Altered Perception
Bluelighter
I've been taking Oxycodone daily for 5 years and now I'm trying to quit by cutting down from 100mg which consists of:
5 X 20mg instant release Oxycodone Hydrochloride = 100mg
So what I've been doing is instead of eating 5 of the 20mg capsules (100mg) , I hold out until bedtime and then eat only 2 of the 20mg capsules, so thats 40mg.
Now that 40mg dose seems to be sufficient to help me sleep and stop the withdrawals until the next night before bed but then things start going downhill as each day passes. This is what I don't understand. Shouldn't it get easier? Then why is it getting harder for me?
Let me show you.
day 1: took 2 X 20mg capsules (40mg) at 12pm midnight- no withdrawals and able to wait until the next dose
day 2: took 2 X 20mg capsules (40mg) at 12pm midnight - mild withdrawals but able to wait for next days dose
day 3: took 2 X 20mg capsules (40mg) at 12pm midnight -woke up with withdrawals next day but was able to hang on until 12 pm midnight
day 4: took 2 X 20mg capsules (40mg) at 12pm midnight - woke up with severe withdrawals, can't wait for 12pm midnight for next dose
So as you can see on day 4 I start to lose it and I can no longer wait for my bedtime dose of 40mg so I end up taking an extra 1 capsule (20mg) upon waking up with withdrawals in the hope that the 1 capsule will help me make it until midnight in which I can take my 2 capsules (40mg). But then it gets worse...
day 6: took 1 X20mg (20mg) upon waking up from sleep, but then before my next midnight dose began to experience withdrawals. So at some point even taking an early dose of 20mg followed by 40mg at midnight becomes insufficient. This is what I dont understand. That's what i need help with. It never used to be like this but I think i may have fucked up my opiate receptors by doing something called "kindling" its where you quit for a few days and then relapse and then quit again for a few days again and then binge and then relapse and when you do it often enough your opiate receptors get confused and messed up.
Looking forward to your opinion. Thank you.
5 X 20mg instant release Oxycodone Hydrochloride = 100mg
So what I've been doing is instead of eating 5 of the 20mg capsules (100mg) , I hold out until bedtime and then eat only 2 of the 20mg capsules, so thats 40mg.
Now that 40mg dose seems to be sufficient to help me sleep and stop the withdrawals until the next night before bed but then things start going downhill as each day passes. This is what I don't understand. Shouldn't it get easier? Then why is it getting harder for me?
Let me show you.
day 1: took 2 X 20mg capsules (40mg) at 12pm midnight- no withdrawals and able to wait until the next dose
day 2: took 2 X 20mg capsules (40mg) at 12pm midnight - mild withdrawals but able to wait for next days dose
day 3: took 2 X 20mg capsules (40mg) at 12pm midnight -woke up with withdrawals next day but was able to hang on until 12 pm midnight
day 4: took 2 X 20mg capsules (40mg) at 12pm midnight - woke up with severe withdrawals, can't wait for 12pm midnight for next dose
So as you can see on day 4 I start to lose it and I can no longer wait for my bedtime dose of 40mg so I end up taking an extra 1 capsule (20mg) upon waking up with withdrawals in the hope that the 1 capsule will help me make it until midnight in which I can take my 2 capsules (40mg). But then it gets worse...
day 6: took 1 X20mg (20mg) upon waking up from sleep, but then before my next midnight dose began to experience withdrawals. So at some point even taking an early dose of 20mg followed by 40mg at midnight becomes insufficient. This is what I dont understand. That's what i need help with. It never used to be like this but I think i may have fucked up my opiate receptors by doing something called "kindling" its where you quit for a few days and then relapse and then quit again for a few days again and then binge and then relapse and when you do it often enough your opiate receptors get confused and messed up.
Looking forward to your opinion. Thank you.