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Gibberings CLXXVIII - Too skanky for your tastes?

I've never used IV drugs (unless you call the midwives giving me diamorphine during labour LOL but technically that was IM).

Yea I need to talk to the blood doner organisation when I'm off the subbies. They've stopped sending me appointments but I guess that happens when you stop going.

I think I've been kinda selfish in a way but it's a motivating factor for getting off subbies.

I only have to wait four months after having a tattoo, anyway. Technically it's 12 months but they let you after four months, they just take a sample of the bloody to test encase it's been poisoned by the ink.

Evey
 
kingme said:
have you ever seen him in action though?
man, id love to have a chat with him. while on lsd and amps.
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To be honest I rarely watch the History channel... so clueless as to who he is... sounds like I must be missing out on a treat though.

Sammy G said:
Sounds awfully close to symptoms of depression to me. May not be, may be a seasonal thing, but sleeping for that long and feeling drained the next day isn't a good sign.

Could well be associated with going to bed too early too. Fuck knows. Just worth considering.
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If it's just a one off, it's unlikely to be depression... I quite often sleep long hours when I am ill but then again, sometimes my mood plummets depending on how ill I'm feeling.
 
Ironic that just as i start to settle in to my new job, ive recently had a thinly veleied warning dressed up as support from my TL ' we'll do everythinh we cand to help and support you get to that stanadards we need from you' (the call qaulity criteria is fuckingh strict man, i only missed the grade by the slightest margin FFS and i had made great progress from the month befiore) "but it might turn out that this isnt the job for you'. unsurprisingly kind of stayed with me than anything else saud during that meeting.
I think my TL was still unimpressed how i could be half an hour late for a 2.15 pm start. :\ My story that i couldnt sleep the night before and was catching up on my sleep from 10 -12 didnt wash as a valid excuse and it took me some time to get myself toeher teh ensts day with next to no sleep. ( though it was the truth) . It was an awful day at work, the TLs little performances is apparaently a mortivational tooll commonly usedby TMs but it had the oppsite efcect on me, i felt all motivaionanh hope drain away that day. Hopefully i can bust those stats next month, and show that i can do the job aswell as anyone, even if really deep down, i do despise the fucking job at times.


Its true that im not a great natural fit for the job, but i thouht i could turn my hand to anything if need s be, Gonna See how much longer i can hang on in there. I fucking need the money,which is very good, They dont want to be loosing any more staff, but equally unsuitable "temps" can be fired at a moments notice.I spoke as if i couldnt give a shit to some OPs Manager the other night (i didnt- id had no sleep and when the phones hahdnt eased up by 10 pm the last vestiges of my enforced good humour were gone.,. to various exlamations of surprise and direct feedback from my colleagues. I dont think they are the snake in the grass snitch people up types. But i can be sure i wont get called into the office to get fired or moreliely warned on Friday.)
 
I don't know what's up...just feel incredibly drained and just generally fucked. Don't think its depression though cos I'm not depressed about anything (although I see plenty of things to get depressed about but it just washes over me mainly). Stupidly though I took a day off sick last week when it was just starting and now a week later its much worse and I can't risk another sick day as they would count that as two separate sick instances inside of a week which would go down like tthe proverbial lead balloon.

Pleased I'm just in a classroom at training centre on not doing a 12 hour shift out on the road.....that would be just too much the way I feel right at this moment :-(
 
Awh MDB. I'm sorry man. But hang on a mo, this isn't over. He said "but it MIGHT turn out that this isn't the jpb for you, he could have said "This isn't the job for you." It sounds like he's unofficially warning you.

What I say now is with love n compassion so please don't take it the wrong way. You've been absent twice within 3 months. You were half-an-hour late on an important day for you; a day where you were having your calls monitored. Most employees would be half an hour early not late n trying their very best to prepare n show what they made of.

Instead, the night before, you took a lot of drugs that you knew would affect you sleep n thus your preformance. So, whether it is deliberate or sub-consciously, why are you trying to sabatage yourself? Please think on what I'm asking you. You don't need to answer me - this is not about me. It's something for you to answer yourself n to think very hard before it's too late.

You know you need money thus you know you need this job. Please, please, please think this through n take action before it's too late. Think how long you were unemployed. Think how far you've come from when you were on the phenaz. Think how far you've come from your subbies addiction.

Vent here as much as you need to. We 're here for you, to listen n advise. You know my PM / Facebook is always open. Please don't just listen to the negatives. Use the negatives as constructive criticism: a way to move forward n improve - rather than "this is probably the end." You've time to change this, MDB, turn things around n show your employers what you're made of. Show them that they made the right choice in hiring you.

MDB, you can do this ok?! We've all got control in the choices we make - choose wise.

My advice would be read the four agreements. It really is a useful book.

