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Lol that's funny. And yeah you women do wort alot but ill be toning down my use after the weekend. I really do aporeciate your concern. About the sub, tolerance must be up there. I only took 2 at a time 2X a day for 4 times In a tow so I can only imagine what your tolerance is.

I forgot to mention before that my dad has been home from The doc since Saturday and is doing better. He does have a nice sized hole in his leg tho

Man I'm feeling pretty good off a bag of dope and a bowl I weeds. Can't forget about the coffee, which is pretty good.
 
hangyourhead said:
Smoke, just never put that fucking needle in your vein. It's TOO GOOD
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And loses absolutely 100% of the fun, magic, and thrill so damn quick it'll make your head spin.

Had a big fight with my bf over something stupid. He's been texting me since I left at 11 just trying to tell me how it was all my fault blah blah and just won't fucking drop it.
 
thesameoldfears said:
And loses absolutely 100% of the fun, magic, and thrill so damn quick it'll make your head spin.

Had a big fight with my bf over something stupid. He's been texting me since I left at 11 just trying to tell me how it was all my fault blah blah and just won't fucking drop it.
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Exactly, as your head spins you start to realize you've made one helluva mistake. I'm in WD right now, I don't even wanna dose more bupe it's just gonna drag it out. Hopefully this Xanax bars come thru, be a big ass help. My legs hurt sooo fucking bad (RLS) and I'm freezing and it's a hot summer day. Feel like I'm on my death bed
 
hangyourhead said:
Smoke, just never put that fucking needle in your vein. It's TOO GOOD
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Solid advice, I saw it first hand for the first time not long back and it looks like so much fun. Happy I never tried it but damn if it isn't on my bucket list. If the doctor ever told me I had like a couple of months to live I'd say to hell with it and try out IV for the first time for sure.

I'm down in America's penis, been getting spoiled on my Mom's cooking. I woke up to the smell of bacon today...sooooooo good. I haven't eaten anything but home cooking these last few days. I'm going to be a fat SOB by the time I go home.

I ain't had anything but some moonshine and a few tokes of good smoke, dude across the street from us is supposed to be getting me a bag of smoke today. Was going to get it yesterday but his guy only had 8ths for $50 of the "good shit" and I just didn't want to pay out for it. Waiting on him to re-up so I can grab a bag (the reggie down here is like the $20 a gram shit back home so I'm looking forward to it).

I picked a _bad_ time to come down, these mother fuckers just passed a law down here outlawing the sale of glass pipes and bongs. I left mine back home and now I'm stuck without a decent piece. Went and picked up some zig-zags but I'm bummed because I always picked up a new piece when I came down. I'm hoping the flea market head shop is still selling them under the table or something. I wanna drop about $30+ on a nice pipe..

I got a capsule full of MXE on deck though, waiting on my sister to spend the night with a friend so I can trip without worry. She's grounded though so it might be awhile...good excuse for a tolerance break I reckon!

Trying to stay out of trouble but if someone rolled up with some PKs I'd probably grab a couple. I hear the scene down here is crazy though...like $1 an mg for shit I get for way cheaper back home. Probably just not going to fuck with it and spend the money at the bar instead. Going trolling for girls sometime soon xD.

Hope y'all are doing well, going to go hit up my inbox and reply to some PMs. Y'all take it easy!
 
@hangyourhead: that sucks man. The only thing that helps me with the temperature fluxuations is getting in the shower. Then you can adjust the temp of the water as rapidly as your body decides to change temperature. And it washes away all thhe goosebumps and sweat so it feels good. Only problem is eventually you have to get out!

@HP&LSD: you can always make a "bowl" out of an aluminum can, or a gravity bong. I think I heard about that law on here actually, that's some bullshit. What state are you from is FL gets that much better weed? I know where I'm from at least the next county over grows a ton of weed so we get it pretty cheap. But then again I haven't smoked in obver a year (thanks monthly drug tests) so what do I know anymore.
 
thesameoldfears said:
@hangyourhead: that sucks man. The only thing that helps me with the temperature fluxuations is getting in the shower. Then you can adjust the temp of the water as rapidly as your body decides to change temperature. And it washes away all thhe goosebumps and sweat so it feels good. Only problem is eventually you have to get out!

