Altered Perception
Bluelighter
I bought a bag with clear crystals thinking it was meth but it turned out to be some very potent type of RC full of nasty side effects resembling MDVP. But the odd thing when I first started using it I wasn't getting much adverse reactions but then unexpectedly the side effects got worse and worse with every day. Almost like a person who develops and allergic reaction to a substance. How is that even possible???
So I'm baffled by this and wondering if anyone knows what causes it? But here are the details of what happened leading up to my ambulance ride.:
I have a medical condition known as "Autonomic Dysfunction" so I am sensitive to all chemicals that stimulate or depress the Autonomic Nervous System. But I found a loophole where if I take very small amounts below the therapeutic dose everyday, I can develop a tolerance and eventually desensitize myself slowly towards any psychoactive drug and and work my way up to an active dose. Or so I thought until I came across this dam MDVP.....
DAY 1 -
So the first day I began my desensitization process with a flea sized dose. The first thing I noticed it when it kicked in is an uncomfortable increase in temperature, cold hands and feet. I felt a surprisingly overwhelmed by the stimulating effects, especially at such a small dose. Luckily I didn't get any problems with heart rate of blood pressure. Overall it was a successful start.
DAY 2 -
Took the same flea sized dose. Once again I was tweaking hard but also accompanied with feeling hot and flushed along with some chills and muscle spasms. But Again I did not have any problems with Heart or Blood Pressure.
DAY 3 -
Took the same dose again. I started feeling confident that if I keep this up everyday the side effects would slowly begin to disappear as tolerance kicks. This time my temperature continued to rise until I was uncomfortably hot and I ended up under the cold shower trying to cool down. Blood pressure stayed normal but there was some increase in my heart rate as my temperature increased. But I was able to control it with betablockers.
DAY 4 -
Despite the same low dose, the side effects continue to increase. More chills and increased temperature, more tachycardia but eventually as the day progresses the effects of the drug completely wears off and everything settles down. Or so I thought.... 10 hours after initial dose, just as I am lying in bed ready for sleep I suddenly started feeling my entire body tense up, all my veins feel constricted. So I checked my blood pressure and its dangerously high but my heart rate is very low. I look at the clock and realize its now been over 10 hours since I had taken the dose. So now I'm thinking "wtf is going on? what is this secondary effect??? it should have been long over by now?!" I couldn't make any sense of what was happening to me because the peak effects were long over. I hadn't even felt this sick during the peak effects of the drug.
Every few minutes a wave of hypertension and agitation would sweep over me. I have never had a panic attack in my life before and yet my hole body tensing up was inducing uncontrollable anxiety and panic. At one point I became delirious and I started feeling like I was losing my mind. I have always been head strong and losing sanity was a new and frightening experience. It was only after propranolol and clonidine I was able to drop down my blood pressure to a normal level. What was this secondary after effect?
DAY 8 -
I took 4 days off after my previous bad experience. Today after some advice from wise Bluelight memebers I flushed the remaining bag down the toilet, except I saved just one little crystal. For some stupid reason I decided before I flush that away as well I would just give it one more try, just to be certain. But this time I diluted the flea size dose even further. I put it in a vial of water and used a syringe to to measure out 1/5th of the previous dose I was taking. This was smaller than any previous dose I had tried. Nothing could possibly go wrong with such a small dose right???...WRONG!.....
It was PURE SIDE-EFFECT!, no tweaking, no euphoria, no stimulation, Just pure HYPERTENSION, RAPID HEART RATE, MUSCLE SPASMS AND INCREASED TEMPERATURE! It was so intense and so unbearable all I could do was yell, "MUM call me an ambulance quickly". I spent the last 5 hours in the ER being pumped with drugs to lower my blood pressure, heart rate, and benzo to reduce temperature and muscle spams.
I have never felt so blind-sided in my life. WTF just happened? This was the lowest dose I had taken so far, and yet it was the most horrible effect of the lot. So now it appears I have fully developed some type of allergic/sensitivity to this stimulant or even worse....perhaps to all stimulants???? Is it my brain chemistry or neurons that have become sensitized?