Evey
 
mydrugbuddy said:
Its true that im not a great natural fit for the job, but i thouht i could turn my hand to anything if need s be, Gonna See how much longer i can hang on in there. I fucking need the money,which is very good, They dont want to be loosing any more staff, but equally unsuitable "temps" can be fired at a moments notice.I spoke as if i couldnt give a shit to some OPs Manager the other night (i didnt- id had no sleep and when the phones hahdnt eased up by 10 pm the last vestiges of my enforced good humour were gone.,. to various exlamations of surprise and direct feedback from my colleagues. I dont think they are the snake in the grass snitch people up types. But i can be sure i wont get called into the office to get fired or moreliely warned on Friday.)
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What can I say? Hang in there, MDB. I hope it doesn't come to the worst-case scenario, but if it does then try to treat it as a learning experience rather than letting it discourage you. It's unfair that a large part of the time you've taken off was due to an incident beyond your control, but it happens, much as it sucks.

englandgz74 said:
I don't know what's up...just feel incredibly drained and just generally fucked. Don't think its depression though cos I'm not depressed about anything (although I see plenty of things to get depressed about but it just washes over me mainly).
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Depression ain't the same as feeling fed up. You don't need anything to be depressed about - you just get depressed. I'm sure you knew that anyhow, but it's fucking annoying how many people don't know the difference. So you have people who are upset about their ex leaving them and end up being treated for 'depression' whilst genuinely depressed people tell themselves they just need to 'pull their socks up' or whatever.

In any case, it's probably something but nothing and you'll be fine tomorrow.
 
Cheers mate....I couldn't do what MDB is doing though. I don't think I could do call centre stuff I think I'd hate it. I worked as a finance manager for years and that was bad enough. I've had all those "motivational" talks and meetings he describes which are about as motivational as a poke in the eye. Its really, really hard doing a job you don't like. We all need to earn money to live and all that but it just makes life seem such a chore if you hate going to work or are getting loads of grief while you're there. Its doable if the rest of your life is going sweet but if you have problems in other areas of home life etc. Then you spend however many hours a week in a job you don't like that's haaaaaarrrrdddd!!!!

I honestly think a 12hr shift of RTAs, overdoses and suicides plus 3 hours overtime us 2 missed meal breaks would be preferable to going back to an office job I hated. Ironically I just had a phone call today from one of the NHS foundation trusts asking if I was interested in a finance managers job there. ..thoughtabout it for all of about 3 seconds!

I'm just on my lunch break at the moment sitting by the river having a cigarette and even though I've got my ambulance uniform on plus t-shirt underneath and a big thick ambulance fleece thing on I can't stop shivering. definitely coming down with something......Jesus listen to me I'm a right whining cunt!!!
 
Yeah I'm in the north as well and its certainly not cold....not for October anyhow. Not to worry though only one more day after today and then its the weekend. Couple of days in bed and I'll be right as rain for Monday (hopefully).

I know it sounds naff but you really don't appreciate feeling well until you feel really shite for whatever reason. Was also just thinking that I haven't had my flu jab yet....we usually get them free if u work in the NHS but I haven't seen any posters or anything around yet.

Oh and Evey - if you don't like injections you DEFINATELY won't enjoy donating bone marrow. I won't go into it but Google it and see how its done.......sounds fucking horrendous!!
 
englandgz74 said:
Its really, really hard doing a job you don't like. We all need to earn money to live and all that but it just makes life seem such a chore if you hate going to work or are getting loads of grief while you're there.
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You know it mate. tis shite
 
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englandgz74 said:
Yeah I'm in the north as well and its certainly not cold....not for October anyhow. Not to worry though only one more day after today and then its the weekend. Couple of days in bed and I'll be right as rain for Monday (hopefully).

I know it sounds naff but you really don't appreciate feeling well until you feel really shite for whatever reason. Was also just thinking that I haven't had my flu jab yet....we usually get them free if u work in the NHS but I haven't seen any posters or anything around yet.

Oh and Evey - if you don't like injections you DEFINATELY won't enjoy donating bone marrow. I won't go into it but Google it and see how its done.......sounds fucking horrendous!!
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Ok will do. It 'd be worth it if it saves / prolongs someone's life though xxxx

Evey
 
HouseFever said:
:) Poetic
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What else d'ya expect from a true poet? ;)

Sorry if anybody didn't want the image of my nipples in their head, btw. I think I well and truly creeped out a couple of semi-strangers last night by going on a tirade about eating honey out of the jar. Totally innocent, but my leering mug + the phrase "It's reeeeaally sensssshhhual" make for a fucking horrible, nightmare-inducing combo.
 
mydrugbuddy said:
a huge amount of people have to do jobs they hate. Doesnt help that im one of them.
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Very true words mate......its great when you find something that you enjoy though. I love my job although it has its bad moments and is very hard work.

Is there nothing that you've ever really fancied doing (something that's accessible and possible not like test driving Ferraris or test-shagging young porn starlets or owt like that!!)
 
yeah something willdlife, nature or animal related. Nature resereve warden is my current semi relasitic draem job. (I was once offered a role in a porno, by 2 very dodgy loking guys in a bar, they wanted to know if id be willing to hit women or get him by them. Dunno fi the whole thibng was jsu a wind up /piss take. But that wouldnt be the worse job in the world would it. I was interested until they mentioned the hitting.)
 
You weren't even interested in getting hit? Man, some people pay good money for that shit.

I mean, girlfriends do it for free anytime, but with all the accompanying drama.
 
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