Dude it seems like your desperately trying to use our words in your favor and it's incredibly transparent. What's your history with LSD and what makes you look at it the way you do? How's your life situation? I've never seen someone who is truely happy in life become depressed after LSD... MDMA yes but not LSD.
I stopped doing mushroom and acid and it seems very likely that my problems began with giving up friends and activities associated with these drugs.
I do not think my depression was out of the ordinary and I think I handled it reasonably well, even though I still do not understand the whole meaning behind it.
I realized fun while I was flunking out of college. It was irresponsible, but I was simply not ready and had other issues to de as l with. What I needed was an escape, a real escape and a real friendship, which I attained some time later. Depression did not sink in until I encountered this strange mental block. You could say I had penned up anger for getting isolated all my time through school. But it is hsrd to say. It seemed as though I was finally dealing with these issues at the time, and have since become more of a socially relatable person.
Seeking to understand others.
At the last semester of school, I found I could just ignore basically everything and get along fine. I had all my basic needs and have continued basically without a physical complaint since then. This attitude followed a profound experience, which follows a short period of drug use and was followed by some awfulb repeating voice in my head saying the weird fag. Even after my life started falling apart I could not get myself out of the rut of being a mental zombie, and if I tried to explain this to you at the time it what's going on, I just wouldn't know what to say.
Thewe're lot of things that just seemed out of my control. Now I am back in the headspace where I feel like complicated again but with a sense of normalcy.
I definitely considered it as possible that my past drug use had contributed to my mental lockdown. Though how they add up is a big mystery.
Am I going to say my best buds from a few years back are just not cool unless they were all drink or high? No. Nor am I do I consider myself any better or worse than any one of them. But I do think we could have hung out and done all those things sober. That it's all I am saying. That would have been better, but feeling depressed made almost any relationships unbearable. It is easy to get depressed with the way life is, or does life seem the way it is because I am depressed? I think life is just depressing, because humanity is idiots.
So I gained friendships that I lost, but those friendships are important. So what?
Well. That seems to be about the most negative aspect of drugs. And as anyone can point out, subjective.
I can identify some of my negative life experiences to marijuana and beer and cigarettes, which I used for a number of years. The first because I started turning into a psycho whenever I smoked and also because I have memory problems, beer because of some nasty hangovers and many a bad situation (or potentially bad ones) when I drank, and cigarettes because they are addicting, expensive. And all these cause some internal damage.
So, did I any of those drugs help me? Do they affect my life now in a positive way now that I don't use them?
I spent time hanging out with people while using these and gained those experiences. Personally, it seems better to cultivate relationships sober.
So you can see my experience during that time was quite rampant. Overwhelming personal experiences. Difficult to separate but I have managed.