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June Getting and/or Staying Sober Thread

@love88- perciverence and courage... don't be discouraged by what seems like failures. They aren't failures, just learning experiences. Try to examine what went wrong, And take steps to make changes in your recovery plan. As long as you keep trying you have not failed. You will make it a week, then a month, then longer. Just don't lose faith in yourself no matter how many times it takes!
 
love88 - maybe you should try a small dose of Suboxone? I know you said you're trying not to, but if what you're doing now absolutely isn't working for you, imo it seems like it's worth a shot. At this point since you've already had a few days off, I bet that even a really small dose, like 2 mg on day 3 (or whenever you most often start feeling like you're going to relapse) and then 1 mg the next day and so on, would be a lot of help at easing the transition and reducing your withdrawals/cravings. At the very least it will give you a bit of time to reconsider :)
 
Just about stopped counting days out from no buprenorphine, it's around three and a half weeks though. Still just about in acutes, grrrrrrr.
 
Quitting cigs and taking a break from kratom maybe quitting that too. So far I got a couple days on the nicotine, and I haven't dosed kratom today. Will see how I feel tonight. Also cutting back on the booze and pot slightly. All added up I feel a bit on edge. If this is all the symptoms I feel this will be nothing short of a miracle.
 
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Fucking hell, I'm so desperate to be back to normal. It's nothing heavy anymore but fuck me this is dragging....

My appetite is back though so it can't be long now.

I WILL WIN!
 
Good job you guys. Junes been a rough month for me. Not doing so well putting my recovery first....but I'm going to keep trying. You all are inspiration to me <3 so thankful for u all!!
 
Keep it up omen, GC and everyone else having a hard time.. you WILL make it to the other side and I promise the grass is greener just don't lose faith in yourselves! The strength is within you to succeed you just need to not lose hope.

Everyone keep up the great work!!!!! :)
 
You know what, I almost feel better today! There's definitely something still lingering but I've just woken up and I'm hungry so I must be almost there. Thank fuck for that!
 
Want to kick all stimulants. I hate the lows, they destroy me. They also effect my work, as I am my own boss, and never am able to work the day after, or even the few days after I go on a little stimulant binge.

I'm an anxious unmotivated wreck on those days.

Today will be day #1 clean from stims, hoping to hit 15 days clean as a first goal and then I'll take it from there.

Edit: fuck, forgot I have a gram of ethylphenidate coming in the mail.
Chuck it and waste my money, or have one last day or two of stims... Decisions decisions.
Edit2: Maybe I'll try to not binge through it and just set up a nasal spray solution of small doses to avoid a nasty comedown. Needless to say, I'm already failing at the concept of this thread lol.
 
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Still doin it ;)

Its so cool to c alot of the old timers from bl getting a nice amount of clean time its awesome!
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Best of luck pbuilder
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Thanks. I've never been a daily user but every weekend I have a bit to drink and immediately fiend for some coke. And recently I had a new dealer introduce me to meth which is a drug I never thought I'd do. Did it for the third time last night , and decided fuck, I'm doing meth now? Staying up all night and the next day, at least I actually can sleep on coke the same night. This is a slippery slope, so I decided to delete his number. I don't have any mutual friends that knows him either so it's gone forever, which is for the best. I also deleted my coke contacts. So, hopefully that should keep me clean.

Sorry about the potentially triggering post earlier.
 
So fucking sick of this protracted ass bullshit withdrawal now. Would much rather have been handed a fortnight long spanking than being ill for a fucking month.
 
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