate/fiddle with synths/shave patterns into my head/play drums.

Actually feeling less apprehensive now that I realise I have so much I could be doing.

 

[swilow]

Shit, this stuff kicks in very quickly. Seriously felt it within 10 minutes of ingesting.

Feels nice, I think I will head for a wander through the hills

 

[Thorns Have Roses]

^May your wanderings be pleasant and filled with the sublimity of nature.

Today was one of those days, woke up in vomit and piss, felt like curling into a ball and crying, but instead I went to work and acted pleasant. If this had to happen, I wish I had skipped dinner, then I wouldn't be facing a tedious, nasty clean up job. The worst part is that I ruined a new pack of cigarettes. I suppose it's my comeuppance for buying liquor. *sigh* 8)

 

[swilow]

^Hmm, that's no good

Had a good if weird night walking through the hills. Saw some strange stuff out there, a mysterious light deep in the woods off the path. I called to it

 

[swilow]

My weed dealer has apparently been busted or some nonsense. Is it wrong that I care little for his fate and solely about my own desire for intoxicants?

"Hey S__, just got out- you still need somethin'?"

Kid don't learn his lesson and yes I do Snap sale, grams for $1 would be good.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

Doges

 

[SONN]

I have been jamming recently too I'm hoping to put together a decent jamband. I want it to be more post-rocky than most jambands, kind of like tycho, but with some heavy shit in there too thats more on like a stoner metal vibe with the super fuzzy bass tones. I really miss performing on stage and would totally wanna try doing it on a low dose of a psychedelic if I have the chance. My dream is to be booked at festivals so I can tour a bit over the summer. It just takes a lot of time and commitment from each of the band members.

 

[Xorkoth]

Cool man, jamming is the most fun thing ever.

fuck xorks, wish i could play guitar for you guys lol

Me too man, that would be cool.

So the plot thickens... Adam (the guitar player) called us out to help him pack up his shit, at like 9pm last night. We got out there and for some reason he thought he had to provide rent to the guy he's renting a garage from by today. But the guy came out and talked to us and actually he's the coolest dude ever. He wants to help him out and says he can definitely stay til the end of the month even if he doesn't come up with money and never does. We had a huge talk with Adam about what's going on with him... he's not sure but he knows it's due to his emotional stability issues. He's really a mess right now but he's in a sober and clearheaded place about it now. But he's about to fall apart completely. The weird thing is, this guy he's renting the garage from is a retired professor/practicing psychotherapist who specializes in asperger's/related disorders, which is what's going on with Adam, or one of the things going on. They had a really nice supportive talk and now Adam is thinking that instead of moving back to Florida to have a place to live (with his parents) and be able to work and save money, and hopefully come back, he might stay here, get a job and make it work. His main issue is he's not holding down jobs. The last one he got fired from for being homeless. He is prescribed klonopins and they balance him out very well and help him to not be constantly thinking himself into crazy places. But whenever he has them he ends up abusing them a week into it, runs out early, and then deals with withdrawals. It really fucks him up. So it's totally dependent on if he can get his shit together. I kinda think the plan to go to Florida for a month or so is a sensible one. But part of him (and me as well) thinks he's just running away and needs to deal with his shit head-on. He also feels like he's supposed to be here doing the band and that he might just be running away because he's scared to deal with it.

It must be really intense to be Adam. I love and care about the guy, he's amazing and brilliant. I really hope he gets his shit together. I will be there for him, someone to talk to who's totally real with him who he trusts. Me and the bass player, that's about all he's got right now in terms of close friends who understand something of what's going on with him. He has these constant cycles of behavior that fuck him up bad. One of them is that he gets really intense on women and is always trying to be with someone. He's been "in love" with 3 different people in the few months I've known him, after like 1 day he's proclaiming their intense love, and then it obviously doesn't work out and he's totally crushed. He wants love so bad but it's like a drug to him at this point, and he can't even live his own life right now either. He did say he realized that it was unhealthy last night which is good. He also does way too many drugs whenever he gets happy which is something I have also struggled with, but it sure hurts him a lot.