@HP&LSD: you can always make a "bowl" out of an aluminum can, or a gravity bong. I think I heard about that law on here actually, that's some bullshit. What state are you from is FL gets that much better weed? I know where I'm from at least the next county over grows a ton of weed so we get it pretty cheap. But then again I haven't smoked in obver a year (thanks monthly drug tests) so what do I know anymore.
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Just took a HOT ASSS SHOWER, it helps me get back to sleep at night too when I'm soaked in sweat with goosebumps
 
thesameoldfears said:
@HP&LSD: you can always make a "bowl" out of an aluminum can, or a gravity bong. I think I heard about that law on here actually, that's some bullshit. What state are you from is FL gets that much better weed? I know where I'm from at least the next county over grows a ton of weed so we get it pretty cheap. But then again I haven't smoked in obver a year (thanks monthly drug tests) so what do I know anymore.
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Haha trust me man I know about building bongs, did that shit all the time back in the day. I just prefer glass now and like buying pieces, so I'm bummed about not begin able to pick one up. I get them as a keepsake from my travels. :)

I live up in NC and know a ton of home growers its just most people up there grow outdoors so its not always around. I get a selection between mexi-dirt weed and the good stuff. Its just I'm so far out in the country up there that I don't have a chance to source a lot of different kinds. Here I'm 15 minutes from a major city so different stuff comes through. They have some stuff down here they call crypto that blows my dome off every time I smoke it.

The quality of the reggie here is like seedless mid-grade, back home reggie = mexi-dirt weed. My buddy (a fellow BLer) gets some potent stuff though, can't keep up with him on smoking that stuff and he rags me for it. I think where I've gotten older I just can't handle it like I used to either, good weed gives me a racing heart and puts me in a bad head space sometimes and I usually need a benzo to enjoy the shit properly. I generally only take a couple of tokes a day now too, where 5-10 years ago I smoked constantly. My tolerance to the stuff has gone down a lot these last few years.

Yea its a bullshit law, pissed me off. I loved the selection of cheap quality glass down here. Last pipe I bought down here is so awesome and everyone is constantly trying to buy it off of me. To that I say NOPE because it was a gift from my step dad and has my Mom's favorite animal on it (a frog). Its an awesome one-two person bowl.

hangyourhead said:
Just took a HOT ASSS SHOWER, it helps me get back to sleep at night too when I'm soaked in sweat with goosebumps
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Keep at it man, it gets better after awhile. I know exactly where you're at right now and it sucks. That's what keeps me away from the PKs don't wanna go through that shit again. Four times was enough and it was worse each time. :(

I gotta run into the city before I get yelled at, back later xD
 
thesameoldfears said:
Smoke I hope you don't take this the wrong way, but from an outsiders point of view you seem to be on a slippery slope. I've only been on BL a few months and when I started posting in the social you were able to get high off low doses of opiates and had kept your use in check for years without much of a tolerance or physical dependence. And now you're doing almost a bun a day? I hope it's just a minibinge something because you seem like a hella cool dude and I'd hate to see dope fuck you over. You have way more willpower than me since you kept your use in check for so long so maybe I'm just talking outta my ass with this one. Just check yourself every now and then, I want to keep reading your posts about ridic work combos for a long ass time!

On a hypocritical note, I would love to get some straight outta bmore dope! It seems like you have a similar scene to my town, where the price gets super inflated from the city it comes from. Most of the shit here comes from bmore as far as I know as well but who knows what happens to it between here and there. The prices I pay sometimes are just downright embarrassing. I should just start going up there once a month or something, I'm sure I'd save money.

Hope everyone is doing well today...I have to make an 8hr round trip drive tomorrow because my boyfriend bought a car off craigslist 4 hours away.......I'm SO not looking forward to having to drive myself back. My back hurts after an hour or so in the car so this is gonna be borderline miserable. I'm just gonna try not to do all my dope before I leave so I have a nice shot to come home to. But that may not happen haha.
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i tried to tell him the same thing, but he didnt listen ><


i want something in my veins now, i need it! all i have is suboxone sigh
 
Fuck, heading to the city to cop dope gotta throw dude two tenths FUCK! I just feel so shitty. My rig is awful too!

Pray I can register the vein... I might need to get a lil money take the RTA down to the methadone clinic. Im sick af
 
@laccy baby: I guess I just have a better way with words lol :p

@mass08: hey there!

