my abortion - discriminated by the doctor.
I just need to vent, I had a horrible experience with a doctor. I found out I was pregnant and I had an abortion. my mom called and told them im an addict and they said that should be no problem, it can be done easily without anesthesia. so I go to the doctor and I have to go through a battery of non refundable invasive tests before I can talk to the doctor. I get to the doctor and there is a big highlighted sticker on my chart that says HEROIN ADDICT. he starts out by asking me if I understand that this procedure is irreversible. I like kind of laughed, but he offended me already. then he goes "you're high right now." and I'm like, no, I'm not high. and he starts saying, oh well you probably couldn't handle the pain of doing this procedure without anesthesia, and if you move I will puncture your uterus. and im like ok well I already told them im an addict and I CANT HAVE ANESTHESIA, it will not work, I don't want an unneccesary IV. and he goes oh well, I mean you can't even have any pain medication either, and I said what about something non narcotic (which I feel is my right to at least ask), and he just screams in my face "no pain medicine" like im some kind of drug seeker. and so he keeps going on and on about how its not gonna be safe without the anesthesia because im an addict, and that I cant have the anesthesia cause im an addict, and im like ok, so do you suggest I just have a baby then? I was told this can be safely performed without anesthesia. i was just so mad that he would even assume something about my pain tolerance, because ive been through more pain than most people experience in their life, and i haven't been able to have anesthesia in like 5 years, so abscesses drained, teeth pulled, numerous detoxes in jail, basically any procedure. and then he started threatening to not do the procedure after i already paid for half, and i was just like how dare you. as soon as he saw that sticker on my chart he wanted to get rid of me. probably assumed i have some kind of disease. so after i decided he isn't gonna touch me if he doesn't feel confident he can safely do one of the safest medical procedures, i cussed him out and he threatened to call the cops. luckily i was able to go to a much better clinic where i felt safe. but i really hate doctors. like he's just an evil person, i seriously considered trying to terminate the pregnancy myself after he took my money and didn't do the abortion, so i could have died because he wouldn't do a simple procedure on me, a heroin addict, and he took my money so i couldn't get it somewhere else. or i could have had to carry an unwanted pregnancy if i couldn't come up with the money in time.
When I look back on my inpatient experience I wish I took in more and didn't reject it. They have good programs. Scary, strict, programs, but they can set a person straight...or atleast the second you leave there you'll be straight. What you do after is on you but they will give you balance. 
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