Okay, methadone has screwed my endocrine system, I gotta take shots of testosterone and take oral prednisolone. I guessed something was wrong a couple months ago when at my ultimate dosage for me (60mg), I started to get really fat, irritable, lazy and lame. So over the months I dropped to 41mg where I am now in a tolerable withdrawal state and my doctors will switch me to suboxone after me taking nothing the day before showing myself to the hospital (where the clinic is) in little more than a week, on 9/11, lets hope my continuous willing to live isn't aborted by congress (clap clap obama, nice damage control for all the shit proving you're a criminal of the highest order now..but I digress..

, at 8am in the morning so they can monitor me and then when they find im sick enough give me 4mg of bupe. I gotta come back the next day to tell em how i'm feeling and for dosage adjustments.
Now, i'm an ex pain patient who was ignored by the medical establishment (free healthcare don't mean shit when you are young....doctors then decide you cannot have pain issues...) and I also got enjoy the opiates as I got them on the black market (never saw heroin in my life, i live in a pretty small city, the last metro area of canada, no heroin here) but shooting up dilaudid was enjoyable. But I managed to find nodding on methadone when boosting it with hydroxyzine, benzos, etaqualone and tagamet (not all at once, except the hydroxyzine being always present yes, anyway, I was a long time benzo patient before I even touched anything stronger than codeine pills for minor injuries). Yes, believe it or not I am able to obtain pleasurable nods from methadone, I don't do it all the time but I like how I have no repercussions of over-using my methadone now that I have 6 privileges a week and blah blah....will bupe really never give me anything resembling a high and pain removal?
Cos if it doesn't, fuck my goddamn pituitary gland for being unable to endure the methadone...it's not like I was taking massive doses....sure I'm gonna do the switch for my own health (damn I feel awesome since I give myself a weekly testo shot along with the prednisolone pills, I feel rejuvenated by several years (i'm in my early thirties but I felt like if I was 70 at my worst before the blood tests confirmed shit was fucked up).
So, bupe for pain relief ? I know it comes as temgesic .2mg pills and BuTrans patches....how is it ? I don't feel like taking the tmj and nerve damage my jaw has taken and made me suffer for a decade almost before I decided to shoot dilaudid into me. And I'm not expected to have fun at all with it eh ?
Feeling so much better by countering the methadone's bad effects like I am with the extra meds could seem viable, but now it's too late, I yelled and screamed at the docs enough to switch me to something that doesn't kill my brain glands....too late to go back now.
edit : Also, I'm aware that the pills i'm going to be given...a big 6 a week...just like my methadone privileges..no change...canadia is so bizarre to you guys i know, we dont have such a thing as sub doctors, suboxone appeared 2 years ago max here...anyway the pills I will get are told to be used sublingually or they dont work at all. So those are impossible to snort or use in any other way ? Or is there just one suboxone pill that is supposed to be used sublingually but works in other ways ? There is no film here either but that's not a big loss afaik.