@HP&LSD: picking up a piece of glass as a souvenire is actually a sweet ass idea. It would make a cool display, like some people have those little wall bookshelf/frame things with a glass front that hold the collectible thimbles or tiny spoons, something like that but big enough for pieces.

Oh man, I've never seen the mexican dirt up here in VA. I stayed an hour outside of kansas city missouri for over a month though and that was almost all they got. It was brick weed, like all dried out and pressed into hard squares and just naaty nasty. It makes sense that you have more access to better quality week right now being just outside of a major city. I know the quality of things like dope really decrease (/the prices increase) where I'm at even compared to the moderately sized city an hour away. Talking about this makes me want to get high soooooo bad, but since I get drug tested every month I don't think I'd even enjoy it. Like I know one session is likely gonna be out of my system pretty fast, I'd still worry. If I knew anyone who didn't take anything my subs I'd just borrow their piss for a month haha.

@hangyourhead: doesn't a hot ass shower feel fucking incredible? I think I could deal with all the other symptoms if I didn't get RLS and my legs didn't hurt. Every time I'm sick incredible ache that feels like it's in your bones. What is the RTA? You could get on the done for a little bit at least, save some money etc. Maybe you'll like it and never look back. I really want to switch from subs to methadone but I just can't drive back and forth to the clinic - nearest one is 45min away with no traffic, and closes at like 10am.

Ugh, I've been wanting to order some iv supplies for myself for awhile but I'm worried about the packaging. Like I can't have it show up to my house saying anything like medical supplies or insulin or diabetes or anything. I might just do it anyways and wait around for it for a few days, my mom had surgery so I'm staying with her right now and she's bedridden so as long as a nurse or my sister didn't get it no one would be the wiser.
 
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hangyourhead said:
Fuck, heading to the city to cop dope gotta throw dude two tenths FUCK! I just feel so shitty. My rig is awful too!

Pray I can register the vein... I might need to get a lil money take the RTA down to the methadone clinic. Im sick af
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I’m just starting to jones hard just reading that. :(

I hope you get well bro. Being sick is a real bitch, and I feel for ya.
 
hangyourhead said:
Smoke, just never put that fucking needle in your vein. It's TOO GOOD
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yeah, i know. glad i no longer have access to needles

Ho-Chi-Minh said:
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what post?

man, i took a long ass nap and woke up, did 2 bags of dope and smoked a fat bow. still got 8 bags so ill prob get my nod on tonight. im getting a bun friday for when my friend comes from PA. after that tho im gonna try to curb my opiate consumption till at least when i get paid at the end of the month. my boly might go to bmore again and if he does thta would be the only reason to use in that time period and if i do ill be adding at least another week on to my break. i do gotta chill tho, ive been going ham lately since this dude always has dope now.
 
@TSOfears YES! Hot showers are LIVE-SAVERS when I'm dying from RLS at night kickin and runnin' around my bead with goosebumps, freezing feverishesque, rapid hot flashes (constantly), and cravings, regrets, and going thru hell on earth mentally, awful depression i can't shake. It's crazy just a hot shower will help me go back to sleep and calm me mentally. Suboxone/buprenorphine just felt so unhealthy (lost mad weight, looked sickly, woke up in crazy sweat puddles, going thru killer WDS until I dosed the bupe...PAWS that last unbearably long IMO/E. I'd like to give MMT a chance in place of the bupe; despite the awful WDs I heard that come with dosing down methadone in particular... so idk about that

@PSYCHJ Thanks man, means a lot right now. I feel so alone and gone....

Sorry for be so depressing my BDD social buddies. Potent opioids have fucked me up! but I can't stop loving them.

Took 1mg alprazolam, 0.5 kpin; benzos taken sublingually! I cant stress how much better low doses of sublingual benzos feel than getting completely barred out and not even registering whats going on. A nice lil' euphoric come-up IMO

EDIT: Oh and 0.6 of IV heroin and 0.25 of some ridiculous IV cocaine! Some made into speedballs and others just straight. Plus some bowls of some decent buds. Feeling a nice, heavy euphoric sedation and buzz,.
 
Hey all...just got out of the looney bin again. How's everyone doing?

Ended up getting Rx's of Restoril (which sucks ass for my insomnia...go figure), Ultram, and Neurontin...also sent home with Rx's of Lidoderm patches (which are way to pricey and don't get deep enough), Lamotrigine, and Depakote, but didn't fill them. The last two were causing massive mood swings lol.
 
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