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The May Getting / Staying Sober Thread vs. April showers bring May flowers

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Ian937 said:
Day 4 clean now back on the sub 1mg day after a brief relapse, feelin good gonna try and sleep now so I can wake up early enough to enjoy a little freetime before work at 5pm .. I work everyday besides friday so i gotta get in where i can fit in..ha im such a loser
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You're doing GREAT my friend!! Keep it up.

Hey I totally feel you on the whole work thing- I work 40+ hours a week and have classes too- not much of a life on my end either =D
 
Thankyou rx! Youve been a great support, and i truly appreciate it :). I find truth in thr statement its easier to keep what you got when youre helping others obtain it too
 
Ian937 said:
Thankyou rx! Youve been a great support, and i truly appreciate it :). I find truth in thr statement its easier to keep what you got when youre helping others obtain it too
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Please keep us updated! We enjoy having you here :)
 
another great day in recovery. spent the evening with my sponsor then went to my gorgeous friends house where I spent time with her and her bf (grrrr). 2 weeks until he goes to boot camp. time to change my username to "Casanova" ;) she's known him for 2 weeks and has talked to me for hours about her thinking she doesn't want to be with him. *rubs hands together and grins* I can show her a real gentleman. I don't intend to steal by any means.

side note: coming to terms with my sexuality a bit. I'm watching taboo and its showing female bodybuilders and they showed one who's kinda hot honestly.

also going to the ASC meeting with my sponsor so I can be my homegroups alternate GSR huzzah.
 
Chickened out about starting the subs yesterday. Gonna do last bag today and start tomorrow. Yea, it always seems like "tomorrow" never comes. I want to be clean but but but but...getting sick of my own excuses.
Anyway, a few more posts and I shall be a BLUELIGHTER!!!
 
well quitting smoking.. idk what to say.. that was easy as pie.. wow, 90 millionth time i tried for that must be the trick.. damn usedtobe, i guess i will give you a little friendly poke here, you could have been through the whole withdraws CT a couple of times by now;).. Hey im just saying=D No but in all reality way to hang in there.. it is so hard, but the hardest part of anything is starting.. you can do this<3!!
 
Yup I know...what a waste this past month has been. Went to a meeting tonite though, and feeling motivated.
 
usedtobe said:
Yup I know...what a waste this past month has been.
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Hmm, IDK.. BL?

usedtobe said:
Went to a meeting tonite though, and feeling motivated.
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=D<3=D<3=D WAY TO GO!!!! Funny how the part of our brain that harbors the addiction also controls the fear.. likes to throw that fear on anything that it knows is there to kill it;) how justified were those initial fears, not to justified if my guess is write.. Hmm where else is it throwing that fear.. oh yeah thats right.. at the switch to suboxone.. Nice work Used to be!!!!! The only thing you have to fear is not getting clean!!! give yourself the credit for facing your fears and hitting the meeting.. just keep moving forward used2b.. amazing steps in the right direction today <3
 
Apart from the one slip up the other week, it's been 6 weeks since I decided to stop drinking. I still haven't decided what I'm going to be doing about other drugs though. Had a little cannabis binge this weekend and already notice the difference after being sober for so long.
 
Re-distributed said:
Apart from the one slip up the other week, it's been 6 weeks since I decided to stop drinking. I still haven't decided what I'm going to be doing about other drugs though. Had a little cannabis binge this weekend and already notice the difference after being sober for so long.
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That's still great Re-Dist- you're headed in the right direction for sure <3
 
RedLeader said:
I always sleep with the window open, since I don't have air-conditioning. Anyway, I live right next to a high school and it was hosting some 24 hour charity walk overnight. Was very loud all night (I don't care, it has good intentions...it was just LOUD!), so my dreams were very influenced by that, so very strange.

51 days no heroin today. Did not realise I hit 50 yesterday (good when you stop counting days, right?). My weed guy has gone MIA, and to be honest I have no clue how to find weed at this age, so it looks like that will be stopping. Managed to pull off one more month of free rent, so I have a few more weeks to find real work before it could get bad.
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Congrats on your 51 days man!
 
Still off heroin... two weeks and three days. Yes, I know that isn't shit, but its the longest I have been off it in awhile. Now, if only I stop having these urges to go hangout with my friend and relapse. She lives right next to my heroin dealers. So I've been avoiding her. So maybe I'm cheating by doing that.
 
xstayfadedx said:
Still off heroin... two weeks and three days. Yes, I know that isn't shit, but its the longest I have been off it in awhile. Now, if only I stop having these urges to go hangout with my friend and relapse. She lives right next to my heroin dealers. So I've been avoiding her. So maybe I'm cheating by doing that.
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2 weeks & 3 days is still great! You have to start somewhere. When we get clean or plan on getting clean it's always wise to not hang out with people who may trigger us, as hard as It may be. So you're making the right decision :)

Keep it up!!
 
rx_prn said:
2 weeks & 3 days is still great! You have to start somewhere. When we get clean or plan on getting clean it's always wise to not hang out with people who may trigger us, as hard as It may be. So you're making the right decision :)

Keep it up!!
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Thank you, and oh how I know... I always get clean and always relapse :( Hopefully this time will be different. Maybe I should start going to meetings again.
 
xstayfadedx said:
Still off heroin... two weeks and three days. Yes, I know that isn't shit, but its the longest I have been off it in awhile. Now, if only I stop having these urges to go hangout with my friend and relapse. She lives right next to my heroin dealers. So I've been avoiding her. So maybe I'm cheating by doing that.
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Congrats on the clean time man. It ain't easy.
 
xstayfadedx said:
Still off heroin... two weeks and three days. Yes, I know that isn't shit, but its the longest I have been off it in awhile. Now, if only I stop having these urges to go hangout with my friend and relapse. She lives right next to my heroin dealers. So I've been avoiding her. So maybe I'm cheating by doing that.
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Congrats, keep it up. Don't feel bad I have been pretty much avoiding so called "friends" who I used to get very drunk with, and I was even invited to an actual friend's wedding/bachelor party but I just RVSPed no to them.
 
I've slipped this month and don't even know why. Barely been able to log in since, don't know what that's about either. Shame? Letting the side down? Feeling triggered? None of those quite cut it, though there may be small nuggets of truth in them all perhaps. It was as slips go trivial: four pack of beer and a half bottle of vodka. Didn't even get drunk, I drank like a normal person, couple of beers and a vodka and coke nursed over an evening, it lasted me three nights, no drinking through the day or for breakfast as in times gone by. It could almost have been a 'healthy' approach to normal, moderate drinking. Except I'm pissed off about it, I shouldn't have bought it, I dunno why I did. Exhaustion maybe, stress at work, resistance being broken down to the point of breaking. I dunno. Fortnight ago now, back on the wagon but damn it's pissed me off mightily that I'm back counting days just about to chalk up two weeks sober this weekend instead of being halfway through month three. FFS! :X
 
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