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Gibberings CLXXVIII - Too skanky for your tastes?

Evening all.. :)

Just read through all of your posts in reply to my problem, ta for the time and thought <3 My battery died.

I think in all honesty im just going to have to grin and bare it. Time off work just isnt an option due to me being self employed, i had two weeks off not so long back when i went to Portugal which i did clean up on, two days before the end of the holiday the Mrs and I split up so that sent my head spiralling and did the obvious thing when i landed back home, hit the drugs and got my habit back. Foolish but there you go.

Ive got a two kids, a mortgage, two cars, a habit, my (ex)Mrs doesnt work and i have to cover all of it so time off aint happening.

Root cause of the problem, im not sure, i think its a multitude of things big and small in me that is going to take sometime to address. The newest and biggest one thats effecting me most is the spilt with my partner, we're not living together anymore so im not with my kids either. Im just doing the weekend dad thing and i fuckin hate it, i break down everytime i drop them back off with their mom.

I need to get clean to get back with my family, i get depressed when im not with them, i try to get clean but come mid-week i can't cope with the withdrawals and my drive to get clean turns into "aahh fuck it, all is lost, im a waste of space, i may as well score"

Im nearly finished, i swear ;)

Maintenance is a pain in the arse, due to my job all over the country daily pick ups arent an option, theres no flexibility to the rules so thats that door shut. Plus, i dont want to be in the services anymore, ive tried it, many times and it hasn't worked...

So, grin and bare it...

Edit: can i get pregabelin from the docs or is this something I'll have to search for elsewhere? Obviously my medical records are going to scream drug shopper so what reason would lead a doctor to believe them best for me? As soon as you mention illicit drugs/withdrawals or owt of that ilk they point to the door and tell you to go to the substance misuse clinics
 
They are prescribed primarily for neuropathic pain but sometimes off label for general anxiety disorder. As a condition that press Ted with chronic neuropathic pain would be hard to fake I dont k ow how you'dvet your doc to script them TBH.....your not missing much though since while they help a little bit they are no magic bullet....not by a long way.

Still think you should try Loperamide..... I've even worked out a potentiation protocol that really works and if it can get past my tollerence then it can get past anyones

Well I'm fucked (again) so night night folks.......
 
They are prescribed primarily for neuropathic pain but sometimes .

Yep I was prescribed Gabapentin recently for neuropathic pain, didn't agree with me at all so my doc took me back off it after a week or so.

It might well be worth seeing your GP and explaining the situation, if you've already got form for drug abuse then you have little to lose. I'm reasonable honest with my GP but have never asked fro anything specifically. He's prescribed various things for various ailments with seemingly no concern about me being a drug seeker.

I', not convinced that there are huge numbers of people that do that in the UK anyway, I've never really understood why anyone would bother. If I want drugs for 'recreation' I'd purchase them myself, the hassle of just getting my repeat prescription filled is bad enough as it is
 
Evening all ;)

Well this g of bugle tested blue for go go go.... but feeling lethargic as hell and umm hungry so something is out of sorts.

<3 to Marmz if she sees this..back on my travels again shortly. No idea what fucking time zone I am in.

<3 to all.
 
Awh im sorry to hear that, Scotchy I really am. U know I care about u n would never judge you, don't u?!

I understand about have your own business. My parents did n my mam wasnt able to have a serious op due to not being able to get time off work n lives with chronic pain daily.

So I do understand n never realised that you were self-employed.

I was only saying those things out of concern n care - not any malice.

Would you not be able to take a weaker opiate n taper that? It may not be ideal but it may be able to hold you somewhat if you were to maybe use some DHC for a short term basis?

Oh Immodium may help n tonic water / bananas for rls.

Sorry i can't help further but im here for you anytime ok.

Evey
 
Yep I was prescribed Gabapentin recently for neuropathic pain, didn't agree with me at all so my doc took me back off it after a week or so.

It might well be worth seeing your GP and explaining the situation, if you've already got form for drug abuse then you have little to lose. I'm reasonable honest with my GP but have never asked fro anything specifically. He's prescribed various things for various ailments with seemingly no concern about me being a drug seeker.

I', not convinced that there are huge numbers of people that do that in the UK anyway, I've never really understood why anyone would bother. If I want drugs for 'recreation' I'd purchase them myself, the hassle of just getting my repeat prescription filled is bad enough as it is
I dont have the best of relationships with my GP at all so i dont have high hopes for any help from him. He, and all other doctors in that surgery are particularly awkward towards anybody with a history of substance abuse.

