How's BDD social tonight?
I'm prepping for my last MXE session before shipping off to America's penis Sunday. Was expecting to go out later but my Dad was like to hell with waiting how much is a ticket? Ended up paying $360 + $25 for baggage to get a ticket for Sunday afternoon. Have a one hour layover in Charlotte then catching my second flight heading into Jacksonville around 4pm. Could have saved a lot of money buying a ticket from Charlotte to JAX direct but my ride said he didn't want to be on the road for six hours so...meh. I have a wonderful family paying for all this without even asking for anything in return.
I went out to the hills last night and met up with two old friends I had a bit of a falling out with last year. I introduced them to MXE and they both seemed to enjoy it. Had a wonderful trip wobbling around the country side doing a bunch of nothing. Walked about a mile out to the train tracks at 1am and met the north bound train. It stops somewhere a long the line there, I think about a mile or so down the line from where we were at.
We met him in a corner so the lights caught us as it rolled by, I waved and gave the guys a big old peace sign as they came by and the conductor responded with a toot on his horn. Was amazing watching the train go by and eventually come to a full stop. We spent awhile smoking and admiring the graffiti on the train cars, yelled for any illegal passengers to join us for a smoking session but got no response. Talked about hopping on for a ride, quickly decided it wasn't a good idea, and continued on our walk. Tripped til about 3am and decided to call it a night. I parted ways with my old friends and drove home thinking I was down, quickly realized that no...I was not. Thankfully the drive home was uneventful aside from 50mph feeling like 5mph. Didn't feel unsafe but happy I didn't meet any traffic, deer, or cops. Do not suggest...
I decided to spend the day with family, and tomorrow I have a bunch of cleaning up to do. Gotta troll through my bedroom for long forgotten cut up straws, oral syringes, baggies, and anything else I wouldn't want discovered. Maybe I'll find some long forgotten pills? Who knows. I hope to finish early and spend the afternoon with friends and maybe meet up with a BLer.
I have PMs to respond to but that'll have to wait until I'm down from my trip. I'm shooting high tonight. 80mgs of MXE plugged with another 80mg pre-measured out for oral re-dose if I feel the need. The rest of my stash I'll either give away or cram into a gel-cap to be popped mid-flight. I plan on flying high Sunday.
Wish me luck on my journey tonight, I hope to do some spiritual work and don't plan on begin anywhere near coherent to the rest of the world until 3 or 4am. I've been working on something I feel may be of some importance to the rest of you. It started as a speech and is turning into a novel. Will it go down as the rants of a mad man or a work of importance? Time will tell, perhaps it'll be a little of both.
Be good all
I just worry too much! (Us women can get emotional). But I obvi don't want to see anything bad happen to any of my bdd socialites and the dope game pretty much has the same end for everyone. 
I love to just lay on my bed with my phone open to the notepad and just type whatever's going through my head and timestamp it...it keeps me amused forever when I'm fucked up even though I rarely reread the jibberish I type out. And it keeps me from texting people which has gotten me in trouble before, sending straight people texts that are coherent, like my spelling is mostly good, but make NO sense.