In the up coming months I was going to be put on Ritalin for the first time to help with my ADHD, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and hypersomnia and now after having developed this bizarre sensitivity reaction, is it likely to effect other stimulants as well?
Thanks for any help.
So I'm baffled by this and wondering if anyone knows what causes it? But here are the details of what happened leading up to my ambulance ride.:
I have a medical condition known as "Autonomic Dysfunction" so I am sensitive to all chemicals that stimulate or depress the Autonomic Nervous System. But I found a loophole where if I take very small amounts below the therapeutic dose everyday, I can develop a tolerance and eventually desensitize myself slowly towards any psychoactive drug and and work my way up to an active dose. Or so I thought until I came across this dam MDVP.....
DAY 1 -
So the first day I began my desensitization process with a flea sized dose. The first thing I noticed it when it kicked in is an uncomfortable increase in temperature, cold hands and feet. I felt a surprisingly overwhelmed by the stimulating effects, especially at such a small dose. Luckily I didn't get any problems with heart rate of blood pressure. Overall it was a successful start.
DAY 2 -
Took the same flea sized dose. Once again I was tweaking hard but also accompanied with feeling hot and flushed along with some chills and muscle spasms. But Again I did not have any problems with Heart or Blood Pressure.
DAY 3 -
Took the same dose again. I started feeling confident that if I keep this up everyday the side effects would slowly begin to disappear as tolerance kicks. This time my temperature continued to rise until I was uncomfortably hot and I ended up under the cold shower trying to cool down. Blood pressure stayed normal but there was some increase in my heart rate as my temperature increased. But I was able to control it with betablockers.
DAY 4 -
Despite the same low dose, the side effects continue to increase. More chills and increased temperature, more tachycardia but eventually as the day progresses the effects of the drug completely wears off and everything settles down. Or so I thought.... 10 hours after initial dose, just as I am lying in bed ready for sleep I suddenly started feeling my entire body tense up, all my veins feel constricted. So I checked my blood pressure and its dangerously high but my heart rate is very low. I look at the clock and realize its now been over 10 hours since I had taken the dose. So now I'm thinking "wtf is going on? what is this secondary effect??? it should have been long over by now?!" I couldn't make any sense of what was happening to me because the peak effects were long over. I hadn't even felt this sick during the peak effects of the drug.
Every few minutes a wave of hypertension and agitation would sweep over me. I have never had a panic attack in my life before and yet my hole body tensing up was inducing uncontrollable anxiety and panic. At one point I became delirious and I started feeling like I was losing my mind. I have always been head strong and losing sanity was a new and frightening experience. It was only after propranolol and clonidine I was able to drop down my blood pressure to a normal level. What was this secondary after effect?
DAY 8 -
I took 4 days off after my previous bad experience. Today after some advice from wise Bluelight memebers I flushed the remaining bag down the toilet, except I saved just one little crystal. For some stupid reason I decided before I flush that away as well I would just give it one more try, just to be certain. But this time I diluted the flea size dose even further. I put it in a vial of water and used a syringe to to measure out 1/5th of the previous dose I was taking. This was smaller than any previous dose I had tried. Nothing could possibly go wrong with such a small dose right???...WRONG!.....
It was PURE SIDE-EFFECT!, no tweaking, no euphoria, no stimulation, Just pure HYPERTENSION, RAPID HEART RATE, MUSCLE SPASMS AND INCREASED TEMPERATURE! It was so intense and so unbearable all I could do was yell, "MUM call me an ambulance quickly". I spent the last 5 hours in the ER being pumped with drugs to lower my blood pressure, heart rate, and benzo to reduce temperature and muscle spams.
I have never felt so blind-sided in my life. WTF just happened? This was the lowest dose I had taken so far, and yet it was the most horrible effect of the lot. So now it appears I have fully developed some type of allergic/sensitivity to this stimulant or even worse....perhaps to all stimulants???? Is it my brain chemistry or neurons that have become sensitized?
In the up coming months I was going to be put on Ritalin for the first time to help with my ADHD, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome and hypersomnia and now after having developed this bizarre sensitivity reaction, is it likely to effect other stimulants as well?
Thanks for any help.
