eating chocolate cake in the dark
After a few days of deliberating whether to become Joshyvibe or not, I decided to just be Josh.
roganjosh is a bit redundant now, the current bowel situation doesn't support much in the way of curry these days![]()
. I'd prepared all these spices, veg fresh ginger n' whatnot to make a Thai curry last night but there was no way that was happening after a meltdown... Anyway some substance has been returned for substance abused out-in-ish-ykwim 

If it works out I'll post a pic.
& glitter to you all! Waves to the gals - Flo, kota, Swampz, Tribal, Summer, Snolz n' alz I baked a christmas cake yestrday as it happens, about as involved in the festive season as I get. All those currants, and a 5 tbps of brandy. The dark nights are really fucking with my mood these days, it's a struggle against myself to get out of bed in the mornings.

Hey kate![]()
just me being over sensitive last nightAfter a few days of deliberating whether to become Joshyvibe or not, I decided to just be Josh.
Am okay thanku hows everything? Currently behaving myself, wont be for long though
Did the idea to become joshvibe come from that shite name Rassyvibe lol. or whatever it is
& glitter to you all! Waves to the gals - Flo, kota, Swampz, Tribal, Summer, Snolz n' alz
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Currently behaving myself, wont be for long though
) Nicklazzzzz not seen you so much either..let me know how things are now?


thank you katejust me being over sensitive last night
Being sensitive is allowed! Try not to let it worry at you. Keep your chin up with therapy, its hard going but it'll be worth it petal xSAD boxes are meant to work. You can get your own for home, but they're not cheap, or there's health spas and such that do them where you take all your clothes off to get maximum exposure to the 'good' UV rays.

Hello lovely kate. Hope you're well
Thinking about the name change thing I like minimalism and would just be Summer if I had my time again. Fucked if I'm donating £25 or whatever though, I can barely afford food, you can all donate money to me instead k? If I had £25 to just piss away I'd spend it on half a gram of coke and no hesitation. I havent had any for over a month, such a shite cokehead, when I get my loan again in Jan things will definitely improve
Yeah better not be for long. As in, just over a day not long (pahah)
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Dan is a bad boy Try not to worry, FG. These are nice people who genuinely want to help. I was terrified that I'd meet the Brain Police and instead I met a doctor who put me at ease and listened to what I had to say. They'll want you off the shitty internet drugs, but that's a no-brainer really isn't it?
I went to an appointment today, and I think I almost got an unprofessional hug. There was definitely some unprofessional banter. Productive, though.
thank you hun going to see the head doctor in the morning just hope he doesn't want me sectioned
Try not to worry, FG. These are nice people who genuinely want to help. I was terrified that I'd meet the Brain Police and instead I met a doctor who put me at ease and listened to what I had to say. They'll want you off the shitty internet drugs, but that's a no-brainer really isn't it?
I went to an appointment today, and I think I almost got an unprofessional hug. There was definitely some unprofessional banter. Productive, though.
It's usually always ok if you are polite, honest and respectful of each other. These docs are specialists in their field, they've spent a long long time learning their art - think about what motivates them to do that. That's a GOOD thing %) I know its not easy Mr Gold but try to relax and trust them they want to help you feel better.
who could resist? 8)That's because your lovable Sammywho could resist? 8)
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How was your Monday? I'm off. Tea?x
blah blah blah... Swampalicious.