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Today I Am Thankful For... Ver. 3: Earth, Wind and Fire!

Yeah it's awesome, he asks me how I'm doing every day. Today I could tell him I have been working out hard the past 2 mornings (and will continue every day or almost every day). I've been eating super healthy and sleeping at appropriate times and I just feel really good (a common aftereffect of ibogaine flood doses is the resolve to eat well and live healthy). I honestly don't feel any PAWS, and I've had it before. And the last time I had opiates was last Thursday, after the ibogaine (unfortunately it knocked out most of the afterglow, which is a huge bummer because the afterglow can last from weeks to months and I felt AMAZING during it, best feeling I've ever felt). I feel a little shaky physically and I get little half hour bouts of kicking legs (minor) at night, but I feel 90% better, and I have a great mood every day. To me, this is a miracle and I can't possibly tout the use of ibogaine to get past addiction enough, though you probably shouldn't do it at home with minimal supervision like I did. Given I've had more experience with psychedelics than most people alive, I got a little bigheaded.

And yeah isn't that email intense? I re-read it the next day and I was like oh my fucking god, I can't believe I sent that. =D

I can't wait to finish writing up my story about the ibogaine, it's going to be probably the longest trip report ever written though. I'll post a link once it's done.
 
And, I've already put on 10 pounds. When I was coming out of the ibogaine and feeling crappy because I mini-relapsed (just 2 doses of kratom in one day, but it did bring back the shittiness and minor withdrawal), I noticed my rib cage was sticking out. I've a very thin person, gangly and skinny as a kid/teenager and just no extra body fat once I hit adulthood. I lose weight super fast if I'm not careful, with the opiates I couldn't afford as much food as I needed and I had lost a lot of weight and nearly all my muscle. But I've been eating heavily, healthy food, like 5 or 6 times a day, and I keep getting hungry right after I finish eating, but I eat more. Already my rib cage is not showing. :)
 
Yeah I put on two stone of fat in the first six weeks of rehab when I was in treatment, then shed the fat and gained the same in muscle when I got out.

Went from this when I went in to treatment:
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to this....

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...in just a couple of months. That was whilst doing shitloads of cardio through martial arts and running as well, not just aimless lifting. Is a fucking good feeling getting that body healthy again!
 
I'm almost as thin as you. I put on muscle well though, I just haven't really tried to do that very many times. The times I did do it, I was shocked by how quickly it went up.

And yeah I'm running... yesterday I did 2 miles (it was my first day) and today I did 3. I lifted a little bit too in between and I used a treadmill and elliptical, which was clearly doing more for my leg and body muscles. I was in cross country in most of high school, until I started doing drugs, and I was the best on the team, running is easy for me and it feels really good. I used to run 10 miles outside (which is way harder than on a treadmill) and not be that tired. Feels really good to be doing again. :) I figure I should really hit the cardio first to generally get healthy and in shape, and then I can work on putting on some muscle.
 
Yeah I was 11 stone at 6'5" when I went in to treatment, not a good look.

You're right on the cardio. Cardio and core is the base to pretty much all athletic prowess.
 
So am I, I competed in a number of sports at county level when I was a kid. I got to the point of managing to knock out 10km in 43 minutes before I relapsed and let things slide.

There's a challenge for you, beat my time!
 
Nice time. :) My record in cross country was just under 17 minutes for 3 miles, which is 5km (5:40 average time per mile). Of course that was a long time ago. And twice as long is more than twice as hard at a given speed.
 
omen_owen mk2 said:
Yeah I put on two stone of fat in the first six weeks of rehab when I was in treatment, then shed the fat and gained the same in muscle when I got out.

Went from this when I went in to treatment:
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to this....

NSFW:
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...in just a couple of months. That was whilst doing shitloads of cardio through martial arts and running as well, not just aimless lifting. Is a fucking good feeling getting that body healthy again!
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Awesome, I'm chunky 190 pounds 6', I have been lifting dumbbells some, but need FAR more cardio with it, and more lifting while I'm at it.

Xorkoth said:
Nice time. :) My record in cross country was just under 17 minutes for 3 miles, which is 5km (5:40 average time per mile). Of course that was a long time ago. And twice as long is more than twice as hard at a given speed.
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Dunno much about running, but twice as hard? Wouldn't it be exponentially harder with distance? Your bodies increasing inability to shed lactate/lactic acid from the muscle tissue?
 
lolwhatzdrugs said:
Dunno much about running, but twice as hard? Wouldn't it be exponentially harder with distance? Your bodies increasing inability to shed lactate/lactic acid from the muscle tissue?
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Exactly, that's why I said it's MORE than twice as hard. :) I maybe should have said it's a LOT harder, because it is (as you pointed out).
 
My university welfare services, my amazing drug worker and the amazing people who give up their own time to run the tiny BAT group I'm just about to go off to (the girl who runs it even took the time to proof read my largest piece of 1st year coursework despite the fact she's in her 3rd year and her own work is far more important). Without these people I don't think I would have managed to stabilise and start back on the road to taking control of my life.

I can't wait until I have sorted my own shit out enough to be able to give back in some way.:)
 
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