mydrugbuddy
Bluelighter
Message received and understood. Well not entirely - i dont see it as escaspim, i see it as a reality enhancer, or am i just a tosser playing with words?
Ok then ill enjoy my first happy 5 weeks in 23 years, and then return to feeling like a miserable empty shell, or ghost ?
i do understand and appreciate your point and believe that you are saying these things for my own good but our logic / arguments have a great big fork in the road.
The best compromoise/most sensible solution AFAIK is to just use this 3 weeks of pills for fun. The next 2 to taper off and jump. And then try 6 months clean. That way i should hopefully not have had too big a bupe habit (in the grand scheme of things it was tiny). If after 6 months i still feel like a hopeless looser then fuck it all. Id rather be a bupe addict for life and feel like my old self again, than an undercdonfident miserable lonely isolated misanthrope who wants the world to fuck off and die. (including myself i suppose)
Sam: when you stopped taking bupe, how long did it did your mood to bounce back ? I guess you never felt as good again ??? (sincere aplogies if that last questions sounds rude and misguided?)
Am in a honeymoon perioid, and wil bupe soon stop delivering ?
@ Lurch the only time i missed my ah doses were when i forgot about them due to being on extended chaotic stim sessions. Id get the tripple whammy of the comedown. lack of sleep and AH WDS. Its quite possible my AH ddiction was psychological and my doses were all over the place, from a peak of 700 mg (never again, why am i still alive) to a low of 30 mg (why the fuck didnt i jump then)? Anyway, wats done is done.
well thanks for the warning sam, my drugs workers dont seem to have picked up on the severity of the issue. (most of my drugs workers have never even done drugs HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Ill have to voice your concerns next time i See them.
Ok then ill enjoy my first happy 5 weeks in 23 years, and then return to feeling like a miserable empty shell, or ghost ?
i do understand and appreciate your point and believe that you are saying these things for my own good but our logic / arguments have a great big fork in the road.
The best compromoise/most sensible solution AFAIK is to just use this 3 weeks of pills for fun. The next 2 to taper off and jump. And then try 6 months clean. That way i should hopefully not have had too big a bupe habit (in the grand scheme of things it was tiny). If after 6 months i still feel like a hopeless looser then fuck it all. Id rather be a bupe addict for life and feel like my old self again, than an undercdonfident miserable lonely isolated misanthrope who wants the world to fuck off and die. (including myself i suppose)
Sam: when you stopped taking bupe, how long did it did your mood to bounce back ? I guess you never felt as good again ??? (sincere aplogies if that last questions sounds rude and misguided?)
Am in a honeymoon perioid, and wil bupe soon stop delivering ?
@ Lurch the only time i missed my ah doses were when i forgot about them due to being on extended chaotic stim sessions. Id get the tripple whammy of the comedown. lack of sleep and AH WDS. Its quite possible my AH ddiction was psychological and my doses were all over the place, from a peak of 700 mg (never again, why am i still alive) to a low of 30 mg (why the fuck didnt i jump then)? Anyway, wats done is done.
well thanks for the warning sam, my drugs workers dont seem to have picked up on the severity of the issue. (most of my drugs workers have never even done drugs HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH
Ill have to voice your concerns next time i See them.
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so was CC though