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Pagey said:
Stupidly not - I didn't have enough left to do that and I didn't want to have to explain to my GP why I'd gotten through my script so quickly...but I got an appointment to see him tomorrow and ask if he can put me on a Valium taper because there's no way I'm continuing like this. I feel like an idiot :\
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Pagey ♡♡ withdrawals are tough but hang in there hun ♡♡ you can do this!!!
 
lifeguardsleeps, I'm so sorry to hear of your experience. Are you asking how best to cope with your emotions following an asshole doctor unfairly labeling you and denying you at least ibuprofen?

From what I can interpret of this, you were robbed by a medical professional and had to go somewhere else to undergo a safe and elective medical procedure. Did you receive a safe abortion? Are you OK at least physically? Money can always be re-earned. Your health and safety are non-negotiable. Provided that what you have written is accurate, this doctor deserves to lose his license so he cannot do this to anyone else. It is unfortunate that some medical professionals act disreputably and exploit their patients for real or imagined personal gain.

This applies regardless of anyone's personal stance on abortion.

When you went to the second clinic, did they treat you professionally and give you referrals to counseling or a support group? Both of those things are what you need right now. You deserve to be treated professionally and with respect and dignity after this difficult time. You deserve to heal.

Don't give up.
 
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Ahhh fucking wd's.

I swear I hate this shit I want my supply now, but it wont be for weeks. I'm so fucking pissed & hating myself.
 
The new government health insurance shopping website..... lol.. wow.. assclown city production there so far.. confusing, hard to use, doesn't fucking work well if at all.. yeah, hooray hooray hooray.. jeezus christ.. wtf.. man just when I thought healthcare couldn't get much more frustrating it does.. come on people this works like it was designed by zoo animals.


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I showed my son these pics and he was giggling his ass off. Oh to be that young again!
 
Let's see...

I have a horrible relationship with my father.
I never get to see my mom much (who I have a good relationship) and when I do it's rushed because she's so busy.
I miss my friend and still have feelings for her.

Pretty mild compared to some stuff in here. IDK... Just feeling like the best part of my life has passed me by.
 
Pagey said:
I'm going insane...CT xanax W/Ds, heroin PAWS, weird physical reactions from massive psych abuse and recovering from months and months of unrelenting stim abuse, I can't take it. 24 days completely clean today but fuck. I feel like I'm about to snap, I don't think my body or mind can take this much more. I have to stick it out but I dunno how...the physical stuff might be getting better slowly but every minute that goes by seems to make the depression worse. I dunno how to do this :(
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Take a deep breath page and breattthhhheeee.

How long have you been prescribed the Xanax and in what doses? Why do you keep doing this to yourself? Never heard you mention Xanax before... Don't think things could get much worse for you unless you maybe threw in some... Actually you got all the bases covered. Oh got one, be thankful your not fiending for another crack rock. I don't mean this in a negative light page but it seems like any substance you touch you develop a horrible habit with and become strung out or have horrible prolonged sketchy come downs from. I think it's rather clear drugs are definitely not for you. Weren't you saying when you hurt your back less than a year or so ago your doc was refusing to prescribe you benzos because you directly told him how addicted you were becoming to them and what they were doing for your mental health? That was temazepam though right? Correct me if I am wrong? So this is the same doctor that wouldn't give you temies but now has you hooked on Xanax bad enough to make you w/d? Or do you just gobble up all your .25mgers in 4 or 5 days?

In all seriousness most of these symptoms are in your head, drink some water, go ride your bike as far as you can and then ride back, faster. Eat a banana, take a warm bath, drink a glass of tea with some nice honey, do some stretches, lay down and do breathing exercises, zone out, allow an healing emerald green light to surround you, penetrating all your cells. Say a prayer and be thankful for life.

Amen.
 
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Let's see...

I have a horrible relationship with my father.
I never get to see my mom much (who I have a good relationship) and when I do it's rushed because she's so busy.
I miss my friend and still have feelings for her.

Pretty mild compared to some stuff in here. IDK... Just feeling like the best part of my life has passed me by.
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That sucks to hear :-( maybe you should try tightening up connections with your parents??
People won't be around forever. Make some changes before it's too late <3
 
My sister is crazy...like bat shit crazy...her bd is in town, and all she can do is cause drama...she's "seeing" some guy in jail, while his gf does lord knows..she also doesn't work, and gives all her money to the jail bird..when she gets mad at the dude in jail, she runs to her kids dad..he moved out of town trying to better his life..I should also mention she lost her kids, my dad and myself are currently raising them..I lost my job friday and she expects me to keep bailing her out, NEWS FLASH, broad it isn't happening..go live under a bridge fornall I care.I'm sick of helping your ass when u have zero desire to help yourself..I'm done w/ u...end rant! Thnx bl crew :/
 
^^ yea don't bail her out, sometimes it takes rock bottom for some people to understand right from wrong.
 
I'm not going too..b***h has me so mad...I cnt stand her anymore..her priorities are all jacked up..
 
I'm still not 100%, but I am amazingly surprised by this shooting dope WD. I've had more experiences with WDing and tapering down with oxy and sub, though I do have plenty of WD days from dope.

I noticed that when shooting dope day 1-3 are pretty much hell. It's just hell. Then the fourth day is like you are in recovery after a tough cold and are trying to regain a sense of normalcy.

I'm a lot more used to having to be patient and do a slow sub taper which ends up lasting a lot longer, though it's much easier on the body.
 
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My sister is crazy...like bat shit crazy...her bd is in town, and all she can do is cause drama...she's "seeing" some guy in jail, while his gf does lord knows..she also doesn't work, and gives all her money to the jail bird..when she gets mad at the dude in jail, she runs to her kids dad..he moved out of town trying to better his life..I should also mention she lost her kids, my dad and myself are currently raising them..I lost my job friday and she expects me to keep bailing her out, NEWS FLASH, broad it isn't happening..go live under a bridge fornall I care.I'm sick of helping your ass when u have zero desire to help yourself..I'm done w/ u...end rant! Thnx bl crew :/
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Glad someone's watching out for the kids. Hope you find a new job soon!
 
I hate becoming sick :(
Today i had planned a day for my heartbroken friend who travelled all the way here to Aus from Europe, only to get broken up with.
Its such a perfect day outside, except for the fact that i have been throwing up all morning every time i move :(
This sucks SO badly. After today, I probably wont get to see my friend before she buys a plane ticket and bails from this country :(
 
from day four to zero with alcohol. whatever. anyone else trying to quit drinking, but not trying to give up use of all drugs? it'd be fun and motivating to have someone to quit drinking with. but i don't really want the seriousness of someone trying to go sober from all substances.
 
^^ Yup ill be off the booze here soon within a week, it's going to be fucking tuff. You can PM anytime.
 
good stuff. i'm starting over as of this morning. is a friday with nice weather and i have a porch and a open case of beer in the fridge at home. off work in a couple hours. let the games begin.

hit me up here or by PM when you start.
 
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