The April getting/staying sober thread vs Moonwalking ( backward steps )

[ad lib]

March was a success & Im so proud of everyone, and myself!

If you're not already clean, let this thread serve as inspiration to you. Spring is a great time for new beginnings!

If youre already sober - let's keep encouraging each other and stick by each others sides. %)

Couple quotes from March:

I have switched over to IM bupe, and I'm planning on coming off of this in another month or two, hopefully.

Fifteen minutes after midnight here, so fuck you March, I nailed you! One month down.

I'll let some of you U.S. West Coasters catch up before we all move on to April but my clock's already ticking. Day one . . . .

One more day of March! Happy Easter to all of you. I celebrated the solstice as I don't celebrate these kinda holidays.

Tomorrow makes two months...
Kinda scared I'm starting to replace opiates with Xanax though...

I do some stuuuuupid shit on Xanax too... -_-

Lets do this!

 

[RedLeader]

16 days off heroin. It was hard the first week, but as soon as the dreams stopped it got easier. The geographical relocation really helped too.

I have been listening to a lot of psytrance and psybiant, as well as spending a lot of time outdoors. I feel like a hippie again, haha. But seriously, I have lost touch with myself these past few years due to heroin, and I gotta get it back before it's too late. I miss my creativity, my generosity, my sense of adventure. I understand that I was more addicted to the ritual than the high (I think because in tine the h stops working, but the ritual is still the same). I don't know really what is gonna happen, but right now I don't want it anymore. Time to move on.

April is about rebuilding (and oh do I ever have a mess to clean up) and getting healthy/fit. Intend to be sober aside from cannabis and some otc herbs. May is going to be about big changes. Dunno what, but I need to break free of addiction and the rat-race and make life enjoyable again.

 

[Timber]

I wish the greatest success and comfort during this period! The initial withdrawal is hard, but its the stuff that comes after that really tests the desire to stay off. Relocating was probably a great thing in terms of not having the same circle of friends, but it can be incredibly lonely if you don't have any friends in the new area.

Good luck!

 

[ad lib]

@ RedLeader: I like that plan I lost so many friends while I was using & "lost" in various other aspects, but I'm rebuilding too. I have all the faith in the world that things will work out well for you. You'll find enjoyment in life again, even if only in the simple things. Your clean time is amazing, congratulations :]

I've often thought about relocating. The area where I live just isn't "me". I dream of just packing my stuff up in my car & driving, stopping wherever fate wants me too. I can't be too sure though. I can only see what the future holds.

Lets make April be even more amazing than March- physically, emotionally, and spiritually. We can ALL accomplish what we want!

 

[Sepher]

I feel you RL. I've been calming myself with all sorts courtesy of the Psybient Pack Project here myself. Younger Brother ( yet another stunning Simon Posford incarnation, everything he's done is just gold! ), Tripswitch and Shulman FTW! And it seems Spring, while not yet sprung exactly, is thinking about it hard at last. Yay to the return of the Sun. Will be making the most of that myself, I hear the rock calling.

March was just about climbing back on the horse after my last relapse. Took all my energy doing that, had none left for anything or anyone else really. April is about consolidating, and putting my energy into making proper steps forward now I've arrested the slide back. I have a good feeling about it after a truly awful month.

'Grats on the 16 days RL. You got this. You're too intelligent with too many obvious good qualities as a man to let this beat you.

Anyways. Let's do this. Good luck everybody, see you same time, same place next month, day one again with another month clean and / or sober under our belts.

 

[MiraLuv]

I have 6 days off heroin. Mornings are hard because that is when I usually would go and get it. It's also still hard because I feel like sometimes durring the day the withdrawal will creep back slowly. Just a slight feeling and then pass. Maybe this is just bad cravings? I think bordom is a big deal for me. I really want to be able to say I have a month clean later on this month! I really need some support though.

 

[Sepher]

Yeah, boredom's difficult Miraluv. Being a heroin addict is a bit of a full-time job isn't it, that whole endless score / use cycle, rinse, repeat. Need to find something to fill those hours. I know you have a young son and you said you're in school on another thread so I know it might be difficult juggling that but how much free time do you have to yourself that might be in need of filling? Make use of the meetings as much as you can if you're finding them useful. What else do you enjoy doing you might be able to fit in?

Massive congrats on the six days. Yeah, you probably do have some residual withdrawal symptoms left but you should be pretty much done with it, next few days hopefully things will improve some more. Keep on talking to us, let us know how you're doing, what's on your mind, we'll help as best we can. Glad to have you with us through April. You can do this, I have every confidence if that's what you want. Good luck!

 

[spork]

Im gonna try this again...