It's intense being his friend but worth it... unfortunately I can't help him be Adam, he's got to figure that out on his own.

 

[Xorkoth]

But, on the upside, I had a phenomenally beautiful and amazing trip Friday. Me and the bass player were hanging out and he asked if I wanted to sponsor a psychedelic evening. I only had a capsule with 20mg of 4-HO-MET, a bag with like 10mg of 4-AcO-DMT and coated inside with powder, and 2 empty bags of MXE coated with powder. So we put it all in a glass of water, and washed the bags, and then took shots of it until it was gone to make sure we had the same amount. I don't know how much 4-AcO-DMT or MXE we got, but it must have been significantly more than I expected. 10 minutes after drinking it, I started coming up HARD, tunnel vision and everything, with a large percentage of the feeling being that 4-AcO-DMT buzzing. Shortly I absolutely had to sit down, and our friend who was not tripping put on Neil Young records. I proceeded to slide into one of the strongest trips I've ever had, maybe the strongest +3 I can ever remember. With closed eyes it was incredible, fantastic, colorful, organic voyages where reality was coming apart and re-converging in new configurations. I'd open my eyes and the closed-eye stuff would still be going on, but mixed in with my visual input. One time I remember, this red and black ripply slash was going down through reality and my friend was in its path, I watched his face distort and ripple with this pattern. Reality was coming apart around me. Emotionally it was very intense, there were points where I found it very difficult to deal with but they would pass and I'd be in absolute bliss and/or awe. It was VERY soupy, I think the MXE made for a huge potentiation. I don't even usually get much in the way of open eye visuals anymore but these were easily the most incredible OEVs I've ever had other than from ibogaine. It went so far beyond patterns, it was reality deconstructing and reconstructing and changing colors and patterns right before my eyes, completely convincing and realistic, it WAS happening as far as I was concerned.

Then post-peak I entered the most incredible state of afterglow euphoria, it was SO beautiful. We spontaneously started jamming, piano, bass and acoustic guitar (which was a cool departure from electric). The music we created was really special and wonderful, unfortunately we didn't record it and none of us can quite remember what it sounded like but it was revolutionary, we'd never heard anything like it. I am hoping it will subconsciously resurface during a jam.

Then we woke up and me and the bass player went on a really intense nature hike and took some DOC for it. It ended up being the most incredible and challenging nature hike I've ever been on. It wasn't really a hike per se, it was intense river walking. It's this place where the mountain river goes steeply uphill for a long way and there are pretty much constant waterfalls, and it's full of awesome boulders and river rocks that you can walk/climb over and gradually make your way up river. It's very intense in a full-body way, and we went barefoot which is a little harder on you but way more fun. I've been there a bunch of times but it was his first time, and we went farther than I ever have. It gets much harder as you go farther, eventually we were thinking about every single step and taking some pretty big risks. We'd have to climb up precariously shaped boulders and sidle across with a 15 foot drop onto rocks beneath, and balance on the edge of a slippery rock while climbing up a waterfall. But finally we made it to this huge, amazing waterfall that I didn't even know was there. it was a great destination for a great hike. The way back got pretty brutal though, had to do the whole thing over again but down which is sketchier. Going down logs balanced over waterfalls is a lot harder than going up. It was about 5 hours of near-constant acrobatics like this, I am utterly crushed today physically. It didn't help that we were still tripping on DOC until like 5am.

I hadn't had a good psychedelic weekend in a while, it took it out of me but it was so worth it.

 

[LSDMDMA&AMP]

I figured out where i went wrong in life.
when i gave up on selling propane and propane accessorids

 

[SONN]

It's crazy how much powder can build up on the inside of containers or baggies, glad it worked out perfectly for ye xork. That does sound pretty damn beautiful and makes me wanna do 4-aco-DMT lol

Strongest +3 you can remember? that must have been very intense considering how many crazy trip reports I've read from you.

Sounds like Adam is truly a one of a kind person, I hope he gets some stability from going to Florida.