The last time i was in a similar predicament i used ketamine in very small doses to take away the majority of the discomfort, at that stage of the withdrawals it works better than anything else ive tried. Obviously you have to be very disciplined with it as wobbling round work is a recipe for disaster but i did manage it, i suprised myseld tbh how controlled i was..

Just my luck that its all but dissappeared, if you can get find some its either very poor quality or massively over priced 8( Nevermind ay... Does MXE have the same sort of anaesthetic properties?

Probably best i look into this lopermide/tonic/grapefruit mix Englandz has talked about. I'd have to check out the interaction with methadone to.. christ, its a bloody minefield :!

Anyone got any good news =D

Edit: im trying to, and need to avoid all opiates no matter the strength, its complicated and will probably sound harsh but my mRs will not have me back until im giving clean samples, luckily methadone doesnt convert to morphine so doesnt show on a urine test. Another thing id have to check about that Lope. Shes not a bitch honestly, shes fuckin beautiful and ive messed her around to the point where she feels this is all that's left to do. Im an idiot.
 
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I'll not go on and on about it but you can change your GP or Surgery at anytime without having to provide any reason, you just rock up to the new one and sign on.....if they admit to having capicity.

I've done this a number of times over the years, twice to get decent treatment for an acute skin condition and another time when my GP was blatantly ignoring my growing mental health issues, might be a frying pan and fire or it might be the best thing you ever did.

What ever I wish you well, my family responsibilities are much the same as yours and I work full time solely to meet that commitment and in recent years I've had to deal with a number of health and drug related issues whilst having to prioritise continuing to hold the job down.. it's not an easy thing to do
 
Evening all.. :)

Just read through all of your posts in reply to my problem, ta for the time and thought <3 My battery died.

I think in all honesty im just going to have to grin and bare it. Time off work just isnt an option due to me being self employed, i had two weeks off not so long back when i went to Portugal which i did clean up on, two days before the end of the holiday the Mrs and I split up so that sent my head spiralling and did the obvious thing when i landed back home, hit the drugs and got my habit back. Foolish but there you go.

Ive got a two kids, a mortgage, two cars, a habit, my (ex)Mrs doesnt work and i have to cover all of it so time off aint happening.

Root cause of the problem, im not sure, i think its a multitude of things big and small in me that is going to take sometime to address. The newest and biggest one thats effecting me most is the spilt with my partner, we're not living together anymore so im not with my kids either. Im just doing the weekend dad thing and i fuckin hate it, i break down everytime i drop them back off with their mom.

I need to get clean to get back with my family, i get depressed when im not with them, i try to get clean but come mid-week i can't cope with the withdrawals and my drive to get clean turns into "aahh fuck it, all is lost, im a waste of space, i may as well score"

Im nearly finished, i swear ;)

Maintenance is a pain in the arse, due to my job all over the country daily pick ups arent an option, theres no flexibility to the rules so thats that door shut. Plus, i dont want to be in the services anymore, ive tried it, many times and it hasn't worked...

So, grin and bare it...

Edit: can i get pregabelin from the docs or is this something I'll have to search for elsewhere? Obviously my medical records are going to scream drug shopper so what reason would lead a doctor to believe them best for me? As soon as you mention illicit drugs/withdrawals or owt of that ilk they point to the door and tell you to go to the substance misuse clinics

How old are you, Scotch? I'm guessing 25? Similar problems with me atm. i don't do opiates for years though, but i did fuck around with kratom recently. have u tried that?


Anyway my parents are going away so I'm 'house-sitting' for them. I have been fucked on etizolam and zannys all week. just coming out of it.

But having party this weekend all good cunts are coming.


edit - kratom is the best (still an opioid). MXE is great for cravings - like when you are also out of withdrawals and 'crave' something. I used to do opiates to go out to gigs/party. Then i stopped and found MXE. Now I just use MXE for fun :)

MXE can also help withdrawals but it also makes it harder to sleep. And also don't use MXE anywhere where you have to be sober. eg work. unless person knows what they're doing(rare)

edit- nvm fuck i am still high. but party still on
 
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Allein actually makes sense here. If your GP surgery isn't providing you with the help - or you feel that you're unable to seek help, due to prejudice or whatever then it may be best to seek out another GP practice, ask if they have capacity n join them. You deserve help n support, Scotchy, as much as anyone.

Evey
 
lol this morning my friend - Tnu and i took a skateboard with us to the dairy. and we did 'dares' where we skated as fast and you can go on the road, then do a kick flip LOL. didn't land crashed twice almost got it the 2nd time. it's like you know ur going to hit the ground hard but fuck it.
 
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