 

[stardust.hero]

Kickass title rx. Not fully clean because I'm forced to taper but I haven't gone up and I've continued to decrease my dose so that's one step closer to being completely clean. I can say I'm so much better mentally than I was last Monday so there is progress. Keep going strong guys

 

[ad lib]

Im gonna try this again...

You can do it hun

Kickass title rx. Not fully clean because I'm forced to taper but I haven't gone up and I've continued to decrease my dose so that's one step closer to being completely clean. I can say I'm so much better mentally than I was last Monday so there is progress. Keep going strong guys

That's a ton of progress! Every day you taper/do not revert to previous ways is one step closer.

 

[Space Firebird]

In on page one.

 

[MiraLuv]

Sepher i go to school one night a week and go to one meeting a week so other then that I'm home alone with my son. I've been off work now for a year. I can see that my addiction got worse when I had nothing to do. Well I finish my phlebotomy course on April 22. That's the day I take my certification test. And April 9th I start my dialysis tech course that ends in August. My unemployment ends June 23 so I and hoping to find a job in a lab doing blood draws soon and I will have 100 hours of dialysis clinicals to do and class on Tuesday nights. So my life is about to get really busy. I have to stay clean. With the career I am choosing I can't get into any trouble and I have to be clean to get a job. So I have a lot of reasons to stay clean!! I had a strong urge to go get a bag this morning but I didn't I read my AA book instead! I usually give into cravings right away! This is the first time I waited to let it pass. Any ideas on how to get through cravings all the time? How long do they usually last or does it vary?
Thank you all for the support! I really need it right now. I feel that my life is at a cross road right now. It could go really bad if I give in to my addiction or it could go great if I stay clean and get through school and start my new career.

 

[RedLeader]

Seph: How about you send me a PM containing any psybient suggestions you have for me to check out. I got the Younger Brother queued up. I especially like stuff with Indian and/or Arabic influence.

I have no car and walk/run at least ten miles a day. I have plenty of time to review new music. Especially in the morning. If I can get a good walk, workout and music season in, I am good for the day. As a night-owl with a nostalgia for mornings, I am so glad I converted to an early schedule. It's easier on the mind this way.

rx: If I could shout one thing from the dark side rooftops it would be to travel. The best decision of my life was impulsively moving across the world when I was younger. AA is everywhere, which is always a way to meet people. BL has a far reach too. Ya, your internal problems follow you, but often your external ones don't. And the internal and external influence one another. Change your surroundings, change yourself.

 

[ad lib]

rx: If I could shout one thing from the dark side rooftops it would be to travel. The best decision of my life was impulsively moving across the world when I was younger. AA is everywhere, which is always a way to meet people. BL has a far reach too. Ya, your internal problems follow you, but often your external ones don't. And the internal and external influence one another. Change your surroundings, change yourself.

I'm traveling at the end of this month, I am SO excited. Everything around here I can associate with usage and that intensifies my cravings. I do need to get away!

 

[neversickanymore]

rx: If I could shout one thing from the dark side rooftops it would be to travel. The best decision of my life was impulsively moving across the world when I was younger. AA is everywhere, which is always a way to meet people. BL has a far reach too. Ya, your internal problems follow you, but often your external ones don't. And the internal and external influence one another. Change your surroundings, change yourself.

Couldn't agree more

On to april I guess.. spring has to break soon.. man feeling really good today, just chiln all day through everything, yeah i think thats the way to do it.. hope everyone is doing good.

 

[Serotonin101]

About to head to a meeting about 40 min away. Doing alright today. Gonna do some step work tonight.

 

[RangersFan]

Doing better

 

[neversickanymore]

Hey ranger.. Don't let the paws get you down.. thats what its trying to do, make you so tired and depressed and down you will just use, relax, you know the drill, this will pass, gets better quick as you know.. don't beat yourself up over this little thing.. Welcome to the staying clean thread.. here are a couple that may help with that PAWS funk, read and list all thats going good, brush off that nonsense its throwing you off

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/...ful-for-ver-2-thankful-for-all-the-darksiders!

http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/threads/663215-Good-things-about-being-off-drugs-getting-sober

 

[Timber]

Another day... Too much homework to truly post my thoughts, and I don't feel like touching any of it ...but I also don't feel like failing out of school. Still struggling with the apathy blues severely off and on; it at least lets up for periods now.

I had some an awesome day the other day getting through several days of work when the apathy lifted. I'm hoping some exercise will lift it and I can get some more work done tonight.

 

[tamarinds]

Im on this boat. Getting high is killing me literally.

Gonna work out until fatigue everyday
Here we goooooo. Good luck