anyhoo back on topic...
TOLERANCE BREAK
i have had quite alot of decent b recently, as previously reported i thought i was in clover after i found an excellent synergy between smoking a few bags on a morning before having my early afternoon methadone dose which then extended the buzz for the rest of the day. Of course after a few days of this i found the effect harder and harder to achieve, if not impossible. I could even top up the nod with extra bags later in the day whenever i had some left over.
bank holiday weekend no money for gear. just weed, which i had to smoke in dribs and drabs because im getting imune to that as well. the lack of depressants in my body left me feeling quite hyperactive and edgy, 20mg diazepam on sat evening sorted that with good effect and come sunday night id still managed to refrain from having any methadone, leaving me with a rare total take home dose of 120mg which i had in one go early hours of monday morning out of both increasing need and boredom. No effect, even though it was double my usual daily amount, 38 hours after the last dose.
Jump to yesterday morning, plenty of money to score. Got a white (which was excellent, the only decent one ive had all summer) and just under a gram in decent gear (9x0.1 bags £40). Smoked 4 of them, nice enough, and after enjoying a spliff with them even started to get a bit noddy. 1pm chemist and supervised dose, home 3mins later, bag no. 5 which mixing with the increasing methadone in my bloodstream was making me feel more and more fucked by the minute and then - bam - nothing. stoned to sober in less than a minute, as if the methadone just booted the gear out of my brain as it finally took total effect. 6 months of treatment and id found the blockade myself, something my dsp had been trying to do (and had so far failed) with my dose. I smoked another bag but i know the feeling of pointless redosing , ive had it before with both opiates and mdma, banging your head against a psychtropic brick wall. I considered IV for about 10 seconds as i have plenty of works, but finally made a rare good decision and didn't, as i have heard of people going over while trying to achieve a breakthru effect.
Sorry for the long post but needed to share, ive finally got more opiates available to me than i have receptors in my brain, 3 bags in my bedside locker and pay day 2morrow and there is no point in using any more, at least for a fair while anyway. I feel kind of liberated in a way - time to find a new hobby!
Cheers - Stee
