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I did 1mg of Xanax about 6am just to be greedy, but I'm chipper this morning, cleaned the kitchen fed my youngest and scrubbed the carpet in the spare room as I came home yesterday to discover my dig had been a bit poorly, all cleaned up now and he seems fine this morning.
I have no chance of sleep if I do any quantity of speed after about 2pm usually do a couple of nights just cuz I can't resist but I'll likely have a few hours lie down which I find makes the world of difference and relaxes muscles as well. Most stims would not allow me to lie quietly and relax where as speed does and there is no desperate despite to redoes.
I've counted that I've washed my hands at least 15 times this morning, all dog related ... NerdB is away for a week and he's still a puppy really so I've got to do everything. Luckily he's fully house trained, but he's in the habit of trying to eat his own poo, if you don't pick it up quickly enough .. and sometimes he steps in it if youre not there when he does it, so I like to be there as it happens so to speak., so it's not left in the garden. He wont actually poo on his walks, and always waits until he gets home! Looking after a puppy is a full time job. I would've been much more suited to an older rescue dog but NerdB prefered a puppy cause we couldn't find the right kind of rescue dog for us; all the lurcher types we saw were all huge.
Meh, my pc HD finally died this morning, it's been going for about a year. And my laptop is having boot issues, it's been dopped a few times and I think some of the hardware connections need checking, as well as it needing a hoovering. Might have to do it myself since he's away for a week. I'll probably be too rough with it and fuck it up tho